Letter to Luoyang Chen

Time is passing, just a little, and I am still
becoming something other than I set out to be.

Piecemeal translations of SHINee lyrics –
you heard this in your mother’s car, you said;
a child. We are not each other’s children,

we are not – but at the park –
under your moon – a birthday

Could you give responsibility of yourself
to someone else
, you asked. I am trying,

over there, or in this moment, or maybe
less & less now, just a little –

Lightly touching the back of your neck,
perfectly silly mullet, or when you said
you feared you might forget yourself, mister

Ripley, mister Kundera, mister you:
the blossoming taste, the crushed ants

of your throat. Your goddess in the moon
above; I must remember, just a little.

Three nights ago my ex passed me
emergency sleeping pills, and I
dreamed of a world without you.

You were here:

atop your wolves. At one beach
or another, at McDonald’s, the books
on the train from Fremantle home.

I think I heard you howling. Just a little.

You told me you had dreamed of me
before we met. Pretend, now, you are
sleeping, Luoyang. What do I say next?

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Earth Apple

You stack his limbs, like kindling, on an eggshell mattress
study his mottled skin. Yellow and bruised
as though bitten by late blight. Hanging
each breath’s a little dust-cloud
his halo
settles into sediment, raining
spittle flecks on starchy sheets. You peel them back
like paperbark
and find him buried underneath —

a lumpy tuber,
skin full of solanine,
hidden from the sun too long, until even bone and gristle’s
gone soft, spine folding back
into a fetal form: waning
crescent moon, a sickle,
something perennial, nested,
wrinkling, and almost ready to rot.

He lays in the darkness,
you stand under pearl-light, holding
his marble palms, the colour of a storm cloud. Asking them
do these fingers miss burrowing,
like earthworms, in the dirt?
do they remember pressing palm-to-palm,
to pray?
palm-to-phallus,
to please?
do they remember how to pinch,
ripe cherries, from spring-green bows?
were they ever painted,
rose-red1, in protest?
or were they already tawny and congealed?

You wash his limbs and bruises,
his hypha, every fold,
nail bed, axilla, callous, bristles, lenticels,
his flaccid penis, anus, navel. Tenderly,
thinking of the Persian word for potato —

You are a candle burning
in the oppressive arms of a man2
woman —
perfectly imperfect, baring fuzzy flesh,
caesarean scar, your eyes
lapis lazuli
bathing milk-tears
woman —
you bellow
in the language of the birds,
even your resistance is poetry
woman —
you cut your hair
tie it around a wax-waist,
your flame burns
brighter from a shorter wick
and this man becomes your shadow.

Tying stone-things to your lily-white feet
to walk upon roiling waters.
Sticking blood-things over the black-eyed CCTV beast
Humbaba, hah hah hah!
he’s blinded in his own cedar forest.
Burning fire-things to purify this city,
white-ash and lime mortar
veiling lid and temple.

You bury the soft bones of your lover, oppressor,
brother, your father and your son;
and from the grave of a potato
new life grows.

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Uncer Giedd / Our Song

this time you be the prey
& I’ll be the predator


this time you’re stranded
on an island of violent men

& I defeat them all
with the battle-strong
branches of my bōgum

this time I devour you
like a wolf

this time you find me
crying in the middle of the forest

& cover me with heavy branches
until I can barely breathe


this time I save you
from a tyrant husband


this time you be wyn
& I’ll be lāð


this time you be the wolf
& I’ll be the whelp


this time you are an island
surrounded by blood
& I have to drink it all
to save you


this
wæs mē wyn tō þon


this
uncer giedd geaddor


the weird
endlesss
aching song
we make together

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icarus in the gloaming

i cannot deny the sky was alluring as Instagram
despite curfew, gulls flying south
into torn edges of violet-hued clouds.
the power of bigotry is a machinery, often brutal
returning from naarm, almost touching the moon
before the next cruelty-free landing,
you asked me, what did i do with my life?
woke blunders, small embarrassments in the precinct,
you know, the maze our fathers invented for our demise?
i started a mutiny, gave birth, scribbled on my palm.
bought an ostrich feather boa scarf on Etsy.
high as His Highness, i lived with blackouts,
lost sight of dad over chalk farm where the canal
meets the lock. like the mechanical buckle of a train’s
burning axle, like those delicious evenings
when schoolgirls walk the street, smoking weed,
lights flashing through the trees, i could hear traffic,
sirens at noon coalesce with whipper snippers,
frogs, cicadas, soon it would be the hour of bats.

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SORRY IM JUST A BASIC HYSTERIC!!!!!!!! a love & farewell letter to the clyde hotel on cardigan.

hysteria might be an intolerance for the messiness of gender
a wilderness of being, no civitas beneath stockings
unclothed, i am most invisible to myself unclothed
was that the kettle?
fish be to god, glory, highhighhhhhHHHHHHHHHHsssshhhhH

there is no such thing as a sexual relationship (wink emoji)
sometimes the sexiest thing is not to.
what could be sweeter than knowing
what you could have gotten–
or gotten away with

getting what you want
changes your idea of what you can get
don’t even @ me about what you’re entitled to

jesus was a tradie who was gay for books1
and spoke up at reading groups, at 12.
when people swear “jesus christ on a bicycle”
they’re taking his relationship
with mary magdalene in vain

the social-justice framework you bring
to the redistribution of sandwiches
does not hold up for fucking2
angels are not owed embraces
the devil is fucking her raw
while you spell-check your love letters,
daydreaming of more-than-half-meant blowjobs

i want to meet the people who use dental dams,
and feed them gummy bears on blueberry yoghurt

i’ve heard it hurts when you’re born into a combination
of skin and bone that makes people think
your love is less than

sorry, im just a basic hysteric,
(constantly competing with sublime hysterics, the only thing i share with hegel
is a star sign)
assigned a bastard at birth
half-un-white

a pimple on the otherwise smooth backside of identity
children happen. (existence, suddenly/i didn’t ask for it)

the sound of transience3 is
the train you just missed,
from frankston to flinders street
sunday midnight.
holding hands at the gallery
might be nice

i don’t know how to hold
what’s worth preserving
love is a story you tell
when saying “that’s not enough” feels selfish

there’s enough of me to be 100%
to all my commitments & to poetry
i am thermopylae and tirad pass4
in the alternate timeline where the underdogs win

im just a basic hysteric, not those sublime ones
we discuss at the Clyde5 while Darlene6 purrs on the carpet,
das ding behind those refrigerator doors we’ve never opened,
the mystery
keeps us returning

the things i can’t say to your face
i write in Cordite.

