Ain Al Hasouda

Mama said Ain broke Waleed’s leg,
burst the water pipes,
turned the Venetian skies upside down that one summer.
She even gave our new neighbor a heart attack.

I imagined her,
the sequined skirt suits, the frown,
the purple sacks under her eyes,
front row at every birth, wedding, funeral.
Only the name of God tamed her eyes.

When the war began, Baba disappeared,
us in a foreign place, our calls to Kuwait unanswered.
I scoured the earth for her, protested with banners
the size of elephants, yelled mashallah after his name
thousands of times.

He came back.




Ain Al Hasoud is the Arabic term for the Evil Eye.

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My Mother-in-Law Prays in the Next Room

I hear her whisper
under her breath

picture her kneeling
over the prayer rug

palms face down
against the fabric.

She hides her hair
when her husband’s

nephew comes for a visit
and smokes lingering cigarettes

with her coffee
and after lunch

and sometimes she shows me
old photographs of herself

as a young mother, tan
shoulders, sleeveless top.

When she wakes up at dawn to water
the fig trees and the blushing folds of roses

I wonder if she reminds herself
that this bit of earth that she looks after

was snatched away for years, years ago,
and how years later it was taken back.

I look for something
we could bond over

no grandchildren to keep us up
trading stories of raising boys

and what our bodies may have lost.
So I tell her about the plant pots

on my balcony in the city
and wait for her to teach me

the shifting colors
of hydrangea

and the ease of growing jasmine.
How some leaves pass

quicker than others
and how some—

when you least expect it

— lift their tiny necks and
open up.

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Big Song

Under the bridge at Washington Street

a man with acoustic guitar

was plucking and singing again in Spanish

always only in Spanish

once I would have called him an old man

before I got old now no one is old

his voice amplifying thanks to the bridge

shivering off iron girders echoing concrete walls

becoming so huge as if through a megaphone

but sweeter rich and round giant sugar cookie

of a voice traveling to our side of the river

my three year old walking partner

twirled in place that sounds big

never asking why would a man be singing?

near our chattering ducks

who never lose hope we might one day

defy the signs and feed them

river reeds blooming yellow bells of Esperanza

only a few hours distance from camps of wire and concrete

thin mattresses aluminum foil sheets

sisters and brothers whose stories we can’t really know

whatever we think about them what happens next

how hard it has been

who is this man? so many years

singing in winter summer no cup beside him

not asking for anything people run past with their dogs

ears plugged their own music

I don’t know where he lives

secret stories under the bridge

all these years of echo

boy raising his arms

dipping and stepping

singer nodding his head

glad to be heard

raising one hand to both of us twirling

solamente por que?
siempre por que?

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Or Did You Really Think It Was the Path of No Return?

after The Farewell by Remedios Varo

When we started walking along the winding road
of separation, did you ever wonder if our shadows
weren’t reluctant to follow?

What if they’d reclaim a life of their own,
decide to concoct a different ending to our story,
loosen their chains one by one?

What if they might have stretched and stretched,
retracing our footsteps towards the place where
words were last spoken or omitted?

And what if then, without restraint, without shame,
pride aside, they would have wrapped themselves
around each other in folds swirling tighter than

the twists of a rope, become braided wicks awaiting
to be lit, linger back there with no witness
save perhaps, an alley cat, a stray dog or a lost sparrow?

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Two Verandahs and a Lull in Gunfire

Our buildings are face-to-face in ’88–
towards Al-Raouché, ours is the five-storey
apartment block my grandfather built
with Latin American money,
coffeecake cement pocked with bullet holes
that birds nest in, my verandah a playpen
of flaking paint & pollution grit. I’m 3 and my game
is to peel coins of rust from the railing.
My knuckles are still puckered with baby fat. Rust
is the brightest smell I know
in a world where I’m new dough rising
in the midst of death piled on

death, a layer cake of death.
Her building is taller and less ravaged by the war,
a throne in a Parisian style I don’t understand
in toddlerhood, the awnings green as the shallows
of a mighty nearby sea we’ve never saluted
together. I never knew

who she was. She looked so old–maybe 110–
I wonder now, was she
50? 60? wrinkled by burning rubber
and TNT, her hair a magnificent wheat-yellow beehive.
I’d wave to her, there shaded, top-floor balcony,
on her throne beneath her birdcages of vivid
canaries, her pygmy palms in glossy pots–
we would watch each other chronicling everything
the street carried for those breathcatching
moments of a long war.

