The Way of Zombies

We weren't supposed to hold the hands of the ones
we ate. Looking into their eyes, also forbidden.

No one asked for names, not once,
not even when the screams reached a crescendo.

Somehow we knew what to do by instinct, the way flies
know to deposit eggs in warm rot and lizards know
to shed dead skin even if it means
rubbing skin against stone, vigorously.

The hunger was enough. The hunger drove every move,
every decision. No one gave instructions or wrote
our obligations inside books. Sometimes we suspected
rules, but no one discussed them. When Cleo

devoured a boy smaller than herself
and snatched the toy boat from his hand,
not one of us ordered her
to leave it.   I turned, just as we were about to ascend

the black hill behind the children's hospital,
and saw our father, kneeling on ground
saturated with excrement and blood.

I watched him take the boy's small hand in his own
and hold it, briefly,
before gnawing pink digits down to bone.

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The Lungs Themselves

You will hear
in the expanding lungs.

Each breath forgets the last
and thus the question

is how to do
in this small room.

There is the desire
to abandon the city.

The people live as birds
tapping on surfaces.

One morning I woke
and stopped for minutes.

There is a sad in speaking:
a crushed castle, sold dog.

The cause in fact is in our
mouth, and in the word

we speak in secret.
A question is what to say

when the whole freaking
comes on down upon

the blockbusting world
and especially when it

doesn't. There is the fear
sometimes of sleep

and the thickness
in the waking head.

The disaster is
it doesn't know this room.

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Some Bad Life

I keep dreaming this is all some bad life.
Local greeting: Hi. Lament: Woe to me.
The eclipse confused us. We didn't know how much time passed
or how to communicate this to anyone else.

 
*
 

You brought out the worms in me.
And I used to have two good arms for waving goodbye.
I wasn't even supposed to be on that fistfight back to Philadelphia.
I was supposed to be Dracula in a real movie.

 
*
 

The first three years aren't separated into months, more like meals.
Possession and marriage are interchangeable.
I am liable to think that this is all Eve's fault.
We're all still here eating the apple, and we really hate apples.

 
*
 

The words brains and more-brains are your limitations.
I'm not as lucky. I can relate.
There have been five pictures left in that camera for months now.
This has nothing to do with severed limbs.

 
*
 

There's no chance for a change in television now.
The smell of rot in this small room is our rightful children.
What an exciting finish to a fulfilling day, a right rented one.
A dulling thud follows me, like this.

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We Took Their Zombies

I was flying over Sydney in a giant zombie.
(it's fun to take zombies
& stay up all night)
Sydney zombies
are white and angry-tongued, but
I am still
the black zombie of trespass on alien waters.
Things looked bad.

Your zombie calls, and you answer it: your
lank zombie, dank zombie,
chafe in its crotch and sores in its hair.
(it's important to be zombie
but not to be
 too cute about it.) Together
we eat
bread & stewed zombie –
It's surprisingly easy to cook a zombie now.
I can iron shirts too.

My zombie lives in a house where nobody has ever died.
To the wind it says, ‘They have eaten me alive.’

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The Laugh Track of Their Sloppy Fists

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The Laugh Track of Their Sloppy Fists (1:01)

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Eat My Secrets

Once we have carried out
our parts of the bargain

my secrets will be
safe, in the dark

vault of your body.
You alone understand

how I've ached
for the slow caress

of digestion, craved
to be held within

another's cells.
You will pack me away

in plastic bags, against
the coming months,

against your own
peculiar hunger.

You will relish me.
What could be sweeter?

I want to be known.
This way

you can taste me
all the way to the bone.

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Missing Girl, 1986

The zombie has a panic attack
in the middle of her feeding frenzy
and all of a sudden she is vomiting up
blood and body parts, the partially digest
arms of a newborn, the hindquarters
of a jack rabbit, torso of a Barbie doll.

Her first instinct is to shove
the contents back down her throat,
but waves of nausea overtake,
and she is shaking too hard to swallow.

She has visions of a little girl clutching a pink
dinosaur, Lucy, both of them
buried alive behind the mobile home
by a man with bloodshot eyes
and his zipper all the way down,
saying, “Touch it. Go on now. Touch it.”