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lifesong (anti-elegy for a friend)

She plays Chopin by the seashore
like someone in love // someone rubbed the wrong way—
days under drought & flood
evenings under ash & microbial mists
miasma invades & infects &
murders the will to play—
January inertia // full immersion
in absurd perversions // worst version
of the Self—cycled unconscious
re-conscious of-conscious if-conscious
reverberations in the cranial reservoir.

Men in iron masks came to take her away
to maim/reclaim/defame her melodies
but rage of the lyrical
cracks the liberal & the literal //
the mystical physical inimitable rebel
cooks florid with fluid flames
& wears a chrysanthemum
in her hair.

We’re doing alright these days thanks //
together searching for effervescent dynamism—
white wine realists & red wine Romantics //
truth hurts but it doesn’t harm //
breaking free from suffocating ecstasy
& homogenous hegemony
& analysis paralysis //
we harmonise with 12am streetlights
illuminating how strange the city is on sleepless nights.

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The Northern Suburbs

i.

North of Warwick Road, The Underworld. We arDe caught in the flux: an Elysium dream. Our torment, Asphodel. The bitumen stretch of a buck, how pay-checks glimmer. MyGov is a dark god, a robo of debt. Inanna catches the 443, peels off her flesh, hangs her ego on a hook. She alights into golden hour: new names blossom across muscle and vein. A pair of Great Crested Grebes elaborate courtship, a ritual of shaking heads, ducking necks, turning left, right, algae in beak a bouquet gift. Another makes this place less other.



ii.

Glysophate bleeds the kerb, luminescent sprawl. The weeds curl back. Over at Duncraig High, kids play hacky-sack with the head of Orpheus. Blood-stained ankles, red sheened knees. They sing as they kick, exalt a poem to face down the impending tick tock tick. Anubis is the dog down the street who heralds them home, hounding joy. There is loyalty in knowing this will end. Meanwhile, on Lake Joondalup, an Australasian Darter rides low, submerges to spear fish: see death move down an elegant throat.



iii.

A tradie plasters as if pushing a boulder up a hill. Each night, crimson beaked, he reclines and gives his liver to the sprits. But his apprentice does not sleep, inhales permafrost with callused hands, an atrophy of dreams. In dust filled rentals, scales tip with feathered flesh. Walls crack, let out ghosts. In a shroud of chemicals, shadows talk if you stare at them for too long. In Yellagonga Regional Park, a Tawny Frogmouth swallows the sun with their flat lipped grin.



iv.

Our drones add more scars to the night. Eurydice walks home alone. Her knuckles glisten with keys as she threads a prayer into streetlight: dear man walking ahead of me, do not look back, do not look back. Elsewhere, teens stalk the suburbs, their faces illuminated by hand-held lanterns. They seek the soft spots of this world, places where reverie can yield thanks to a holy communion with goon. At dawn, on the Iluka Foreshore, a father fairy-wren sings to their eggs: this, a song we pass on.
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Running Out of Air

After Bertolt Brecht

From the cities we escape
in vehicles laden, but quickly
abandon them

On highways and back roads
leaving doors open and keys
in ignitions. We take

That which we can carry—
babies, animals, their wide
eyes questioning our resolve, everything.

On sides of roads youths
and middle-aged men explode
fuel tanks, as the props of their lives

Are lost—abandoned. Tweens
traipse behind asking, what have you
done—look!

No one answers, the old women
count wrinkles on their hands, look
what’s done is done…

Like coral in reefs all that’s left
are thorns,
the flood has come—taken all.

Remember councils, they pulled all
the fruit trees we planted
along verges.

And the child in her pram points to plumes
of dust; we eat fire and heat. Scientists
think of how to measure now machines

Have ceased and whether water drinks light
more or less, now it’s so humid, so hot.

Is anyone up there, can they see
if we’re running out of air?

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Nomenclature: In All My Beginnings, Fatherhood Is Erased

It’s June, and I am tired of writing the same pentameter – my father’s dark hands and poor heart. The air curls with stillness, ascending from my lips – like he had so many times, before his heart gave out. Name a prettier way to plead guilty. Everything that reminds me of him cannot be my mother’s fault, and in the bereaved room, a semicircle of faces crowing, as though the first sunlight reaching down from the window shade had not in itself come with rage. From the tops of a few high brush, the voice of a blue jay calls, untouched, and for a moment, the past sits still inside another song, made of flesh and bone. At last, after a night of weeping, and striding between the two long benches at the corridor, heartbreak is simply as teleological as any other thrust. As a matter of fact, what prospect did my mother have then, if not the wind spilling with blossoms inside her? Five and a half years together, and my prodigal father says: I don’t love you anymore. There’s a dark cloud so heavy we get lost in it, which means my father was born and reborn from a single mistake, only to be hemmed back driven by pleasure. How much unsated mistake is too much? My father’s hair purpled by goose eggs thrown in from a river he’d tried to cross over. It is important for me to say, I wasn’t born yet how I know – memory functions like any other forms of semiology. Always, I see in my mother a kind of beforetime. That’s the other thing about conditioning. I taste the salt where affection rusts and every other human face is me; sesame, pumpkin and sunflowers. Isn’t that what it means to love too much – the heart, a reliquary full and rising. I think of her almost every time I fall in love – how the rush of a name parades grief with tenacious hunger. In profile, my father is lying on the edge of the box spring bed, beneath a rich velvet quilt, and it is midnight, my mother’s arm around him, ready to root. Genetically, they were naked, talking together and nothing grew between them.