I heard you died, tante,
me too.
We all died, but our pummelled buildings
by some miracle,
stood.

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Brendan Casey on as Cordite Scholarly Editor

I’m honoured to announce that Brendan Casey will be taking up the helm of Cordite Scholarly Editor. Casey is a doctoral candidate in the English and Theatre Studies program, University of Melbourne, researching Australian poetry and fiction through a postnational or ‘unAustralian’ lens. His research focuses on ‘literary visitors’ and their writing about Australia.

Says Casey, ‘I am excited to publish new and revisionary approaches to Australian literature and poetics, work which challenges established ideas of national culture or celebrates under-researched local authors. I am interested in Australia’s place within the globe, particularly among its immediate Pacific and Asian neighbours.’

This also means that Matthew Hall will be leaving the post after 11 years, though will remain on our advisory board. His contribution to Cordite Poetry Review is incalculable, and there is not a deep enough thanks I can extend for his commitment, insight and development of the scholarship we’ve published.

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Tell Me Like You Mean It 3


Gian Manik | Mum’s Rembrandt paintings continued | Oil, aerosol, crayon, Posca pen | 215 x 231cm | 2018

Once I had a dream about a sea mollusc that latched onto the inside of my calf, and stayed there. The logic of the dream made me understand that the mollusc wasn’t actually a mollusc, but the mollusc was a poem, not mine, but one that I had read. The poem wasn’t identifiable, but the poem was a good poem, and I woke up with questions. What, exactly, do I want from poetry? What space does poetry hold (in the body, in the mind, in society)? What is the work of poetry? Why does it always return so persistently (that is, both for me, personally, and in a broader historical sense), and what makes it stick?

In curating this chapbook I’m not sure I feel closer to answering these questions: certainly they are never stagnant … but I do feel closer to poetry’s resistance to answer these questions, which does circle back to some kind of answer to my last question – we return to poetry not because we have an answer, but instead return in a process of regeneration. This is to say that we return with new questions. Good poems stay with us because we want to keep asking those poems questions, not because we’ve found answers.

Recently, in one of a series of frustrating attempts to read Jacques Lacan, I expressed to a scholar of his work my annoyance (and resentment) at not being able to understand a lot of his writings. There is, on one hand, the idea in which the concepts Lacan, and the field with which psychoanalysis grapples, are not easily reducible — the workings of the human psyche are expansive and not easily ciphered. But there is also, as this person pointed out to me, the methodology of psychoanalysis itself, which can also be applied to methods of reading and making meaning; a process of asking questions, not providing answers. I feel the pleasure of this process of making meaning most acutely when reading poetry.

Zoe Kinglsey: commute aka I need a haircut
Neika Lehman: For Katie West, after Clearing
Stella Maynard: the feeling of holding a fight in your hands
Ursula Robinson Shaw: VULTURE PHANTASY
Bridget Gilmartin: Getting Nowhere
Freya Daly Sadgrove: Tantrum in a Supermarket
Jonno Révanche: Yawning / cologne
Janet Wu: Forbid talk Hong Kong issu
Bonnie Reid: Yolk Together Ruin
Manisha Anjali: eat the rich
Harriet McInerney: ‘Three dots, pending text.’
Claire Albrecht: skullcrushing
Alex Creece: Birth-Controlled Dyke
Rory Dufficy: Elegy for Solid Snake 3.1
Sam Langer: Current Update
Timmah Ball: Her mother thinks she’s a lesbian
Prithvi Varatharajan: New Year’s Eve in Tasmania
Will Druce: great artesian nowhere
Grace Heyer: These are the things I say
Julie Jedda Janson: Crow

Brushing up with the resistance of poetry, with the resistance of language is, for me, inherent to the joy of it. For Lacan, in contrast to the Saussurian process of signification, it is the signifier (words, for example) not the signified (the concepts they denote) that should be prioritised. The link between signifier and signified, Lacan says, is not so clear cut. This focus on the materiality of language, on the complex relations between words and concepts, is part of what I think good poetry does – it’s poetry’s dealings in this Symbolic network that might push us closer to a collective and individual unconscious.

I commissioned the poets gathered here because, at some point, I have read their work and it has left in me a sense of curiosity about the world. In Tim Wright’s collection The nights live changes he writes, ‘Moving through the world / is what I am interested in …’1 It’s a line that always comes back to me when I write and read. Good poetry is this ‘moving through’, a motion that sweeps up a series of questions, a moving (in the sense of both affect and motion) that reproduces itself as it latches on. A truly freaky, dazzling thing.

