before dawn
even flowers
are grey
till magpies,
monochrome flautists,
pipe in the colours
before dawn
even flowers
are grey
till magpies,
monochrome flautists,
pipe in the colours
• he is convinced his bullet points are new moons
• even today when people use the term ‘narrative arc’ Noah leans forward
• not belonging to anything in this world this world belongs to anything
• i cut myself and you bleed
• he can’t even walk into an empty room without saying sorry
• this sentence should not be used in any poem
• even the tallest poet will fall short of this line
• how could i walk into a room and not see i was there
• even if i knew what a corner was what would i do with it
• attention spanned as small as self
• it was philosophers vs art theorists in the eyeball & spoon race
• is this jug a pour example of itself
• he said clocks are just drink coasters for the gods
• hate inspires great architecture but makes lousy coffee
• if we understood language we’d leave it on the wall like a fire extinguisher
• in every play the commas get the best parts
• only a stone’s throw away the stone throws itself away
• on the table a pair of ears held together with a paperclip
• now that politics is just a farmer’s market for lies
• even ordinary words like the ones you’re reading now will end up as something
• discovering the axis of the world is a needle she threads her life through it
• standing at one end with a stopwatch she times my swim through the mirror
• inside your throat i make your breath produce its passport
• my bones exit and stack themselves neatly so i can collapse in peace
• this sentence should be used in every poem
• after staring at the sun all day we agreed we could no longer see each other
• i sleep with your mouth open
• if i tell you where we are we won’t be there anymore
• convinced his bullet points are new moons he makes lists to avoid narrative
O well-wishers of the underground, defriend me.
I played with the singularity of time, hounded by the noises my mother made in my ear when I was an infant, pressed close to death.
Once upon a time a child caressed by many like a fiddle grew up into a sullen behemoth.
It’s easy to insert my hand right through the maws of the classic.
There, in that ninth dimension, stand the puttering ghosts, about to break up into ash at the minutest detonation of anger.
Even Picasso had his mystery.
We know these cars, blinded by their speed pattern, have their noses turned inward.
What is that sound of thunder?
I imagine Oxford, Mississippi in the Faulkner days, under a green shadow of not-knowingness so deep even the insects had to advance cautiously.
The moon is heating up.
O my brothers and sisters who believe in the myth of Woodstock, why won’t you let us hear if you have a singing voice?
The news, when it fits the gospels, I trust.
Where do we go after we have paid the toll?
I am passionate about the size and height of my desk, but not so much the coloring. I become blind between ten and two every day.
The cats have their conference, and it is a most pleasant barter.
The child who saw me with one eye, she is named after her father’s dead father.
Windows are conspiring in the assassination, so are the doors, the garbage chutes, the laundry room’s drainage pipes, all the oak pollen falling like a nuisance rain.
Come, let us smuggle eros past grandfatherly canons.
Maybe it was a mistake to be born. Maybe I am the reincarnation of Jesus—or Napoleon. Maybe I was the wolf in Little Red Riding Hood. I can taste the blood still.
My father sacrificed me when I was still swaddled, wanting no piece of me, if I wouldn’t have the fortitude of Isaac.
So we hid in the Amazon. Inside the rain bubble you feel no rain. The earth is smoking its way to a new equilibrium. The fish are fried, and the corn tastes of powder. The Mayans feel vanquished.
Cricket is a slow game. So slow you have time to become self-conscious on the field.
I call myself a novelist. I have punctured many a character’s fatuous ego.
The keys to your house tinkle generously in my pocket, but I cannot make up my mind to exit the endless corridor, where I meet up with Cocteau’s demon lovers and greet them from the twenty-first century, a period that in their worst dreams they knew was bound to come one day. It’s just that once it happens no one knows how to phrase it to preserve their innocence.
You, who call yourself savvy, defriend me. I can’t penetrate the cats’ in-joke.
I am more empty
than something sucked dry
by a man lost thirty days
in a desert and now
found
I feel the leg hairs of ants on my temples
and they knock
and wait for someone to open the door,
but there is no doorman
in strangling suit of blue
or maroon, or some tertiary
instead there’s a cup on a table
and it’s just about to be filled,
though not until the little man
gets back with the paper,
and by the look of the spider webs
it seems that he left weeks ago
and was in quite a hurry, his hat still on a hallway peg
I’m still looking for him, his brain
is valuable; the way he’d read his own headlines
before acting out the best bits of movies
with woodchips from the flower pots
or lie and say he had Peter Sellers’ copy of
In the Mood
or that one of his ancestors slept
beneath Cadair Idris and went mad
and ate chicken feathers all year
until he wasted away.