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And here, now, again

And here, now, again,
we fall as quick and deep and sure as ever
dive into the rush of it,
and settle to swim with the current
let my body dash against rock
and crumble
if that is the fate of it
or come up breathless
in the air of a new world
the sunlight at new angles
leaves, dappled in unknown dews
and you
endlessly soft
hard
sweet
and demanding
I crawl through dusk to kneel at your feet
proffer chains
to possess and be possessed by
to be dispossessed of.

no gods
no masters

except this worship freely given
this trust laid bare placed into your
unexplored hand explore me
show me the edges of myself

run along the lines of desire,

coax from me all royal arrogance
that you may offer such gifts back,

I learn to give pain
without injury
to trust my own hands and your words
and our bodies
taking each other to edge of the edge of the edge
of a new day
light
love
oh!

to you
to you

I would give myself freely and take without fear
if you will give
your
yes

yes
you, who I see in persistent sun
rising and rising and rising again,
celebrating mortal magic,
magic as ours to tap and share
a beacon to disciples in your ways of
wild/wise/queer/sexy/healing power,

oh! you
how I’d run for you

oh! you
how we’d
be living our lives
in infinite dancing
with laughter flowering
through our teeth

and you!
oh!

how you’ve learned to love
before anyone taught to teach you

seeking every scrap meaning
to offer to community
to connection
to art, magic and myth

I come to you with nothing by a mind and body
and hope for nothing but a glimpse
of the worlds you hold
of the thousand kinds of joy in your fingers

oh you,
you!
oh
I love how you love

oh, there is no world in which I would not
love you

no Earth great enough to pull us apart,
no city so small
we could not change it,

take my hand,
we are transformed

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{The First Time}

The first time he saw snow, he walked
from the worksite all the way to the housing,

the road choking with snirt, the headlights

sweeping the lonely landscape, the polycrystals
glinting before going dark. Starless and cold,

the sky opened up with snowburst.

He was tired yet his body, as if of its own accord,

glided across
the white scene, the wonder of it all

a magnet that pulled his mind out of itself, and into the heart

of every snowflake that fell. The world stood

still. And he regarded the stillness with the awe
of a boy growing

up in the valley of his now distant country. Life then, there,
was slow, like a river deep in summer.

In Kurosawa’s Dreams, a boy had stumbled on a slow wedding procession
of fox spirits, each step a ceremony, every

move of the body a ritual in serenity.

In Niigata when the evening snow gathered
on the invisible ground, his heart went after

every wintry powder that drifted
in the wind,

his self unable to contain the bliss

he thought he could not have.

There was no time that time in Niigata—just a worker

discovering his happiness.

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And yet, and yet, and yet

The koolbardi-magpies on noongar boodja-country are thirsty. The water coming out of the cold tap is warm. A lonely ibis prowl outside the public library, desperate for the air conditioning, or maybe company and the blessed solitude of books. This city: its harsh buildings plastered with their logos – unbearable. The children’s metal fair rides burn our skin. I feel guilty lighting Hanukkah candles in this heat, watch them studiously (just in case). I imagine the headline: “bushfire started from abandoned Hanukkah candles in third-floor apartment”.

I wonder what I’ll tell my children (and their children) what I was doing with my life as everything was unravelling. (I should speak in the present tense. Is. Are. I should be more specific: ecosystems, species, sense of self. And you may find yourself living in an age of mass extinction.)1 Maybe I’ll tell those children about the point where the day tips over. The heat subsides. We come past the lip of a wave, the trail on a steep hillside, making it down the other side.

My most hated phrase is net zero by 2050. I know this isn’t a sexy thing to put in a poem. And yet, and yet, and yet. Here we are. Net zero by 2050, floats up from some millionaire or billionaire’s imagination, unconstrained by forces of physics or basic compassion. Spoken by people wearing suits who will be dead soon, for whom 2050 is a slow afternoon acid fever dream. They can’t even imagine one generation, let alone thirty years.

Children: the myth and promise of them; As elusive as net zero, as unsure as the reality that one day 2050 will be here. Or we will be there. Caught within its temporality. Time breaks open. Atoms split. Layers of radioactive dust and petroleum and now we have projected our presence forwards and backwards simultaneously. I was not born. These scales are not possible, and yet, and yet, and yet. Here we are.

Each day I count what I can, notice what is there, consider my steps
I spend summer in transit, watching sunsets through various modes of transport windows, orienting myself towards all the homes I have ever known
I spend summer purchasing jars of tahini and peanut butter, abruptly abandoning them in share houses and hotels for others to consume
I spend summer accepting that I’ll never get the Hollywood cliché coming out that I desire
It usually goes something like this: Parent and child sit in a living room. “I’ll always love you exactly as you are.” Then, tearful hugs and kisses. Cut to next scene.

Life doesn’t happen in that way. No Hollywood-one-challenging-moment-and-that’s-it. No net-zero-and-now-it’s-all-fixed.

only each moment, filled with suffering and abundance
as everything is unravelling, we balance or fight this dichotomy

create new ones, burn them down, tend to the seeds

our weariness carrying something of our ancestors and descendants

our palms containers of sea water

our fingers lighting candles

one by one

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Carrying water in an earthen vessel

I carry water in an earthen vessel. The jug is made from earth beneath the palash. I follow the birth of fire through the wilds. The lacuna is lined with fable and milk. Bone marrow flowers in the howls. There is a white swan by the lacuna. I will barter with the swan. Paramahamsa. The Supreme Swan. In my vessel is volcanic ash, lizard skin and burning cloves. It rains for the first time in this green village. I carry rainwater in an earthen vessel. The painter lines the lacuna with copper and wine. He is doubled over with an arched spine, like an Agnes Varda gleaner. He renders an image of the dictator with the thread from his mouth. The dictator stands under a fig tree, with Camel cigarettes in his pocket and a crow tattoo on his throat. The dictator weeps into an earthen vessel. The painter changes into a swan to flee the bowels of fictions. I carry the weeping dictator, swan and lacuna in an earthen vessel. The vessel returns to the earth as a thousand centipedes. The centipedes change into seeds for the workers to plant: anjeer, plantain, baobab.