She remembers inside the grave
and the way she hurt down there
where he had kept poking her.
She had promised Lucy
if they made it out alive,
she would find him and eat him
whole. Guts and all.

The next thing she remembers:
a swarm of flies entering the grave
and depositing eggs inside her moist cavities.
How afterwards, her whole body hummed.
Later, upon hatching, the noise inside her skin
woke her up. She would never sleep again.

Sometimes now, the hunger is insatiable,
the need stronger than a warning.
Even as her muscles quake, and panic
tightens her jaw, a small child cries
in an upstairs room, and she moves towards it, famished.

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How She Changed Her Diet

Two weeks now since she stopped going to work.
The phone gleams, silent as spilled blood. Skeletal remains
around the sofa indicate that she has run out
of children. Hunger is in constant motion – dogs outside
fighting each other, trees under attack from birds,
houses on fire. She peels the skin off her arms
and eats. Underneath she is decomposed, a walkway
for larvae and houseflies. Her memory is a constant drizzle,
a devouring of every face she comes across
until they resemble her first meal – the cab driver
who took her home. Alone, she reads books
again and again to remember the taste of living brains.
She holds on to a cloven copy of Ulysses
and chews her fingers until her tongue – torn taste
buds and gangrene – curls like a fetus around the bone.

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Vicki Viidikas Rediscovered: Ali Alizadeh’s Q&A with Barry Scott

In May 2010, Melbourne-based publisher Transit Lounge will release a much-anticipated collection of published and unpublished poetry and prose by the iconic Generation of '68 poet and l'enfant terrible, Vicki Viidikas (1948-1998). The book, simply titled Vicki Viidikas: New and Rediscovered, has been edited by Transit Lounge co-founder Barry Scott. Cordite's reviews editor Ali Alizadeh spoke to him about Viidikas, her iconoclastic work, her unconventional life, and her legacy.

Ali Alizadeh: Could you talk about your decision to edit and publish Vicki Viidikas: New and Rediscovered? What's significant and exciting about Viidikas and her work?

Barry Scott: I first came to the writing of Vicki Viidikas through the prose poetry collection India Ink (Hale and Iremonger, 1984) and was so moved by her approach and subject matter that I quickly sought out her other three books, Wrappings and Knabel (Wild and Woolley) and Condition Red (UQP) all published in the seventies. A shared interest in India and spirituality can only partly explain the magnetic pull her writing exerts over me.

Vicki was drawn to outsiders and the empathetic way she writes about them could only come from someone who at times also felt marginalised and outraged at the way people who were individual or different could be ostracised. ‘I gravitate towards people who are misfits or trying to be themselves,' she said in a 1975 Vogue interview. For Viidikas writing was an emotional, intuitive act, often confessional but always carefully honed and realised.

While she often stated that her writing was not intellectual, it is intelligently crafted. There seems to be an impression in some circles that she wrote quickly and never redrafted which is dispelled by the extensive archive of her work that exists in manuscript form. The lengthy story ‘Cretan Boy, Sailor Free' published in New and Rediscovered for the first time, is further evidence of her fiction writing powers and her ability to write about sexuality and relationships in a way that was both perceptive and truly brave.

Writing well about emotions, male and female relationships, and the spirit is risky business, but Viidikas does it without sentiment and without aligning herself to contemporary theories and structures such as ‘feminism' and ‘political protest.' When asked in Vogue if she would be interested in writing protest poetry or social criticism Viidikas commented, ‘Writing a poem about the Vietnam war would be a futile gesture. Real value comes from personal experience. I am interested in personal truths for the poet.'

In the ABC Radio National broadcast ‘Feathers/Songs/Scars' produced by Robyn Ravlich, a fellow poet and friend of Vicki, Robert Adamson described Vicki's writing as ‘organic, holistic, courageous, adventurous, foolhardy, delightful, dangerous, non-conformist.' When reading Viidikas's work I always have the sense that she is holding nothing essential back, that her life and her art are inseparable, that here is a writer driven by the need to write and is ultimately always positive. In one of my favourite poems ‘Mamallapuram (Tamil Nadu)' she writes: ‘The ancient calendar revolves its execution – there's no moment too small for the birth of another dream.' It's a line that has become something of a personal ‘seize the day' mantra.

