In Flight Entertainment

‘no more blues’, that’s not a promise
there’s no traction or policy in the blues

all those bars are too long a cycle
to make for twittering views

no more plaints or graces
no thanks, ‘watch and listen carefully’

enhanced performance, premium economy
‘a loss of consciousness’, ‘oxygen will flow’, ‘settle back’

it’s a field day under the smoky hills

what does my tray table say about me
the colour of my life jacket, indeed, my life

‘woke up this morning’, that line’s been used
an immense dark blue sea nothing like the Pacific

it’s a long way down, it’s a long way home
even the clouds are small

perhaps something scary or precious
will break loose as the screens fall

what if there were no more blues
everything white and cloudy, ’nothing to see here’

does Europe seem safe
there are checks again in the Schengen zone

‘strong margins’, more landings on Lesbos
ancient songs for peace, love, weddings, thanks

‘persons of interest’, abductions
the last Commodore rolls out of the factory

what do you do with your hands
time is pressing, ‘enjoy the service’

‘the cost of complexity’, alive in the aisles
‘full of self belief’, ‘materials handling’

showers in Cape Town, sunny and dry in Lima

your own youtube channel must be full of likes as well as gripes
as the news disappears into itself, by jings it’s hard

but not so hard as no more blues

and there’s New South Wales or whatever it was
or will become, cultivated white squares and a haze

‘being a personal trainer’, ‘a true Aussie lifestyle’
from Port Macquarie to Wagga Wagga

which state would you settle in

‘the Australian dream ticks all the boxes’
welcome to the Gold Coast, five minutes from the beach

no more blues, it’s all white from now on
‘a loss of consciousness’, ‘settle back’ –

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Chronotope Highway

The forgotten allure of conversations inside cars, like fast and furious, but cooler. Your brown dog in his many pantone shades is left behind in Cooranbong where we kill the get directions voice, her indefatigable English accent permanently miffed at being called to account for anywhere. At the petrol stations I feel sleepy like River Pheonix, though when we hit town you crave background noise. You’ve got the pinball hips, as the multiballs rain down, though ordering fish this far inland is a risk. Soon we’re holed up in our executive apartment by the mighty Murrumbidgee, two women enter…Even mum’s sure she’s met this one before, like in that Seinfeld episode when Elaine decides to stay with her ‘bizarro’ friends. Out on the balcony, with a rubber tire ashtray, ugg boots and Suntory the cockatoos are ecstatic. Or we’re having a Sunday roast chicken expertly stuffed up the jacksie. Until the drive home spools on like archival footage, passed the cli-fi of the wind farms and a burger in Gunning.

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snake-well : a suite of wheatlands poems

i.

ash loam and foot flesh
farm-bones and skin maps
pink, grey, graveground,
form-grasses and wavetaints
wellbaked and seed black


ii.

starlows the cropframe
saltcanvas of generation, plateau
waist the size of place


iii.

tigerhand by jokebite, and
fivethink of bootstub
hand-me-down, snow hot
tamarisk, sack-a-flour,
jackgun trapchasm foreign sun
our unsettlement

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The Future Un-imagine

On the run from the W.A. police, her faking German accent
could be someone else: embassies [snapshot] in their circular
drives, late night music. Claus plays haus in Canberra,
surrendering to the domestic obscene. She home hones
in mu-mu when home so foolish, stretches her long legs
to admire shell pink toenails. Claus is punk hausfrau who only
just makes code. Still the morning deflate.
Before this rapid joy in sunglasses, remote mutes happen
in a box. Did you say instant? On the opposite side
of the lounge they have closed the borders to Europe.
Claus works the images, kills the sound. Prone and sensitive
before afternoon soap, that cool ex-wife, next-wife plot
creates such cosmetic intersect. All goes quiet, actors tho’ and
monstrous nobodies. Sound down politesse: each listening
elsewhere. Why we feel torrent almost tolerant. Outside
the wind freshens to mass moist air above the continent.
Though as a rule clouds avoid this place. Elsewhere
is mayhem in what should be Spring. Where’s the hope,
where’s the promise? It’s a disaster end to end, and everyone’s
muscling up, muscling in.
What really interests jostles her. Pause
and stretch: jigs, cutouts cutaways and reveals to that soft
unused skin. Could they be implants? Now she is sell, the soft
sell. How did it go so wrong? Inside the cage, life hardly moves
:toy truck, broken glass, rotten goop that is so sub-urban
:she’s been here long enough waiting at the zoo with the other
animals. Claus remembers the different pleasures of kissing a man
with three days growth and of a woman.
This is big. She feels irresponsible. Forget the future, un-imagine
a past, there is only here Ground Zero where she rents the view.
What did Little Gidding say about ends and beginnings?
The landline rings. Overhead a helicopter hovers, and out on
the street the police negotiator leans over the roof of his car.