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Another email to say they’ve thought about diversity

For T.B. and A.W.

In barren fields of fear I’m jolted by the inexperience of his words,
Plosive pleasure in defining our appeal
This scathes, rips us from a belonging to ourselves

The cacophony of colony in the air is beauty to them,
Heaving on its own poison as my heart pounds unheard
Unseen in a body once free, now commodified

I aim to reply with brisk hope but have hollow visions,
Chase wisps of a meandering fortitude
And by this overwhelming darkness am spurred on to be someone

The sickly flutter through my hands presses into keyboard letters,
With an old stealth I’m not grateful to have inherited
I manoeuvre around his white desire to be seen

In spawning warps I wander through my mind for miles,
Consider connection with the flailing tail ends of my pain,
Until a corner suddenly turned reveals the relief of warm light

For a moment
The violence of not being seen to have a body
Is defeated with a sibling’s words

Their cultures prosper on conformity
And while they are busy being afraid,
I remember you spoke of a way to see everything

I remember that afternoon,
I fell asleep to the refrain of your passion
Your essay’s melody revealing armour, my heart encased safely inside

The blood flows back to me in this new tide of belonging
The blanket is woven, knows my body is here
In the shimmering spaces between its fibres and me is an alchemy of care

I remember myself

I shake it off to run to his inbox, wish this warmth to stick to my skin

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Self-Care

Another death, another love shed
into earth, my old body made nude
again, a hairy burn in the crowd
of unknowable family. My wife
and son are behind the rock mound
we all plunder to give to the body
its roughest blanket, still life. Days
later my beloved suggests a pedicure,
an act of self-care I’ve never had.
I don’t know the name of the woman
given the task of washing my feet
and painting each nail shades of sea,
delicate greens, but I know now how
easy it is for a man to walk on water.

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Behind Every Job Ad in Indigenous Studies

there are countless meetings at which mouths were fired
like guns in the old familiar campaigns
from which overstretched Native faculty limped home to be nursed by loved ones
or by Netflix or by messenger threads or by many (too many?) bottles of wine

there are policy documents that do nothing
trumpeting fashionable virtue via a PR machine with phrases sweated over (bled over)
as if those who run the show were ever going to let any of the words run off the page
to change the world anyway

there are contingent sessional part time temporary contracts
bearing names of how many Native people who knew the game was rigged but signed anyway
who gave up nights weekends summers health for work the institution wouldn’t even know
was done in its classrooms in its parking lots in its name

there are others, the ones who have already had their first days there,
but have packed up offices and had last days too –
who moved on for whispered reasons that somehow get twisted into cautionary tales
stories of what they did wrong instead of the millions of things they did right

there are administrators decisionmakers faculty donors alums
who still don’t think this is a real field deserving of real investment
who will smile today for photos like so many cheshire cats
while prepping phrases for one or three or five or seven years later like ‘i guess it’s a matter of fit’

there are ghosts and mysteries and entities
seeping through floorboards
roaming hallways
resting in doorways
looking for descendants
holding with love those they find
trying to warn them about how this story so often ends

so go ahead, Indigenous scholars: apply for these jobs! get them!
be amazing! teach students! write books!
do all the things we collectively want – need – you to do

but do not do them as the first, as the one and only
don’t allow them to turn this into a first encounter scene

do these jobs with guts and support
do them with righteous anger and rigour and love

but most of all do them knowing every moment every day every season
all of those who have come before and around you

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family tree, year’s end

from pele to the pope, and this year’s end
continues in the chain of closing loops,
squaring the circles, _____ has left the group,
conclusions tend to be where novels trend.

unheralded as past-year policy
my last exceptions now grandfathered out
and i look upwards through my family tree
to find only my parents shading me
from the deep blue air phil larkin wrote about

one’s seventy next – what confucius called
the age of doing whatever the fuck you want
within the bounds of reason (and one can’t
expect the poor dead sage to get it all
correct in one sagacious fusillade)
— suffice to say this makes for spurious shade.

yet my own branch demands a reckoning:
forty, the age of no doubt (hey, don’t speak),
the tenuous boundary of my waist, which like
a trunk, each year grows yet another ring,
a thing of beaut … too much of a good thing,
my wife consigned to her tree-hugger’s fate
(oh lord, i probably can wear thirty-eight.)

and here i break to find a second wind,
which rustles through my well-whorled fingertips
reminding me my non-child-bearing hips
were not the ones that bore this budding grin;
bearing or boring him — his leaflet lips
and twiggy toes offshoot — overcomes me.
so looking down beneath the canopy
somewhere my end is where his world begins

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On Knowing

I was blonde with a baby on my hip,
staring into the ocean near our house.
I was brewing stovetop decaf, longing
to stay half awake, as I curled up
in the corners of my ambition; a night
lamp who was once a flood.

I was leaving lipstick mugs on the sink
of our next-door neighbour. He was
a man with splinter hands. You were dying
because you knew. Whenever you reached
inside of me, my body was a coat rack
clutching someone else’s shelter.

Still, we checked the weather
forecast and dressed accordingly.
Our pillowcases damp
with stifled laughter, as we lost sleep
sharing comedy routines.

I was blonde and we were in love
like old friends raising a future
in an underwater fireplace.

You were the first person I knew
I could stay with forever. Still, I kept
seeing your car on a cliff, my wailing
hip, our lips too thirsty to kiss.

Plus, I’d be a terrible blonde.