AA: Looking at her first published poem ‘At East Balmain', published when she was nineteen, it seems to me she possessed the desire to look for the extraordinary within the ordinary. She writes: ‘This day will be submerged in a thousand other days / yet I know distinctly I felt the glance of a figure / in a singlet, rolling cigarettes as his barge went / up stream.' Could you speak to this desire for distinction, attention and intensity of feeling in Viidikas's work?

BS: Yes, I'm glad you have focused my attention on that poem. It's finely observed, hinting at the connections between people that so come to motivate her later writing. It would be hard to imagine a piece of Vicki's writing that in some way didn't bore down into a feeling or emotional centre.

Elsewhere in the poem ‘a hermit dog lives here, in a burnt-out boiler turning / orange. He stays inside all day – I‘ve seen his eyes / glint in the dark, he is huge and black and solemn.' It's a poem full of understated feeling, of now and forever, of ‘the feeling of walking across the water, / without moving a muscle.' The poem's final emphasis on the fragility of life, the description of a dead rat ‘grey and stiff, with his tiny mouth open, arms stretched about his head' is counterpointed with an earlier description of the eternal nature of the river, ‘clear water washing million-year old stones.'

It did not surprise me that the word ‘eternity' was mentioned so much in her unpublished writing. In an interview with Hazell de Berg Vicki said ‘writing for me is process of drawing the spirit out of myself … It is to me in its simplest sense a religious feeling that I want to pursue and discover in myself.' Vicki was someone who saw and felt things acutely and possessed the gift to write those feelings and experiences into words.

As her friend Kerry Leves writes in the introduction to New and Rediscovered, ‘Vicki lived a full life; she embraced experience, even flung herself into or out of experiences, but not in search of something to write about. Her living like her writing was guided by a commitment to going against the grain.' The intensity of feeling in Vicki's work comes from its lived and often unconventional truth, a lifetime of seeking answers to the big questions that never ignored or sidelined those people the mainstream often saw as losers.

AA: Viidikas's first collection of poetry, Condition Red, was published by the University of Queensland Press in 1973. It's a remarkable debut, both in its confidence and courage to deal with deeply personal, sexual and unsettling themes (something that was perhaps considered controversial in the context of 1970s women's poetry) and also for its subtlety and sophistication. The poem ‘They Always Come', which I'd like to quote in its entirety, is a candid, gritty, and at the same time ironic and uncanny anticipation of her literary afterlife.

They Always Come

When they have taken away
the childish laughter and dog-eared books,
peeled off the last mush embrace,
given the girl
her lipsticks, hair rinses and pills

When they have poured back the drinks
as long as empty deserts,
returned the spurs to the one-night stands,
taken off the overcoat
and riddled her bed with song

They'll find
a mirror smothered in lips
a vacant room with stale cigar ash,
an unpaid bill for a Turkish masseur,
a woman's glove by a handsome typewriter

They'll see
charleston dresses of the mind
with their fringes running like blood,
a list of men's names
from childhood to eternity,
they'll dig the very fluff from the floorboards,
examine the stains on the manuscripts

Which drug did she take?
Which pain did she prefer?
What does the lady offer
behind the words, behind the words?
Their criteria will be:
so long as she's dead we may
sabotage and rape

The possibly sardonic tone of the poem notwithstanding, what do you think Viidikas offers ‘behind the words' of her poems?

BS: I agree Condition Red has become a legendary classic because Viidikas wasn't afraid to write about previously taboo topics such as rape (‘Punishments and Cures'), drug use (‘Loaded Hearts') and sexuality. ‘They Always Come' seems to arise from an intuitive feeling about how the writer, the artist, the woman life's may be inappropriately used after her death.