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Birth-Controlled Dyke

Butter me up
with hormone heresy
Butter me up, butterfuck
so I don’t get
battered
in the street
consequence evaporates
like dormant
spiders in crumpets
doubling bubbling
toilet troubles
two-minute eternity in a piss-fingered cubicle
where our futures sweat with butter.

 
Butter me up
with a bulletproof body
Butter me up, buttercuck
so I don’t have to beg when they

S p r e a d m e
for break fast
threatening incontinence
and plumbing a pipe dream
just let me avoid the medical bill
of predators on parole
but you still want your bread and butt- butt- butter
from contraceptive camouflage
and
low-rent lesbians.
 
Butter me up
with barrenness
Butter me up
without excuses
that still m
e
l
t in your mouth
buttering
splu tt t te r ing
uttering
that I am
parannoyed by a delusion turned destiny
hysterical for hysterectomy
tongue-tied or tubular
lather us smother us
mother,
unmother us.
Just butter me up,
Buttercup.

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great artesian nowhere

we live on liquified pastures
on thylacine-skin print
blown in from the curved backs
of armchairs
hung on walls in gully-dust paintings
in the saturn-rings of wine glass bottoms
upon the lips of drooling escarpments
where sandstone sponge seeps wet-season fluid
down through guttered labyrinths of savannah.

this is of course not where we live
because we live in the television boxes
of such places
in the fridges in the sheds
on the carpets of abandoned paint-shops
in the wake of road-train gusts
in silent stupefaction
of being here at all.

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commute aka I need a haircut

convince yourself
into modes of wistfulness
such an al line
waiting for the 8.13
listening to john talabot’s
2012
house release
fIN play recurring witness
to the two sticks of the bolte
origins in burial imagined
but more fecund
& green
the alienation I’m
feeling is the condition
of my labour
on repeat
I need
a haircut
the salt breeze felt
dogtooth
inland across yellow
silo frottage
forearms burn & that helmet of hair
the commute is the best part
you can convince yourself of the commute
when this bad one is over maybe
you’ll miss the commute
but most likely you won’t
I couldn’t bear to face
the silentio profile
by the 100th 7/11
commemorated
corner
81 austerities published
in 2012 by faber
is something
like that happening now here maybe
it’s not permitted
culturally
retreat onus shift
the head of core design
resigned after the release
of the game in 2003
failures are so endearing
like cult classics
like hyper-care
personnel or semaphore
entering the workplace
vocabulary
a regular long black
just before midday
at slurpee stained counter
retreat
can you deliver
manage time
the apostasia of ’65
as if
material
to finger
the junta
james wrote of that breeze as govt subsidised divination
residency
the cold front after the bake out
eligibility
squatting with the used
cotton buds & cockroaches
on the western highway
orange brown
sweet soy
boy tea
at 9am
where it’s difficult to discern
music for managers /
which side of the pane
the enclosure operates
it’s tomb raider style
simulations of rain
of bouncing artichoke thistle
at 5.35
diesel rail
suspension pixel
I can & can’t be there
grey warm & the perspective
changes
cho’s suitmation
a means of withstanding
incisions and genre
page boy cut
slippage
it’s tomb raider style
c. 2003
& she/we are
in paris & it’s dirty
blue light evening
along the side
9pm carpark
sunday elm heights
early feb
the hot box haunts: apartment rooftops
train graveyards & day clubs
defunct star
when I next see you I’ll be
doing ok yea
I’ll say
doing just fine

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Her mother thinks she’s a lesbian

Mother: those books

Daughter: which ones?

Mother: feminist ones

Daughter: seriously?

Mother: you’re feminist?

Daughter: no, it’s white1

Mother: your books are about feminism

Daughter: half of them are by men

Mother: what about Bad Feminist

Daughter: that’s Roxane Gay

Mother: and I Love Dick

Daughter: you seriously think

Mother: the pages were marked2

Daughter: Kraus is a white woman’s dream

Mother: people will think you’re a lesbian

Daughter: because I Love Dick

Mother: yes

Daughter: really?

Mother: if they saw those books

Daughter: which ones?

Mother: in your room

Daughter: what people?

Mother: white people

Daughter: I’m not in the mood

Mother: they’ll think you’re gay

Daughter: you’re fucking hilarious

Mother: it’s not a joke3

Daughter: have you read I Love Dick?

Mother: you know your type

Daughter: or seen the TV show?