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Angela Costi Reviews Anita Patel, Denise O’Hagan and Penelope Layland

Petals Fall by Anita Patel
Recent Works Press, 2022

Anamnesis by Denise O’Hagan
Recent Works Press, 2022

Beloved by Penelope Layland
Recent Works Press, 2022





Since 2015, Recent Work Press has published a consistently high standard of poets with years of accomplished adventure including Paul Hetherington, Peter Bakowski, Anne Casey, Damen O’Brien, Phillip Hall, Anne Elvey, Jennifer Compton, Rico Craig, Heather Taylor-Johnson, Cassandra Atherton, Jen Webb, Adrian Caesar, and so many others. Initially, it was Canberra-oriented but has extended its author base to include national and international poets. Also, it considers the work of newer poets such as the following with forthcoming debut collections: Ally Chua, Es Foong, and Thabani Tshuma. Shane Strange, the founder of the press, explains the impetus in an interview with Rosanna Licari of StylusLit (Issue 11) as:

I wanted, in a sense, to democratise the fact of a book being published and to perhaps put a little pressure onto 
what was seen as ‘good’ poetry in Australia.

This press, with its continuous energetic output, is an invaluable contributor to Australia’s poetry and literature. In 2022, it released another twelve single author books including Petals Fall by Anita Patel, Anamnesis by Denise O’Hagan and Beloved by Penelope Layland. These are offerings with distinct worlds, form, and language. Each book deserving of a separate analysis.

The fifty poems in Petals Fall are sequenced deftly and carefully to provide a sense of storyline. One that is not easily described by including those frayed words – journey, migrants, heritage – as there is a spiritual, philosophical, or political inquisition underpinning the lines of each poem. From the opening poem ‘Vanished’, we are engaged with the nuance of culture folded within culture folded within culture as the poet’s mother from Kuala Lumpur searches for her daughter’s Italian wedding dress within the “Chinese camphor wood chest / (owned by her mother)” (1). This poem is weighted with the personal in order to take us to those moments in our lives where parental expectations misalign:

like flimsy dreams
for a cherished daughter
who did not share her sorrow
at this loss––but gratefully
received the empty, teak hard
box carved with galloping 
horses, swaying trees and 
boatmen crossing a stormy river.					(1) 

The series of poems which follow herald the legacy of the grandmother and mother who have experienced war – the 1942 invasion of Malaya by the Japanese-carrying their survivor stories through visceral memories:

My grandmother pressed a black thumbprint 
on my forehead whenever anyone called me a pretty baby
Don’t tempt Providence, she said––it doesn’t do to plan or praise––
('Tempting Providence', 2)

Ah Peng is shouting: Nei soeng sei maa? Do you want to die? She hauls
me out and plonks me on a wooden bench.
The bright sky booms and shatters. Our world dissolves––toys, snacks,
rambutan tree, shady verandah, rippled water, sunshine…
('Sungai Besi, 1941: War Begins', 3) 

The ellipsis after “sunshine” introduces the invisible words that continue to tell the story. Given the context, they can be likened to ghosts of poetry inhabiting the spaces between the dots. Patel utilises ellipsis, em-dashes, commas, and full stops throughout the collection, providing the pauses and breath required for her interconnected narratives and images.

In her hybrid poem ‘Travelling to Tampin’, Patel interposes sections of her mother’s journal––describing “fleeing to a rubber plantation in the jungle ” (7) in the Tampin district of Negeri Sembilan to escape the war in Kuala Lumpur with her own experience of taking a train to the same destination in 2019:

I wish I could have thought of you as I travelled to Tampin on that fast train,
       inhaling
wafts of nasi bungkus and admiring the view…			(7)

Patel integrates her mother’s documentation of war experience in a way that adds value to what is missed or neglected in institutionalised archives:

The day was exceptionally hot and muggy. I sat uncomfortably between my two
       sisters.
When we turned off the road into the jungle, it was much cooler.	(7) 

It is poetry that does more than reimagine lives from photo albums as Patel seeks truth through lived experience. In dialogue through her mother’s writing, she creatively documents the impact of war and vicarious inheritance. There are resonances with the poignant, powerful work of Charmaine Papertalk Green in her award-winning collection Nganajungu Yagu (Cordite Books, 2019). In a First Nations context, Papertalk Greens’ hybrid writing shows how to extend historical research through motherline correspondence – excerpts from her mother’s letters inspire a response that extends knowledge of First Nations endurance of colonialism during the 1970s, if not earlier. In a migratory context, Patel’s poem, titled ‘Picking up the post’, consolidates excerpts “from family letters to my mother as a student in England 1951-1955 found after her death ” (epigraph, 22) to provide a cultural collage from birthland:

                  on the way to Mass),                                         Uncle Eric
       back from
                                                the jungle with a wild piglet (alamak!)
                                                                          squealing and
                                                    running all over the kitchen…
Dolly’s first baby (safely delivered), 
                                      Cousin Ernie (so naughty lah) fired his catapult	(22) 

In other poems, Patel retells stories and acknowledges who they’re from. “My daughter looks like your daughter… (Rita’s story )” is one from Patel’s Eurasian cousin about a Japanese soldier showing unexpected kindness:

The officer speaks to her in English: In my country, a mother with many
children is honoured.

Then he looks at me––a skinny eight year old, fringe pasted flat over
my black eyes. He pulls a photo out of his wallet. My daughter––looks
like your daughter.