In some ways it has come to be seen as a feminist poem and as presaging Vicki's own fate, though Viidikas was a complex person who, when asked by Sandra McGrath in Vogue if she considered her poetry feminist, answered, ‘I suppose it is – though I don't see it that way. Sometimes when I am writing a poem I am conscious of being a female, but not overall.'

My sense of Vicki's work is that in focusing on the body, the spirit and the emotions she was drawn to and understood the vulnerability that exists in us all, male and female. She writes sensitively and intelligently about men and women. In the very early story ‘Tambura in Darlinghust' there is an exquisite understanding of Gray's infatuation and ‘perfect loneliness', and elsewhere Viidikas taps into the vunerability of her male characters, the alcoholic in ‘Not Harry' or the burly slaughter man in ‘Letter to a Macho Man'.

The sardonic tone, the anger is often there but is counterpointed by a depth of understanding and an exploratory intent. As Kerry Leves has commented Vicki has the ability to make ‘a single image ramify into a nuanced conceptual arrangement.' Her poetry and prose often reverberate with a single image that opens out into layers of meaning. Behind the words the lady/writer/individual is ultimately alone, ‘the last permanent resident' (‘A View of the Map' from Wrappings), conflicted about which world to live in, always ultimately searching for Love. ‘Did You ever have this conflict / of which world to be in, / Queen, with cards stacked/creation on Your deck?' (‘Durga Devi' from India Ink)

AA: With the publication of books like Condition Red and others, as Stephen Oliver has written, Viidikas had ‘the Australian literary establishment of the late ‘60's and ‘70s […] open their arms to her – success was hers for the taking.' But it seems to me she preferred to live a full, eventful life instead of pursuing literary glory. Could you talk a little bit about that, about Viidikas's travels in particular, and about how experiences such as living in India shaped her writing, culminating in her last published book, India Ink (1984)?

BS: In 1972 Vicki received a young writers' grant from the Commonwealth Literary Fund and went overseas for a year – to England, India and Asia. India made a deep impression on her – and in spite of the caste system she could see that the different, the outcasts of society were allowed to be themselves.

Cities bared their souls and a richness of life and spirit was not tied to material wealth. ‘Listen … I learn more here in one hour than in one year of being alive in Australia, and there is no hot water on tap' (‘Rich in Madras'). I remember Vicki's mother, Betty Kunig, telling me how much Vicki wanted to take her to see India, to show it off to her. As journeys there grew longer and personal relationships developed it must have increasingly felt like home to her.

Certainly India, despite its frustrations, became her spiritual home and a major character in her writing. Gray, the character in the story ‘Tambura in Darlinghurst' fascinates Felina because he lives as an Indian: ‘He lived and breathed as an Indian.' India figures in Vicki's writing from very early on and India Ink is arguably the best Australian writing about the subcontinent. India is never romanticised, yet the poet captures its spirit and contradictions.

Viidikas kept an extensive diary of her time there and as well as India Ink worked on her novel Kali and the Dung Beetle, almost published by McPhee Gribble at the time. Hopefully a full version of the novel will be published in the future. Thanks to Vicki's mother, Betty Kunig, and sister, Ingrid Lisners, an excerpt is in New and Rediscovered. A number of illustrations that Vicki did in India also appear in the new book.

The volume of Vicki's writing and the seriousness with which she regarded it is indicative of a writer who deserved to be published more in her later years. Her exploratory subjective tone and voice seemed to lend itself best to short fiction and a form of prose poetry that was perhaps less fashionable in the nineties, while her novel Kali and the Dung Beetle always seemed to just miss out on appearing in print. Experience and art were, for Vicki, one and the same thing. And while I suspect that it was a disappointment for her that her later work was less published the rewards and daily discoveries that her writing revealed to her were significant.

AA: You've included ‘Lust', perhaps the last poem Viidikas wrote. It is a haunting meditation on a lifetime of rejecting social norms and conservative mores. She concludes the poem by writing: ‘I would rather live on flowers, / and a diet of grace. / I may be the last spinster.' Can you talk about the legacy of this exceptional poet?