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Those Who Want to Fight

Now people are scared to talk about this. People are sleepwalking in peace and love and privilege, and they forget that one morning there were ships in the water and in a jocular fashion the Native people were given axes, blankets and mirrors for their land and then the Black Line came, then Blackbirding. Beards were shaved in a spirit of friendship and commerce and capital punishment. Displaced by war, massive head wounds, fences, Native people kept house, chained to the verandah, learning the new language; accept tobacco and damper for labour, labour for tobacco and damper. Now everyone is sleepwalking in peace and love and privilege, applauding a basic recognition as it slides into place, a final victory; whilst justice waits like a rock in weather, like a word guarded by fire.

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The Last Suburb

Bird has died of fear in her cage
cuttle bone’s harried

her mate’s chattering at his mirror
bashing the bell

our child studies ants migrating for water
she pincers a lagger and licks him all up
follows the rest to their nest with a stick –
it is her nature

they all die so easy
not like us

I’m reading my guts coiled in the usual
usual shapes but casting
a differing inference
and ask

People like us who read things into things,
Who really knows? What the hell?

You’re drinking in the kitchen,
the whites of your eyes roll back
like rearing stallions.

I want to know whose butts are in the yard
seeing we don’t smoke anymore?
Whose butts?

They are burning leaves again, you say.
It’s a kind of meditation
inviting fire or keeping it away
getting rid of the rubbish
is an occupation
for these ends of days –
Dig a hole, I say.

The oil stain in the drive has Rorschach wings.
I scry the bathwater we kept for the plants.
The dog laps at it and growls,
I pull out the plug.

I can read the signs but can’t do anything
about them. The past is here and the future, so
I read the toilet bowl and the dirty
hand basin and the drips from the tap
are very telling
I don’t even need
to really see or listen
as the evidence is here.
Then I flush it away.

An ant holds a bead of water,
his mandibles quiver.

The dog is frothing with snail killer,
next door’s cat shat
in the kid’s sand pit.

The washing stinks— smalls, colours, whites,
delicates soaking, old blood
stains set.

It’s getting hotter and we talk about rain
as if it is the only topic, rain or flood.
What we’d do if we got washed away.

How long we could hold our breath
what we’d grab on to.

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Caesura

My heart, it started ● drives my breath still
sun ends begins
snow-laced mountains edge tomorrow
threadruns through veins ● the cotton or wool of my clothes
and shades of leaves in change

my father’s friends, mother, family have been-gone
knit purl knit purl ● the currawong warbles into the sky
drops, from branch to branch

like the rain that falls from leaf to leaf
It is 1984 forever ● month after year after week fold ● into a caesura

disturb the dusk ● silence the day ● soft like a wolf’s tread ● high the flag flies
is it the cloud that moves ● as wet glistening wires

tram lines
Victorian chimneys grey-net branches
Here, in this room
the Infant of Prague
will swell real tears
Instead, forge playful ● skip on wet-stone ● heaven has retracted its edict ● and heathens
thrive limn this morning frost ● St Kilda road is a stepped skyline ● glyphs along
the margins of the streets ●
The city anaesthetised ● a torn Mobius strip

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(untitled 3)

The throaty oesophageal tissue dislodges as if to say here be
nourishment & battle Keep going & Peer at the womb that
haemorrhages post-coitally Remove the tube & it’s still a sticky
mess So fraught & such Arcadia Didn’t you hear enough of the
brutality Erode your name it doesn’t lift me He outlaw’d coffee
Tore the stitches out with his tongue Rampant bills fettered Tear
my hair out All wanton debris Part-time venom surges at the
brunt of attack Move toward praxis and away again I have
outlived usefulness The utter stirring of cheerful standards
Renders us human Place the realm of agency into the volta
Unthinkable: the way you held me in your contract These days
we don’t even take our clothes off A million practices beholden
Textures of disobedience & textures of entry I am thinking of a
hiatal place: a rupture Remember child: he’s just a boy Just a
human boy He fills up & empties out same as all of us

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(untitled 1)