And there she is––my Japanese twin. Her straight hair chopped into a
bowl, her dark eyes gazing at me. Her father tucks her back into his
pocket.
                                                                              The next day tins
                                                                 of food appear at our door.	(4)

Towards the end of the collection, the Japanese soldier is evoked like a shadow character in a narrative arc, returning as Patel travels to Miyajima, Japan. He is not the same soldier as in ‘Rita’s story‘ yet has the same impact; her grandmother calls him “Jack in the Box ”. He would “pop up when least expected / with offerings of food for the baby” (41). A survival story to plant among the sacred shrines and “cherry trees” as Patel acknowledges Japan’s devastation:

under White Dragon Stream and
Cool Breeze Tea House and
Field of Good Harvest––
so many crumbled bones
('In Shukkei-en Garden (Hiroshima)', (40))

In a number of poems, Patel incisively unravels the established norm to provide another sensibility – in a sense, speaking up or advocating for the Malaysian culture, which is marginalised within the dominant culture. Supermarket chicken is compared to “kampong chicken” (13), the pantoum is contrasted to the “pantun” (12), ‘Cocky’s Joy’ (18) to Malaysian cuisine. These poems sink into a common experience, such as the primary school’s annual nativity re-enactment in ‘Come to the Manger’, where the hierarchical ordering we have grown up with is played out:

I am not the Virgin Mary, milky white, veiled in blue,
that role belongs to Margaret with the golden hair.
I am one of the children who come to the manger,
kohl eyes shining in my small brown face, dressed in
a lengha and choli cut from my mother’s oldest sari,
my friend Lorraine steps beside me wrapped in vibrant
Jamaican colours. Cheongsam, sarong, kaftan and kurta
parade, brightly, on the lit stage. Our parents cheer as
we deliver gifts to the Christ Child. Margaret with the golden
hair smiles sweetly, as we kneel in front of the Virgin Mary.	(15)

Patel has an ease with juxtaposition, such as in ‘Storm’, where a nurse assisting an older father to shower is set against a 1960s memory of a tropical downpour (19). The current collapses into the past becoming the whole way of seeing the scene. Throughout the collection, a tumble of emotions – grief, despair, outrage, ache, solace, calm – are felt in “the tensile strength” (back cover) of Patel’s responsibility as a poet and a documenter.

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2023 Queensland Poetry Val Vallis Award Winners


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Jarad Bruinstroop has won the 2023 Queensland Poetry Val Vallis Prize with ‘Fragments on the Myth of Cy Twombly’ (as well as the highest Queensland entry) and Gayelene Carbis wins 2nd prize with ‘What We’re Not Going to Talk About’.

Judges’ comments on Jarad Bruinstroop: Without prior consultation, this poem rose to the top of each of our shortlists; it was unquestionably our winner. An ekphrastic poem oriented across landscape pages, ‘Fragments …’ invites multiple – even fragmented – ways of reading. The result is something more often possible only in visual art: a precise and rich abstraction – not esoteric, but intimately offering many interpretations.

Judges’ comments on Gayelene Carbis: This prose poem drops us in medias res into a living room with the cast of Seinfield blasting through the fourth wall to mediate a fraught mother-daughter relationship. Within the block constraint of the form, the poet alternates very long and very clipped sentences; the effect floats us along a stream of consciousness punctuated by illuminating dialogue.

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What We’re Not Going To Talk About

I. Mother

The tv is too loud for me to talk over the top of after a day of teaching but it is a vexation to my mother’s spirit if I ask her to turn it off. Or even down. There are depths to my mother no one has ever survived diving into. My mother talks over the top of the tv, yet wants me to engage, respond, listen, say yes, no, nod, establish eye contact, and all over the top of Ross and Rachel and Kramer and George. Are you listening? she’ll say suddenly, furious. There is no way to reach someone who’s only alive behind a screen. Kramer bursts into the kitchen and joins us at the table. These vegetables are excellent, he says, smiling at my mother but looking at me. He leans into me, shoving his face right into mine and says: Why is your plate still filled with green?



II. Friend 1

The time she said my email to the Group meant I thought my restaurant was better than the one she’d suggested. The time she said Please bring pink roses. And then said I haven’t heard back from you – can I count on you? And then said I am very offended by your silence. The time she said If you communicate with me in any way after I’ve asked you not to, I’ll have to contact the authorities. The time she sent me a text saying In spite of our limited interaction of late, I shall never forget how you were there for me. The time she said we were kindred spirits, connected souls, so similar (!), that we had this special, this soul connection. And the time she said There’s nobody else I can talk to like this. The time she said Anne of Green Gables. And The Sound of Music. And Sinatra. My Fair Lady. Moliere. And Louis and Ella. The time she rang me and said Listen to this and played Louis singing It’s A Wonderful World. The time she told me about pink flamingos she’d seen in Slovakia. The time she said Life is a gift, a miracle, we have to be grateful and make the most of each day! The time she said What is the ‘good cause’ you refer to? And Who is Julian? And Is he a Judge? Of the Supreme Court? Isn’t he just a lawyer? Do you know what you’re signing up for? You do know he’s a Green and the Greens have voted for death duties? And said I won’t be going to Julian Burnside’s house nor any events organised by this Human Rights Arts Festival but thank you for thinking of me. Then there was Greta Thunberg. She said She should be in school. She said We’re all adults, she’s just a teenager, why should we listen to her? She didn’t say any of that to me, she said it to Friend 2 and Friend 2 told me, and all of this was in separate texts, each question, one after the other. Friend 2 said We don’t talk about politics, maybe it’s better not to know – I don’t want to know. Friend 2 laughed but I didn’t. It’s time, I thought, it’s time. Every cloud is a clock; every hand a knell.



III. Father

We passed a new Coles in the suburb of Elsternwick, which is close to Elwood, which is close to Brighton, and on the other side, St Kilda. Which are all close to the sea but some are closer than others. Brighton is salubrious. St Kilda, become gentrified (though there are still the streetwalkers, as Friend 3 calls them; and the druggies, Friend 4). So we pass this Coles. Shiny thing! Shiny thing! My father was excited. I said It looks like a sparkling department store. My father said What do you want it to be? Dark and dingy and dirty? (He actually said that, the alliteration is not deliberate). It’s not evil he said. I was silent. I thought about capitalism, neo-liberalism, the have and have-nots (I’m both), supermarkets, Chadstone, empires, expansion, greed, climate change, crisis, floods in Venice, bushfires in Queensland, New South Wales, Sydney, bright lights, chandeliers, tinsel, Christmas, shiny things! It’s like a paean to conspicuous consumption I said. But the line was stolen. It was a line my Best Friend (ex-partner) had used to describe the house of Friend 3 (who is Best Friend to Friend 2) and who lives in a house in Brighton which everyone pronounces beautiful. It’s not evil my father said. What’s wrong with enticing people to eat and bright lights and a brand-new sparkling store? Quite a lot I said to the moon outside the window. The moon was full so I was silent, fearing madness, fearing fear.
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Fragments on the Myth of Cy Twombly

after Achilles Mourning the Death of Patroclus (1962)

There’s no myth yet
about his birth, except
Lexington is a military town.
Later: chariots, battles.