Mother: would have been speared

Daughter: the TV adaptation’s got Kevin Bacon in it

Mother: just the other day I was walking through the park

Daughter: just chill

Mother: there was graffiti saying KILL All GAYS4

Daughter: do you want some tea?

Mother: are you writing for gay magazines?

Daughter: –

Mother: I just want to know what’s going on

Daughter: –

Mother: your books and the scene you

Daughter: come on

Mother: I guess I’m not good enough

Daughter: we should just watch the TV series with Kevin Bacon5

Mother: maybe you’ll get a book deal

Daughter: what does that even mean anymore?

Mother: everyone’s gay, even on the TV, it’s cool

Daughter: like being relegated to the lesbian erotica section of the bookstore6

Mother: so, you’re gay?


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Elegy for Solid Snake 3.1

The Siberian desert is the first shock: that it’s a desert, green,
inhabited, malleable.
Now there is a shot of a transport ship: we become cinematic.

Talk then about consumption, thinghood itself as a battleground. We are returning to
the beginning. Remember the Alamo, once more, with laurels.

We lost contact with the boss some time ago. I would not expect
too much here if I were

you. The colonel is a member of the Brezhnev faction, and I want
to overthrow the government.

You only have a week, and if it’s not too much to ask for one more infirmity, the
universe is the father of modern sniping.

You were, of course, not born. You were instead
borne by another body; we all were I suppose. Playing these two roles doesn’t leave
much time for sleep.

We can be clear then: we are in the Cold War, or
we are watching it, you and I, playing with our bears, American or otherwise.

What we do here is history, what we have conceptualised here possible because of what
they did, and the technology they left us.

The End dies halfway through,
though, and he has lasted a century.

What are we to do after
the end of the
short century depicted
and
the birth – you yourself
are symptomatic here –
of another long one.

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eat the rich

rich woman

rich woman


I will eat your t o n g u e
I will eat your t o n g u e
t o n g u e

t o n g u e
g u e
g u e
u e

e

rich woman pick my f l o w e r

rich woman pick my f l o w e r
f l o w e r
f l o w e r

rich woman cut my d r e s s

rich woman wear my d r e s s

rich woman cut my h a i r

rich woman wear my h a i r

rich woman cut my h e a d

rich woman wear my h e a d

rich woman wear my h e a d

rich woman trick my l o v e r

l o v e r

l o v e r

rich woman wear my h e a d

rich woman trick my l o v e r

l o v e r

l o v e r

rich woman suck my f l o w e r

rich woman suck my f l o w e r

f l o w e r


f l o w e r


rich woman m i r r o r m i r r o r

rich woman m i r r o r m i r r o r


rich woman m i r r o r m i r r o r

rich woman m i r r o r m i r r o r


rich woman

rich woman


I will eat your t o n g u e
I will eat your t o n g u e
t o n g u e

t o n g u e
g u e
g u e
u e

e

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‘Three dots, pending text.’

Three dots, pending text. My weather is all out of alignment. The housing bubble is loosing sleep, rapidly, and I’ve moved onto domesticated swamplands. The backyard is made of concrete.

My weather is all out of alignment. To explore the nature of rain I opened the door. For three days I lay blank pages on concrete, they collect the weather while I am out of the house. Testing what pages can store, what memories they hold.

To explore the nature of rain I opened the door because inside the workings of language clear vision is impossible. A crumpled line takes hold. You text to say you’re wasting your life at The Union, I’m watching the clouds gather. Predictive text fails to foresee. This site of turbulence is irresistible,
it’s in my belly,
in my weather,
like three dots, pending text.


Italicised line from Rosemarie Waldrop’s The Reproduction of Profiles: Inserting the Mirror.

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Forbid talk Hong Kong issu

Hi mate

can tell you somethi-
there are alot of
on the 30th anniver-

[picture: man
against tanks]

within an hour it
so i printed
and it went
i kept putting
ended up putting
it takes about 5 -10

i thought i was like
but no. it is just

I have temporarily

now all the chinese
me in the face

i assume that there
ie: if you see this

crazy huh

No it is just

however i assume
communist party

Because, i know
the chinese communis-
across adelaide and

If you were to reall
even say if your mom

Yes it is all chines-
maybe it is just
ora actually they
xi jing ping: ‘you

No this is at night
there are no staff
what is so hard
it’s not like they
like i do not part
says they will kill

there is no best

you either:
1. make a stand and
anywhere and never
2. remain apathetic
and live your pretty
3. join them.