BS: Vicki's question in that poem ‘Who will bring back the beauty, / the ecstasy, the mystery / of creation?' mirrors her preoccupations with writing the body and the spirit. In ‘Durga Devi' in India Ink she writes ‘why am I never right/to come to whole love/in this world of flesh and men.'

In a way ‘Lust' posits a rather unfashionable view that seems brilliantly Vicki but is also deeply felt. I am positive that Vicki's rich and undervalued legacy of fiction writing and poetry that so beautifully explores and questions relationships and spiritual meaning will speak to a new generation of readers. In her life the rich, glamorous ‘perfect stranger' driving her across the Harbour Bridge, Hendrix playing on the stereo (‘The Snowman in the Dutch Masterpiece' from Wrappings), became an ‘emptiness', but one perhaps she ultimately craved because it allowed her to be true to her art and herself.

‘I wanted to write a poem of the silence of the desert. I wanted to leave the body and enter the heart of the mountain … Right now I am mutating into a wordless book – when I‘ve done writing I‘ll send it to you. This is not a death wish, a severed tongue or a headless fool – I'm swearing with illuminated ink, to get it right, right.' (‘Illuminated Ink')

‘So I tied the red string and it/ fluttered like blood against pure white stone. In that moment I believed in eternity forever.' (‘Tomb and String' from India Ink)

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Zombie Monster Pizza Man

Zombie Monster Pizza Man
stands outside your door,
his zombie monster pizza van
makes a graveyard roar.

Zombie Monster Pizza Man
demands you let him in,
his zombie monster deep-dish pan
is tucked beneath his chin.

Zombie Monster Pizza Man
shouts to you ‘come quick',
then shakes your zombie-Pepsi can
and gives dead lips a lick.

Zombie Monster Pizza Man
stands in front of you,
his zombie flesh all grey and tan
with holes you see right through.

Zombie Monster Pizza Man
wants a pizza you:
he'll slice you into zombie ham,
then chew you, chew you, chew.

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Mary Shelley’s Man

singed
and restless stretched lulled father's casting
womanhood caterwauling fevers, death and the
joined to creature knowing
not born

black dank cold break with clouds
rush of consciousness confound
with the ache and throb of
life stitches blue/green/yellow/red
bruises' kisses everywhere

black dank cold river mirror split
like paper down the ark of him
words will him to believe
black the warm thrump-thump of Percy's chest
snap man this head rusted with clouds
and the blood break hands
lumbered out

Dada's mirror children
eaters of gently trailed fire
when he came
she knew –
corpse scent
open grave part fire
his smell, rush of consciousness
confounded with the age bongggggggggggggg
mist rolling on –
her in her wooden wheels and bells echoing tolling
cold ink-stained hands defied
the fingertips trailed gently came

this head rusted with clouds
and the blood break hands
joined to him groan of sky-bolted by a storm tearing
mountain pain
half-sunk, his head rusting
joined to him her fingertips tearing
joined to him by a storm of ice

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A Corpse-Flower Blooms: Haiku Cycle for a Zombie Plague

Lady Day's “Strange Fruit”
Makes me laugh tonight, thinking
Apples walk the earth.

Shooting stars at night,
Smoke drifts from the research lab.
Resurrection day.

Plant the bodies well,
Or before the warm spring rains,
They sprout like new buds.

A bloom pushes up,
Corpse-flower atop the mound —
Not petals, fingers.

Empty holes for eyes,
Nostrils stuffed with graveyard moss.
Why does he need brains?

Bitten by strange fruit,
Her face still looks familiar —
With death comes hunger.

Family dinner:
Mom bites Dad, Dad bites children.
Together, they feed.

Watching from the woods,
Houses go dark, one by one.
Soon, the screaming stops.

Harvest moon shines red,
Icy clouds spread through my blood.
A bite wound, weeping.

Chilled by winter wind,
Crowds come groaning at my door.
I must join them soon.

Hungry wind moans low
The buildings are all empty.
Dead things should not breathe.