His father was a White Sox pitcher. His father was an Italian ceramicist.







Drafted into the army, on leave in a motel room; drawing in the dark to cast a fog over skill, technique. Discharged for anxiety. At Black Mountain College swift-footed RAUSCHENBERG tried to drown in Lake Eden. Gentle TWOMBLY called his lover back to the shore. RAUSCHENBERG in the black their clear affection & the clear genius of (t)his lad almost crossed him out.





Once in the eternal city he photographed you five times, headless on the basilica stairs. Now they’re displayed in reverse; you enter from above more workshirt, more bluejeans, more buttonfly. As though you’re approaching when in fact you stepped back.



If we begin with the sketchbook study he’s a red ballpoint capillary dreaming crossed-out PATROCLUS.





But on the yawning canvas he’s a displaced sea anemone unmade by carmine grief.











reaching one tendril down to palm the sand one tendril up to touch what’s coming next



PATROCLUS was ACHILLES’S ‘closest companion’.


Since AESCHYLUS we have argued over the fruit/less question: (our interest fresh as wet paint) were ACHILLES and PATROCLUS in love?





Who played the part of the lover? Who played the beloved?

Or did a switch hitter step up to plate?













Beneath the text ACHILLES and PATROCLUS fuck like deathless horses.
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Jennifer Compton Reviews Sarah Holland-Batt and Gavin Yuan Gao

The Jaguar by Sarah Holland-Batt
UQP, 2022

At the Altar of Touch by Gavin Yuan Gao
UQP, 2022


Both of these considerable books, The Jaguar by Sarah Holland-Batt and At the Altar of Touch by Gavin Yuan Gao, arrived into my hands, out of their padded envelope, with all of the gravitas of prize-winners. They are, both of them, winning books – they shine with sincerity and reach and craft – and they won me over with minimal resistance on my part.

(Now is surely not the time to discuss the impiety of writing poetry with the intent to glean a prize but it might be a useful conversation we ought to have some time further down the line.)

At the time of receiving, I knew At the Altar of Touch had won the Thomas Shapcott Poetry Prize and had gone on to win the Victorian Premier’s Literary Award for Poetry. Really fancy footwork for a debut book. But that is the beauty of the Thomas Shapcott. It offers an enticing lump sum to an emerging poet and (!) publication with a reputable press. And few of the winners over the twenty years it has been running have not gone on to enliven and ornament the community of Australian poets. It was only while I was researching that I realised you have to be a Queensland poet to enter. (Oh dear oh dear oh dear. Can the other states and territories please step up!)

And it was only while I was researching that I remembered Sarah Holland-Batt had won the Thomas Shapcott in 2007 for Aria – a book so sharp and knowing that it was practically lethal. I liked it. I liked it a lot.

And, at the time of receiving I knew The Jaguar had been awarded the 2022 Book of the Year Award from The Australian. But I was not expecting that to be the last of it, not by a long chalk. And at the time of writing The Jaguar has been shortlisted for the NSW Premier’s Literary Awards and longlisted for the Stella Prize. By the time of publication, I am confidently expecting many more such acknowledgements of this book’s towering ambition and achievement. It could well be that this book will emulate or even outclass the note-worthy scooping up of three major Australian prizes by Robert Adamson’s The Clean Dark in the 1990s. It may even go international (I am thinking the Griffin Poetry Prize in Canada) as foreshadowed by Pulitzer Prize winner Forrest Gander in his endorsement on the back cover.*

And now to our muttons, as the French might say when they want to get down to brass tacks. Just what is it about The Jaguar that lifts it above the common ruck, that delivers such a glittering festival of artful poetics, that makes it so unputdownable?

I venture to suggest that one of the hooks the poet trawls our way is the drama of surprise. The title idly put me in mind of Rainer Maria Rilke’s famous poem ‘The Panther’. And the epigraph by Friedrich Schiller from ‘Ode to Joy’ – ’Above stars must He dwell’ – did not turn me aside from this notion of the bent of the book. Learned, quasi-reverential, muffled by the cloak of the past. I was not anticipating a blood jet of poetry. (Vale, Sylvia Plath.)

So, one arrives at the title poem in the second section on page 42, and the shock of revelation, the heady plunge into the deceptively deep pool. I almost giggled, I was so taken aback by the poet’s chutzpah and stealth.

SPOILER ALERT!

The jaguar is a car! A bottle green, or forest, vintage 1980 XJ, a chrome wildcat ornament lunging on the hood. Oh, the drama shading into melodrama and settling plump into excoriating psychodrama.

From ‘The Jaguar’,

………………………………. For months
he drove it even though my mother begged,
he drove it as though he was punishing her,
dangerously fast on the back roads, then
opened up the engine on the highway, full
throttle, even though he was going blind in one eye,
even though my mother and I refused to get in,
and for the first time in years my father
was happy – he was happy to be driving,
he was happy my mother and I
were miserable. (42)

This coup de theatre is even more unnerving and delightful (if one likes that sort of thing) because the twenty poems that precede it lull the reader (or at least this reader) with sheer technical esprit – a more finely-wrought elegiac and affecting meditation than usual, a more vivid and compelling chronicling of the Last Rites than one normally comes upon. But the trope – a parent is dying, quickly, slowly, etc., etc., and everything in between – well, it’s not exactly breaking new ground. Many of us have parents known to us, and these mothers and fathers will die early, late, quickly, slowly. (Unless they outlive us. And that’s another story.) It’s the very stuff of poetry. And if it is well done one feels it feelingly. But Holland-Batt works this familiar theme with consummate panache. I am very aware of the sacred personal nature of these confidences, of the suffering glinting up off the pages. This is a subject that is wholly tragic. It may be why I am joking around with the macabre humour that can erupt around death. It is like the way one laughs and chats after the funeral, bolting down strong cups of tea and ham sandwiches, just to get the taste of life back in your mouth.