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the feeling of holding a fight in your hands

there is always the question of the tackle. officially: all the contours are drawn around possession. every time the swans score at home a young-professional waves a flag for realestate.com.au. that’s not metaphor; they’re gameday partners. what’s a national league if not private property? there is always the question of the tackle. what it is; where it ends; where it begins. unofficially: a tackle could be nothing more than a palm rubbing a rib or the feeling of holding a fight in your hands. the leather of a sherrin. trading sweat. any index of the game shuffled between bodies that exists to simply say: i’m here with you. play on. there is always the question of the tackle. unofficially: a tackle could be a lure. an umpire with tactic might say that halftime and three-quarter time and full-time and quarter-time are about self care. it might even be true that you should rest and take a sip of water and be massaged and just breathe for a little. but that would miss the whole point of the intraplay: the regroup. the dissolution of self-enclosure when we meet in a huddle to pat each other on the back and breathe in unison and cling onto each other’s shoulders and whisper dirty things outside of the possible like not long now or we can win this or tackle hard. it’s the intraseason that reminds us that this we is never assured. in other words: hannebery is a saint now. all the handbooks tell umpires to be both proactive and keep their distance. all of which is to say: this is a game of multi-directional situational awareness.

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New Year’s Eve in Tasmania

that summer of 2002
on the eve of the new year
I was in Tasmania

sipping red wine with a priest
and my father

in a caravan park

his name (the priest’s not my father’s)
was Felix, or Sebastian,
something like Father Felix Sebastian,
visiting from India, on a world tour.

he said ‘the young people here are very mature’

he said this looking at my wine glass.

‘yes, I suppose it’s exposure to a thing
that matures one,’ I said, looking at his wine glass.

we downed our blood. the priest enquired
how many glasses I would tolerate
before I lost my mind. father assured him
that I was a rather mature young man.

soon after, the priest and my father retired
to separate cabins. it was new year’s eve
so I scuffed around
for something to do.
I switched on the TV,
ate many bars of Tasmanian fudge,
watched Monty Python’s
The Meaning of Life

as the clock ticked over to 2003
in a cabin between the priest’s and my father’s –
father snoring on one side,
the priest, perhaps, turning pages on the other.

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Getting Nowhere

after John Cage’s A Lecture on Nothing

under the fluorescent supermarket light
we gaze at the bananas
with our arms around each other
we are not married and it’s
a pleasure
to stand still
to not be going to a gym
or getting a foot in a door
or climbing the rungs of a ladder
to not be planning a career
or Going Further in a
Ford Focus
we are getting nowhere
right now
and it’s a pleasure
to never want these things
to lie down on one of the shelves
of pillows in the Home Section
and think
this is not our beautiful house

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For Katie West, after Clearing

when you almost catch the frog there is water underground
when that tree is whistling you are feeling well, because you listen
a dog eating grass might be doing better than you 

renovate that child living under your roof
yourself
and don’t come back until christmas
until whenever
until there is no measure

for carrying water 
for rocks
weighted and
kelp-bound

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Yolk Together Ruin

i

in the kitchen a woman tied a knot in a plastic bag over and over to cover a hole she tore in it minutes before. an hour passed and a man came through the kitchen door into the garden wearing the bag on his head. he was very pleased with himself and with the bag. then the wind took it. somewhere in greater sydney. somewhere in the belly of a whale.


ii

: imprecise   therefore   expand
: going   perimeter   expand
: rockfill   interpret   spillway
: gut   leftover   spillway
: paring   drape   ignite
: language   embargo   ignite
: yolk   together   ruin
: temperate   inside   ruin
: exacting   further   gather
: toward   after   gather


iii

the man came home from work to find that, once again, the woman had sold the bed. she told him that the bed was too comfortable, it spoiled them for when they had to sleep in other beds. he nodded and rolled a camping mattress over the floorboards. could she no longer stomach the plastic undulation; fucked face down on a water bed.


iv

in an enclosed section of the ocean
: trout   saltwater   misc.
: ghost shrimp   oil slick
in an enclosed section of the ocean
: algae   lipid   farm
: ExxonMobil   form
enclosed:   section:   gone


v

bananas drifted out along the rip tide toward the sea. a man reported seeing a bull shark swimming down the main street of goodna, queensland and into the McDonald’s. forever the geography a leaning torso.


vi

         in the sensuous expansion of water
392. come awake
393. the part of the body
         that waits for the blow
         : the head
         in the aftermath