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gunkMother

          It's about that night Owen cut my gut, put in a Ruby and spoke
          herpes to me. It's about Number – how it is everywhere
          anywhere. It's about that night Owen chewed off my left hand
          and grew a spider for me; that night Owen chewed off my left
          leg. It starts in a car but ends in a bath, somehow. There's an
          eel in there too, in my mouth, twice. Owen's a painter, he
          paints realities, believed implicitly. His voice was so clear I
          don't remember a thing he said. Owen is my gunkMother. I'm
          his baby. By the end I always feel dead.

 
 

A crack opens in the membrane, anticipation drains my cortex of blood – sends my skull
buzzing. A cold edge, the sign reunited with flesh – pain kisses me swiftly
in the belly.

Owen's rice-paper lips split my skin. His tongue: a sharp wedge pushing
the cold prismatic centre in. Owen lives inside me radiating fire light geometry.

I watch through my eyelids – street light comets career over head, a trail of algebraic
formulas sing with the flat thrump of tires on rough road outside.

Owen's heptagonal voice spreads cavities in my mind
flesh holes in my sky ridge, his creeping serpent infects my flesh. Owen is the voice
inside the dark well of this virus – iris lips kiss my belly from inside.

I drink his word sounds – liquid sand suspended air in take. A bloated eel decomposes
inside this evolutionary vessel, a tongue turns in my mouth. My left hand and foot waver.
Each pore a vital interruption in the veneer. I scrutinise the integrity of my composition.

Owen's in the corner eating shadows all around me with fingertips, enveloping
ba by bo dy my body is a baby, worrying. He pulls at my throat – seems very real now,
carries: sea weed green bottle suspended sand vermilion Ruby rattle, lifts it to my eye –
sea weed green bottle green weed sea throat see see see vermilion sand sounds under my
tongue – with in my nerves.

Owen watches me from behind curtains – from 3rd step chest caged ribs listening
for my heart beat babee babee babee. Owen lifts me from the bathtub capsule cradle
runs lips across my skin, chews my left foot off at the ankle, comes from curtains
runs lips across my calves, comes from step, sucks at the back of my knees
with creeping serpent flesh – pausing, leg in hand…Owen watches a moth fight
on coming head lights.

Owen's crystalline face radiates nebulous symmetry, light emanates from 10 co-ordinates,
exits my stomach at the ratio 7 to 3. A fire light geometry. A hole in my sky ridge
closes, Owen has woven a fresh skin sack contains me underthick airwater
my bones grow moss. I hold my nose, there's an eel in my mouth. Owen performs
clenched jaw surgery – my left wrist is exposed bone teeth marks, tourniquet of newly
wound hair tightens, pain patterns the wall with ancestral designs show time of death
sex melting point.

His spiders leap across the room drinking in the sounds emanating from the stone
under my skin – rearing up – the curvature of their heads caught in the light from his eyes
strike fire fucked fangs into my severed wrist create me a new spider hand grafted
to my body baby by Owen the gunkMother.

My left spider watches me. It is strong. 8 nimble fingers crawl around dragging my arm
behind them – an abdomen melded to my wrist, dark hair contrasted to my blonde.
My left spider wipes the sweat from my brow. It frightens me. I close my eye mind
fluid chest pain warps sand air sack surrounds me – world expands
contracts expands contracts. I see in 4/4.

Owen's fingers fan pigment: futures spill in to sand: a fire glass amalgam.
Owen's tongue casts phonemes, patterns in waves encircle me in vocal sensitive sleeve
skin snake shed thread bare in can tations roll in with the swell. Owen consumes
birth sack slides from before my eyes vertigo gondola pitches my Venice is sinking!

Owen stands beside me – bun dled vi bra tion trans lu cent ap par i tion so lid im plod ing
phan tom. My left spider runs dark legs across his hair – neck – chest – nipple – feeding
scars with in crimson skin. Viral tendrils fondle my nerves, invade my equation.

Owen feeds a new space freshly ground Jasmine flesh – the pigment of white. He offers
me a bloom, pale lips speaking scent with out breath. Around me Porcelain grows cold.
My left spider is crying, trying to climb out of this bath. Vermilion Rubies flow from me
rattling down the drain.