[Heidegger quotes from: M. Heidegger, German Existentialism. Translated and with introduction by D. D. Runes, New York: The Wisdom Library Division of Philosophical Library Inc. 1965 (direct quotes from Heidegger)
The tie clip and ‘If you see a light’ – from: W. Honan, “Hannah Arendt’s love with the perfect Nazi”, Sydney Morning Herald 11/11/1995]
The footprints were black as tarmac,
somehow withholding the light
which otherwise streamed across
the intersection of snowy streets:
perhaps they had captured her soul
as she walked from the basilica
over to the poet’s monument
and then to the small chapel
where she would sing a hosanna:
but all I could hear was silence.
46
light wanes in Trinidad;
the red ibises return;
the mind loses its wager with disbelief
47
light heartedly
the mind conceived the cello
without frets
48
for its own security
the mind forged
the food chain
49
the mind serves
as windlass to its weighty thoughts
50
the congenial mind
offers its best vintage,
breaks its thoughtful bread
51
birth grants equality by right –
nurturing minds ripen its fruits
52
the mind, relatively young,
knows to discount the arrogance
of the Age of Reason
53
the mind convinces best
in the vernacular
if the speaker is interested
54
ever the optimist, the mind
considers itself half full
55
if the mind takes a spin
it always comes back dizzy
56
a subtle mind tends
to confuse thought with action
57
alone in the Pantheon
the mind circles its rotunda
only to pause at inner peace
58
during a melodic phase
the mind turns a musical phrase
59
the mind confuses addresses
while searching its old neighborhoods
60
when minds oppose, is law sovereign
without enlightened police?
Somewhere in Patagonia, an old man carries an axe, and a kitten blows like tumbleweed down a street otherwise empty. The closed storefronts are vacant as dreams, and the traffic lights like absence before the raw wind. It is barely dawn. At the bus stop, near a corner shop with peeling skin, the dogs begin to arrive, one by one, some greeting each other, silently, others standing or sitting alone. There is a dog with one eye, and another with three legs perched on the doorway ledge of the corner store, its windows boarded as if there was something terrible. Then comes an old woman with a wooden cart, one wheel shrieking. When she stops, she props the lid of her cart ajar for viewing. Next, there are the strangers, their backpacks stuffed with sleep. Some of the passengers arrive on foot, others in taxis. They bring the noise, and the day grows sturdy. The people are people. The dogs are dogs. The bus arrives like market day. And departs like evening. The dogs mill like litter in its lee, and the old woman closes the lid of her wagon against the wind. Then the dogs cross the road, some alone, others together, to the lonely panic of the pedestrian lights.
When I met you in the hall you were all
inclement weather on a stony coast
and you held my hand as though we were more
than we could be: preppy kids in a pop-song duet
retrofitting dignifying deniable half-truths
at the end of the late-night double-feature
picture show.
We met again before your disability
support pension days, when I was a bright-eyed
ingenue at the agency after-party, coked-up,
with the hands of the randy partner (a known
pederast and pants man — and oh does he come
to a sticky end) all over me. He had character
not presence — it wasn’t a failing.
How I loved you
then but find now the unexamined life continuous
digital glitch presenting as analog texture.
In Fremantle we tour the wreck
of the Batavia — preserved immersed timbers tell us
humans are heavier than water, lighter than air —
blank reflections pale as faded decals slipped
from an astrolabe’s display case.
I walk through the city, plaiting up dreams. They are best found at night, steaming on the road, where they have been tossed out car windows or flattened from the long walks home. I straighten the dreams, pull the colours together, stretch the long-held dreams out to see how they need mending.
In the summer, they are tiny, cotton puffs, thin with the need to escape. They fall out flyscreen doors, float through mesh, gather in apple trees and fall under the strawberry plants. In the winter, nightmares rush out, falling over themselves, yellow, green and blue. These winterdreams are heavier and take longer to sort.
The long-haired girl sighs as she walks. Her dreams are complicated and will turn into pretty plaits — multicoloured, lustrous. Their shine is too bright for too long and, after a time, I decide I need to go inside, to the cupboard. I search the leftovers: five minutes outside, clean sheets and fresh bread, bare feet on the beach, and slip them into the plait for a girl who can see all of her future: endless, beautiful, exact.
I plait her dreams, brush the silky pattern, feel the knot.
The relation between show & tell
show the seed tell the chair.
there were no poppies but there was beeswax,
there were no forums save the framed rain,
The lead shone purple.
Husks sprouted underneath, Not yellow,
Dry brown. The dried dead,
invited entered grey house, Falling sunflowers, Walked drowned.