From ‘My Father as a Giant Koi’,

My father is at the bottom of a pond
perfecting the art of the circle.
He is guiding the mottled zeppelin
of his body in a single unceasing turn
like a monorail running on greased steel,
like an ice skater swerving on a blade. (3)

There is a shocked sense of the ridiculous underlying this poem. The grotesque description of death as ‘circling the drain’ comes to mind. The man himself – Dr Anthony Bertram Holland-Batt – flickers into sight.

From ‘Time Remaining’,

In this void of time
in which my father remains – 
I want to say, is remaining – 

present continuous – he returns to me.
Hello sweetheart, he says blurrily,
I'm just trying to get the damn thing working.

And as if I can see what he's seeing
I ask, Is it plugged in?
He says, I'm beginning to wonder (12)

But then, in the midst of this exercise of remembering and recording, the cunning, pattern-making, unforgivable imagination of the poet begins to get up a head of steam.

From ‘Brazil’,

…………………………………… I see the silverware
gleaming in front of him. I see him lifting a cup filled with
jaguar's blood up to the light, how it gleams like wine. I see
the raw jaguar's heart filleted in the finest slivers, carmine
red, laid out like a stinking meat flower in front of him. (7)

This is the first sighting of the jaguar. This telegraphs the title poem which announces the central motif. But we are not done yet. The book almost becomes, in the most beguiling way, a Where’s Wally? of jaguar sightings. The next glimpse is in the third section, where the poet abandons her death watch and craves cabochons and bonbons, a sweet low cello, and a glass of beaujolais, and becomes positively waspish about millionaires, Eurotrash, and the genre of men in general, and also in particular, as if she is channelling Dorothy Parker. ‘What fresh hell is this?’ Holland-Batt contains multitudes and can frock up and down cocktails, and skewer and sulk, and parody conspicuous consumption, and turn chaps down flat who jet in to offer her holy matrimony. She praises her stony and unbending nature, her hardness. As do I.

From ‘Ode to Cartier,

…………….. let me die in peace

with the silk of a jaguar's breath
huffing in my ear at dawn. (68) 

This is a carnivorous world and risky business. And so much of it seems to hinge on gifts from the father. How the dangerous father looms.

From ‘Meditation on Risk in New Hampshire’,

…….. I think of the conversation
I had last night with a Mexican filmmaker
who grew up with a pet jaguar in Sinaloa – 
a gift from her father, a man she called
a character – and how she loved that cat,
how she used to sit with it, even after
it tore apart her brother's beagle and ate it. (93)

The blurb on the back of the book states that this is a collection written by a poet at the height of her powers. But the work presented to us within the covers of this very handsome book, with all of its simmering, lowering threat of heavy weather, and its unguarded display of sheer transfixed commitment to technique, suggests that we ain’t seen nothing yet.

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Introduction to Ken Bolton’s A Pirate Life

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The author’s playfulness is to the fore in this strange, charming book. It is a game which invites the reader to roll the dice, take a card from the deck, gain points, lose a turn, and, one way or another, advance around a notional game board: a pirate’s world of exotic ports, risky encounters, escapades, wonders and the routine of shipboard life, always in the presence of the moody, changeable sea. The cards that guide us are like entries from a log in which, generally, the captain speaks in the second person. Some are as brief as a phrase (‘Mast struck by lightning’), others a couple of taut paragraphs. Patches of narrative and patterns of repetition emerge from the sequence, which we might ‘reshuffle’ to create our own order. Variation is part of the game.

More than once we are advised to head south for the nearest landfall or into the setting sun, ‘against which you will be hard to see’. ‘You’ is the captain, whose company in these little monologues and reported dialogues we come to appreciate: the concern for the crew as they ‘polish, splice, caulk, clean and paint, hammer and polish and mend, uncomplaining …’, and also sing, dance, dream and fear; his line in wit and irony; the understated wisdom; a flash of melancholy that turns as quickly to good humour: ‘A vision appears to you of the former ship’s dog, much loved by the crew. The dog suggests – in a friendly way – advancing doom. This is neither here nor there.’ The captain’s tone keeps the enterprise afloat. His ‘you’ is himself, his ship, the player reading the card, us. And sometimes it is not the captain, for the captain is observed on occasion – slipping on stairs, stricken by illness.

A bizarre juxtaposition in this piratical imaginary are the cultural references that bounce around, with jokes aplenty for the cognoscenti. ‘A microwave’ somewhere in the future making ‘Wavelets for the little tackers of Hawai’i’ (groan). The ships that the captain encounters – female according to tradition, with dangerous women in charge, mostly named for movie and television stars of a bygone era. Margaret Rutherford in charge of the Margaret Dumont, for example; Javier Bardem, appropriately Hispanic perhaps, at the helm of the Vivian Vance, if you know who she was (Lucille Ball’s redoubtable sidekick in I Love Lucy). Edie Sedgwick from the Warhol Factory appears, as does Argentinian writer César Aira’s novella Varamo. So our ship sails on, from Kowloon to Valparaíso. The roll of the dice is the rule of a game which deals in allusiveness and welcomes sideways moves.

Proposing life as ‘like a board game’, A Pirate Life is, I suspect, family fun too, playing with authorial obsessions and bringing, I think, the writer’s home life into the scene. The reader will never know. Fans of Ken Bolton’s poetry, fans of the Lee Marvin readings he MC-ed, will recognise this flaneur of the high seas, ‘jaunty’, ‘insouciant’ (favourite words), reflective, resilient, as ever. Short, shuffle-able blocks of prose are an avant-garde tradition. So many ways in-between, of no fixed abode, prose poetry is a sign of freedom and innovation. Is that what’s on the cards here? Bolton’s A Pirate Life, a board game for the impossibly bored, is a tangy, buoyant ahoy.

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