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Gilbarco

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Gilbarco (1:05)

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Life with Mr Darcy

The nights are distilled into unmentionables.
He comes home and stands over my bed. Candlelight
on my face is filtered through the stake holes
in his body. I am suddenly aware of love – the constant
dripping, the smells, the vulgarity of a husband
deprived early of his teeth. In the kitchen,
the axe and hammer are my austere companions.
He takes his bread with entrails, the remains of a severed arm.
My sister Jane, with a banged-up sword sticking out
of her torso, ate his heart one night while visiting with Mr Bingley.
A large spider lives in there now, spinning. A cobweb
covers the cavity. Never in any danger of falling out,
instead it lures in prey. What is the mouth
if not another orifice for hoarding foreign objects.
I darn his wounds, wipe the filth from his rotting toes,
recollect the moment he tied my hands and feet
on our wedding night. I am here to honor him. It is a ritual.

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We Came Out at Night

The workers never ate despite the creatures
nesting in the jigsaw rot of their throats, their shrunken
lungs. Father released them nightly
from the stable. They shuffled towards the formaldehyde trough
for a dip and then dripped their way to the cornfield.
The oldest, Dió, wore a face that was a motion
picture of centipedes and shifting holes. He took care
of our baby sister ever since she stopped crying.
She sat on his lap – a silent grey thing with her torso stitched tight
against the cold – while indoors
Mother banged her head against the kitchen wall.
Brain matter swarmed to our lips. She tasted
the way a rubbing of wings takes place inside a body.
She was dank. All the animals she ate in the past possessed her
as she had taken possession of us.
Father never survived the drought, but rested
for years in our bellies – with his useless rifle, his missing foot.

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Parisier Platz

The zombies are too excitable, it is graveyard here.

Look how Quincy Jones everything is, how Michael Jackson –

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Man About Town

who turns up to every party
late and slow
and seeks the bar
with an ant eater for a face

who shakes but does not dance
who barely keeps sentences together
but instead leaves them
spread out between mouths
like washing hanging
on string between
old buildings in Europe

who makes up every dollar
he's ever earned, who tears tissues
with earthy fingers
and fills the salad bowl with
the smell of rats

who is found hugging a pot plant
after the music stops,
who does not want to go home
and tried to eat every handshake

who wears American
highway-cop sunglasses and passes
out on the couch
between conversations, whose
pants come with black hole pockets
for small change and fivers

who hits on girls in posters
and leaves lichen-like drool
on fluffy pillows where a little sister
was to sleep that night

who is found the next morning
in the stairwell, stinking of the grave
and undergoing a terrible chrysalis
and twitching.

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The Zombie, Rejected By His Human Lover, Responds

– for Megan Thoma
 

I'm writing this with my finger,
dipped in the pulp
of my own clotting blood
on the concrete
wall of a parking garage.

The air was a blurry
headache the night
I first saw you,
skin aglow like starlight
on a sidewalk,
some candle
I lack irradiating
the stained-glass sea
in your eyes.

I don't remember what bite
or voodoo narrowed
me to this undying season
of wanting. I only
know I'm hunger. I'd swallow
myself if I could.
I can feel myself
decomposing. I shake,
and shake.

I'm an orchestra of lurches,
a spell of falling,
I couldn't help but tilt
toward you, but what amazed
my wilting mind
was that you saw
the telltale angle
of my stumble,
heard the primal
deep of my smeared
excuse for language.
You knew what
I was and took
me home anyway.
In this I might be no
different than any man.

Here is something no
other human knows:
every night in the sting
of cool right before dawn
we gather, all over,
a rotting congregation.
Some compass
in us inclines
our faces toward Pluto,
and we will turn
toward it as one
and hum a graveled,
shivering hymn.
It has no words.

Last night I shuffled
not to the pallid
rooftop where we gather
but wavered
outside your window
as you slept and sang,
not to the underworld,
but to you. I'm
in orbit around something
new. I'm now something
other than what my body
demands of me. Sweet,
I love you for more
than your brain.
What other man
has ever said that?

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the dam

There is a woman at the bottom of our dam. Her blood makes the water black. I know it because I can smell her bloated body and her rotting skin and the poisonous gas coming out of her cunt. The boys seem to know it too, without really knowing it and they hover around the dam, sniffing the air like skinny dogs.