Potted metal seedlings mock a germination clock,
Colour spools from fruits & grains,
Alone in their coffins with the dark,
Soft plants not electric but words,
hit floor. The light but largely not light hits the floor. Stuck Between
families & strangers making a visible Celebration.
* * *
THE INVISIBLE ACCOMPANIES us up & downstairs, hear the
record touch it. Leaves of cocoa vision & concept anchored by
insect sound. Instructions helpful to the point of irritating nonblind blind. I Scooped that was
my involvement left right Both.
* * *
HIS STRENGTH AND exposure in the early, in his
late current buzz. Old coins make treasure spotted hands make art
Take the broken things
from the side of the road
the rotted cedar setting
the tippling tables
the cathode ray tv
the rusted chair
the torn fabric
the fallen angels
the terracotta pots.
Take the broken things
from this derelict garden
the stumps of trees
the leaking pond
the crushed coral reef
the trembling crust
the pulsing core
the fractured pipe
the spent bromeliads.
Take the broken things
from inside your coat
the old fountain pen
the stitched in quote
the pieces of glass
the vow of love
the crumbled shell
the torn photograph
the strands of her hair.
Take the broken things
from the open tomb
the father
the son
the desecrated host
the unwrapped shroud
the spilt wine
the children
the priests.
Take the broken things
from this punctured can
the first lines of a poem
the interrupted thought
the space between stanzas
the parts of speech
the vowels
the consonants.
This sentence.
i lap up macadamia fuzz in a middle aged stroll of the ‘nature’. espying a roof rack
means change the world instead, or try on sunglasses ingested by a seven-eleven,
or read emily bitto’s poem & feign a partner’s formal awareness. hum,
like mythic solitary couples sparse atop ‘fauna’.
anyway you’re bubbly. & less lcd in spirit becalmed in those spurts. as spun
wool wet suited & vast they find nothing in my head no feeling no tartan
gift wrapping (though such curling patterns fuck around in dreams, wax
semi-porous opinion). a vaseline moment & a ‘perfect’ sticker
affixed to my clothes. all hot, lovely, or so
my jaw speculates.
over to gorgon youths barraging the heads. girls venture further
& nakeder to peruse the bluster. a blyton shark net hole looses seals
& one lone stingray, a smoker, a maverick snorkeler, is fictional.
living bends my spine in & out of that stuporific posture, a useful
talking point. we meandered into the joust talk like sand djinns,
far-limited by day… now bleached into a pathetic fade of umber,
as a footnote of who will hold the mantle? years ahead in what
might be glum future, else bank queues he stops to borrow
all your stuff – hat flippers coat wallet – with me a carefree grin
they can only breed, then locks under the spume with definite
activity / mindful of things i disappear. awful profundity in the wind.
the huntsman’s legs extended with a passing thunderhead.
our party has become a spider, grappling to predict equal change in feeding ritual.
lime infused tea vomits a vapour of muzak to our traversal of polarization of
digital means – to move / to get static / to tape ‘obstinate’ & bend it through a
low-pass filter, to imagine only the background level subject matter ever:
irony as a head slap / falling from a car after. you’re a tool.
you could enter into more details. then, there. an academic reference
to richard gere’s rehearsed lines seems slight, in hindsight.
i discovered the tomes on everything (passing forest, firetrails named
after his grave, packets of ‘big things’ & the website to back you up)
but everyone else is incapable of feeling the same awkward.
in houses bereft of for sale signs, boats parked round the side, we’ll straggle
down a murderous side-path not obvious to light. here’s a picnic bench,
a council bin. streaks of wind across some dwindle of bay.
i’m seeking resonance. rub cream into the stings,
& elsewhere, all quarters pleasurable.
the bream flounders under his stern gaze. no worries
blown across, telegraphed as a sentence, whole.
~ Donald Justice
A song went looking for light,
But that is another story.
Cities burn behind us, the lake
Glitters: Do not bother with odes,
My son, an elegy is preparing itself
For the suicides of 196__.
The grandfathers holding this poem —
It was his story, it would always be
His story: June 13, 1933 —
Know (like a deserted beach,
A map of love, nostalgia) one
May depend on these old cemeteries.
