where’s my donkey : thursday evening
catch the train,
seagulls circling
Central Station
catch a bus
pick up a paint chart,
at the gallery –
Korea and Kinglake
photography exhibitions
(different)
a very thin man
in Oxford Street
in red leather pants
talk on Eastside Radio
read two poems
at the bus stop
long haired boys –
regenerate fashion,
retro,
fashions
arrive & go by
really quickly –
I had to live through
the entire decades!
(peeved)
catch a bus,
redhead woman driver
playing jazz piano cd
loudly, in the bus
(suits the traffic)
catch the train,
seagulls gone to Pyrmont,
night workers
eating chocolates & chips
(hunger)
walk to the seafood shop
buy the dory, grilled
walk home
*
I am the donkey : saturday afternoon
step onto the crossing,
lift palm to car,
thanks driver.
quicken pace, cross smartly,
think
‘why do I do that
why do I want to live
am I depressed?’
Scottish sentimentality –
car alarm with violin
(answer)
*
I pass the donkey : tuesday morning
walk to the bus stop
(forgot my watch & silver ring)
open umbrella,
light rain shower
catch the sad bus
through the streets
around
sad blocks of flats
paint swatches
(I must remember)
what colour the door?
the brick fence, what colour?
coffee at Zoo,
hair colour in the arcade
(regrowth)
buy underwear,
blue, mauve,
& stripey
buy preserving jar
(lemons)
buy
honey, celtic sea salt
& iodised sea salt
carrot & celery juice,
the juice maker
takes ages
to juice the vegetables
almost miss the bus
quickly buy the newspaper,
here’s the bus
winding back
past Centennial Park
there’s the donkey,
no, it’s a horse
(mistaken)
here are the streets
around
the sad flats
& here’s
the Cauliflower Hotel
listen to Patti Smith ‘Twelve’
(Changing of the Guards!)
on an ipod
on the bus
on the move
but in the clouds
(worldless)
thought stuck,
pinned down
stupid under
a roaring sky
*
there is no donkey : friday night
hazard lights
in the bus lane
police
remove the number plate,
the driver
brays drunkenly
(caught)
going home
to make a poem
(this one)
to give my problems
to you, reader
(contagion)
everything fails
when all else fails,
when all else
skyrockets
some of what I think
is a piece of crap
some of what I know
is worse
some things I say
shouldn’t be said
my heart,
meaning
my feelings towards you,
reader,
meaning
my straight ahead empathy,
though
is
in the right place
nearly home,
the streets seem dark
enter the house,
hug you,
my synthetic coat
squeaks