The boys swam in the dam until a few days ago. They wear shorts down to their knees and their torsos are so narrow that they look like they are eleven and not thirteen. Their nipples are the size of fingernails.

My nipples are nearly as big as my breasts. I lie by the cold glass of the windowpane and watch the moon becoming full. The bones of my hips are creaking to make a space for it. The house is creaking too, settling into its wooden frame as the beams contract with the cool of night.

In the morning I count the freckles across my nose and listen to the boys calling out to each other. The mudguards on their bikes rattle over the ridged bare earth near the dam and the dogs bark and pull at their chains. I cannot swim this week. Even if she was not there, I could not swim. I sit in my room and watch the boys through the open window. Her stink is on the breeze.

For two nights there is no moon. The house is moaning. The boys are murmuring in the room next to mine and I don't know if they are asleep.

Then there are stars again and silence. The silence of people sleeping, cows sleeping, fields of grass and crickets sleeping, given up on the hope of rain. But there is a sound on the night, a sound so low that no one else could hear it. It comes from the deep of someone's throat. The tips of my toes brush the cold wood floor and it feels like the surface of water.

Outside the dam is so dark that it is a mirror. My reflection is black and white on its surface and the moon is a fingernail clipping tonight. My breasts point down at the water and the mouths at the end of them are open like the beaks of hungry birds.

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Friends

Are

slight

figures,

thin as

flames:

they dis-

appear

and

a

grey

mark

shows

on the

ceiling,

smelling

of smoke.

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A Void in the Windscreaming

I mean: It is the impact of speaking to you again, now you are dead.
Strands of your hair against my skin and petrol fuming. A hole
in the windscreen and your empty seat. Blindness
after the on coming light. I mean: There was this accident.

I woke with images in my fingers: your bent shadowface with in my spiral print.
Blood offered a mirrored surface. I watched your reflection dry
into non being – are you listening? I would sing to you but do not have the breath.
Would you listen then? Move your eyes again?

My heart is compressed chambers, flooded by collision: the desire for movement
at speed. The bend came with rushing light, windscreen beckoned: last threshold
first flight, launch velocity reached in an instant – you parted glass – aperture
for moon seen in red blue red blue red blue lights,
light my heart from inside: it is far too dark in here.

A tyre spinning against the blown out sky holds my attention.
Bright animals come with sand for this new ocean floor.
The sea withdrew tomorrow – left me stranded, took you.

I mean: There was this accident. Everyone woke up dead, not everyone woke up
up dead. There were lots of dead. I mean: up side down fast sparks lifted
from my hair. Up side down glass shifted. Up side down arms dangled
hands puffed up, swollen with blood and head. My head was full blood.
Too full blood in side out. Too much blood came out, out came too much up side
down me up side down you out side down looking with dead sheep eyes wide open wide.
Are you listening? I mean: There was this accident.

Bright animals are cutting my frame – do I exist in their world
of breathe breathe breathe? My flesh sack lured into space by gravitational pull
of bright moons, the blatant scope of the sky an irrepressible expansion.
Stars shed skin across a car's underbelly: exhaust, suspension, drive shaft.
I orbit. Time reflects off moving parts, a relative perception, light's receding deflection:
drive exhaust shaft suspension

I orbit. Hear the human watch garden: billions of ticking time pieces craving
union. A breathing plantation of gilded gold cogs chewing time.
I orbit. See a distant rotation: red blue red blue red blue lights,
light my heart from inside, Mother – it is far too dark out here. I orbit
your empty seat speaking my on coming blind ness
your stranded hair fuming petrol through a void in the windscreaming
are you listening? I mean: There was this accident.

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Zombie 2.0

We know more about the undead species who have lived in our hearts and dined on our minds than ever before. We have probed into their weaknesses, evaded their tricks and know well of their canny (and uncanny) chicanery. We know these things … because they were once like us. Let us not rest on our laurels. Let us be vigilant and as ready as we can be for the uneasy future that is Zombie 2.0.

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