The poet: re: the question of
Self-portrait as still-life,
The classic landscapes of dreams,
Unflushed urinals, & his voice
Through the smoke & dull flames
Of purgatory …
When the lights go on uptown,
X, you would not recognize me.
sueltame hermana media hermana nada
mas que un acquaintance an accident historic
agujero negro never negro never the home
place never the broken home platitudes
only the sucios make you sweat second
hand I came to understand la ley
de la land la la la la la la mama
tierra? la la la la la la no home in Bodalla
can’t stand Temuco too cold in Hobart Puerto
Montt push it push it I never understood
la ley ’cause I couldn’t stand the swelter
the molten breast milk swelter
pechugas de piedra sucking on salt water
inky heart saltos huyendo how many times has
art rhymed with corazón the reason I’m fleeing
is the buzz of an interstitial buzzing salty
smelters is when I dive into the ocean
cuando escucho las fantasmas
sumergiéndose otra vez en las aguas
it surrounds me like your land surrounds you.
La Serena, Chile
~ George Oppen
A zero, a nothing, a barbarity —
Cars on the highway filled with speech,
The darkness of trees.
The extreme from up-state
(Grateful for a breeze):
He who will not work shall not eat.
It is the air of atrocity,
A kind of garden like a flat
Sea. My daughter, my _______,
What can I say? Myth of the blaze, myself I sing:
Now we do most of the killing.
Of such deadly ancestry,
Preceded by mounted police,
Quotations, the resistance,
Survival: Infantry.
Tell the beads of chromosomes
(Like a rosary):
Ultimately, the air
Visits what ends —
You are the last,
The Z.
The word’s been bounced about in gas stations
as you’re pumping way, the spectral drops
on the pavement. You resent it there,
that serpent. The word’s been bellowed
out a bar door flooding with night
after a tab’s been left behind. Who’s
going to pay it now? Beautiful. Just beautiful.
You look away from its flag in your head,
the black stocking flexing out of a car,
a gold chain whipping by, Christmas lights
in April, surface effects, not the real thing.
You want to save it for some special occasion
like the time you had to close the clinic door
on the girl looking in your eyes for hope,
but then you would not dare to think it.
You wax my back and I’ll wax yours.
An itch in thine saves mine.
As the twig is split so the toothpick’s kindling.
A rolling cupboard gathers no moths.
Don’t cook all your eggs in one biscuit.
Let not the black kettle call the white tea pot hot.
Don’t kill the goose that plays the golden shower.
The proof of the prude is in the beating.
Out of sight, never mindless.
Fine feathers make fine feather dusters.
Clothes maketh the bed.
May as well be hung for a sheep as for a coat hanger.
He who lives by the fjord dies by the f’cliché.
Consummatum zest – the soup is finished.
we sit lined
in dim light
our fists
bloodied
from the fight
our hearts
on fire
our failure
smoking still
Where families go to be families, unseen and unseeing
The photograph has all of its teeth,
it’s an elf, a brief elf. The sun makes pale
the over-constructed nose, the wispy hints of vanishings.
It’s an age trap where you look back
and say where did that animal go?
Its tendrilous aspirations and the extra inch of lip.
We pay for it now.
A strange forest goes up and up
and people have not made it to themselves
even after all that running.
The sky has become a pin-prick through the musk
residing over buried enchantments, photographs of air
and the creatures that used to be in them.
OFFER: 3 cans fly spray
assorted videos
Ashbury
Pregnancy test,
Hurlstone Park
WANTED: Road bike
(pref. working condition)
Plaster for mould making
TAKEN: old bamboo
blinds St Peters
OFFER: Assorted shells
(Forest Lodge)
RECEIVED: ping pong table
OFFER: half set vintage
golf bag Darlington
Old Iron Frame Piano
WANTED: Bulky
knitting machine
please (North Rocks)
Trumpet valve oil
TAKEN: toy train
Alexandria
WANTED: garden gnome
piggy bank
Beans for beanbag
TAKEN: DVD cases (empty)
I walk uphill to get groceries.
At the top of the hill, it goes down
and there’s the store in a small valley.
Then I walk back uphill and down, home;
though, sometimes, I have a pot of tea
half-way, when the ground flattens itself.
I see cows on these pleasant journeys;
and I hear birds. I lean on my stick.
I’d like life to go on for ever
as long as it doesn’t change too much
or get busy or run out of tea.
On good days, I go uphill again,
leaving my things to eat behind me.
I go past the store and then uphill
then downhill until the road turns left.
There is a good place to sit near there.
for CAS
Chlorine chances taken
cribside
Bast-thistle rehearse
sable her
since startle
A creel of stars or starts
Begin
marine-smitten and blind
static alba, finial, estuary
his rheumatic
There are traces of coals
in the lymph
Serum against the astrolabe
Scarlatti played his cement rib
instead of her
Inclement, linear
narcotic, terse
collide
Colic the stars
on inert cables
Breath entrained on babel
carnival
brim