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Current Update

broken rocks tick in us
brocken rock-tics
in us and out us
and around us
and picture the light to us
the pills, pils of a light
hammering onto the mould
inside us. how can i still be slinking around everyday life
and the grey music of tyres that grind earth
little, known dreams
of increasingly middle aged teenagers
glowing like life in a plant
though i get the impression there are new jobs and robots
the turrets of what is most possible
to keep off the cesspool of endlessness
in a forest of walls
and turn it into a delimited duck penis nevertheless
presumed to be infinitely extendable
but this is only one ‘me’s lazy decision
who pronouncements the stations
pronoun cements
propped on a shouldercake
and dreams of pain, dreams of shut up sobs
real dreams across deltas of flights
real shoulders to the fire
the greenness crumpling
spring waiting to come back in the head
or maybe not terrifyingly
blue sssssssss, fundamentally
angry lines of speed avoidant
with the red turned around /
breathing for awhile
breathing withor extracting the echoes
on some profit jag
oh yes, pronouncing them
this that and the other
as though ‘exploded hand’
whirred acceptable side-effects
tolerably racked
passively christ-crushing
just to stroll hurriedly
panic struck in the dryer swamp
commercial for water shock circus
between the skeletons of hazzard
drawn across freezing water
by the skulls of streets and bones
grinning ringtone of bone drawn
in desert root tomato cancer
left off, unheld
bizarre heroic actor-breath
pushing father on population
dream where you cut macron
population dream where you
dream where you cut
macron’s dream where you
cut macron’s population dream
by cutting macron’s dream
dream where you cut, cut where you dream
for a macron, for an accent, for a grave
for an indefinite duration of existing, people the on where you
cut and dream

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VULTURE PHANTASY

rocky headland of a bright
live face, tender hooked throat
this shaggy down these talons this crown
of more or less erect feathers this address
taut like a laundry line between substance
and medium, trying to remember a poem you say,
you’ll know it, it’s about
a chick who wants
this guy to come on her tits and he doesn’t really want to, she feels
upset about it, you say: it’s a really good poem
i’m like damn i dont know that one

they insert their beaks into a slit
in an ostrich egg, to get at the interior
holding the shells between their mandibles,
i explain, in ancient cultures, trying to remember,
there were no male vultures

stalking around the banned word “l * v *,” extracts from a more
rigorous dialogue, cheap and sentimental, like porn how
everybody’s always coming
so the narrative always culminates, knotted white
patterns of force, many symbols, an arc
of moveable acts, lessons at the end, a literalised recuperation
of the human spirit how trite and i
/… a prude for joy
call your dick the death drive, call myself a nuisance, looking at my phone
whisper have i shown you this

trying to remember, da vinci writes
he was in the cradle a vulture
blew thru and fucked him
in the mouth, with its tail, opening up: the future,
visions and deliria, tendencies, the problem
of flight, he was only a baby but it really happened
in a dream,
he later took to painting
but he never let it go, freud says,
because he wrote it down

dicks are not real just a thing we have in dreams;
“phallus” is a dead currency there is only “pants”
everyone wearing them feels a will to power, great discomfort;
look up “etymology dick coma,” words do not
keep us from deeds
scrambled by unserious activity
the search history manufacturing
a backwards glance, the past is
a wish, compiled later
with purposive intent, being but
cerebral the body is a shortcut to a symbol,
if there are no male vultures, i’m trying to remember, o yea:
these birds stop in the midst of their flight, open their vagina
and are impregnated by the wind

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skullcrushing

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Yawning / cologne

A “home game” helps to lose you – some of
my emotions all lopsided
in your room like Brecht, turning
upward,

To grow a hill
in your apocryphal
scene – only make tones
around me

Let loose
an ex boyfriend,
a homebrand sweetener,
not unlike
a quarterback,
domesticity ~ fantasy,

A fragment of
us is movement

/

Do you always hold a gaze this
fretfully? Are you not an alien thing?
A reconnaissance – or rather
all matted in person?

/

You’re never far

away, though I prick your thumb

on a map. Rub
your likeness throughout the spill, we’re

inked to be this ineligible. Uncanny,

really, that we 
proved coupledom

as the outcome, even

when the odds were weighed up.



Your sinew, there, at last, wrapped
in a silk
dress, showing off!
Feathered torso,
bright wide gaze, will
lock, or swap wardrobes.

What gets put on reveals

the notes we otherwise

wouldn’t notice



Love
in the time of
Viktor and Rolf

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