& here have arrived the days of Hillary Clinton quizzed over Benghazi attacks Count the marriage lines Each regrettable error Too polite for the Semester to end this way This devastating Man at your knees humour Rouse suspicions with a round of bellicose Avant garde: the state I’m in

Whoever left love unscarred never left Redressing the bodies of the dead How fevers derived from the architecture of moods Marshal in remission lasting between one day & six months This pilfering & endlessly astray body Every arrangement is happening except serological work: the

gamma globulin series The human experiments occupying lung space Stop writing about wombs you sick fuck We know you’ve got to live & the Eulogists will look for signs that just one more assault is good for the elegy I’m here for the home stretch This patch of mottled skin enjambed internally We

have to be quick & sequential So you are faced with dying & nobody is intervening Who siphoned all the serotonin Left wondering if this cognitive dysfunction is part of it too It requires some pressure to remain coping & often I mother the children in a way that implies I’ve just found them under my

care: Undifferentiated Absence within us Multi-sensory the spectrum we use for the invulnerability of love Put the burn on me You don’t need to attack me Vulgar lover the would-be long night Lolling head & mouth & No seam between To feel a surge of pride Are we boycotting

countries or just too poor to travel Deforested & corroded : here in these spaces New password new password hello Dorothy 25% off winter & my heart is a layaway Off to Parson’s green for an amuse bouche or two Rewards for the latest bloods Such a racket being here with my scribbles There’s a

new ecosystem growing in Just you wait until your funeral I say & we laugh : sure sure of the refusal of aftermath Shut up & consider hieroglyphs & wait in case the antidote is digitalised I didn’t think the girl could be so cruel: there’s an almost hospital level sanitary nature to her

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(untitled 2)

I am finished with beauty & money Close the gap between us which is imaginary but nonetheless I’ll put your position into my poem: Luton Premier Inn with temporomandibular jaw I may never share my google calendar again The scars within him are much more frightening than the scars on his body There’s a hint of superiority Being Alive Staying Alive Strangled into Being If we break-down the ethics of listening Surrender bloated poems Loving you until there is no cartilage left Can’t quite look at men my own age yet w/ their cumbersome flirting My working hand writes this poem & calls out to the complexities of entanglement What has happened to you is everywhere on the lips of strangers tiresomely & I’m never sure if they are talking about my faith or my body But at least the body can count metrics & clean up its act Who knows where we might turn in negation The war in my body has something to do with this entourage of medics who are past caring Put this in your mouth Use this for your impulse Put this slantwise


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(iii) after Sherry Turkle + John Cage

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After the Orgy

i is an / ugh it’s an ignoramus
jamais jamais u say / or maybe nether nether
its inland sequel is counting on this Eur
optic allusion to echo it &/ or braise it w/
outsourcery in terror pots of ennui & rain
flowers overtly peer out
no less ensorcelled than stoner food
so naturally some cat

whose deputy moi disappoints
is appointed montage
& the relevant delusion is a man w/ money
& ici an aussi trysting the rules
that like a tonne of organic eclairs
drape a new noir across the Bois-like lures
i’ll pass on the pas des deux thanx
get to the point

that our swords had a tang & whereas o
& u caressed me w/ red tape
worms castigated
our puerile & futile violence toward the budding
bourgy eggheads burgeoned & now
log on to download God from the bots
i dance on the verge of & purity deserts
time lore & legislation

deploying a Leunig moon
night unshackles
dense with chaos & glass above the hotel’s pole
fat spleen bats careen about
a party rented out by a billion celebs
channelled through cathodes to audit each
Everest movie premiere in which Madame
XXX turns tables on a P&O

coming down from the Alps i clock out
from the party but land on its feet & like another
glib latency we did
pirouettes for cock & held a tournament
our comprehension of bras was
so hammed up a unicorn in denial of plaques
flogged the place & although rustling
infants regarded this

mauve imagery as a great maze of in vitro
in a coruscating vein today
fumes w/ magazines that mate
& guesstimate like machine guns as to why why
why do bats on castor
sugar always sing in technicolour
a cirque de slander let’s elope
my funnel webs my blemishes

we’ll sing chez Bluebeard’s at the abbatoirs
taking pot-shots at Targét
at the haughty few who suck back the gravity
of long tirades & bark in voices
our settler mess ruing the grand
spent at the sales
where flowers retrograde queerly
mercurially déjà

voodoo & u who peer at my cash my
precious poor lark’ll hit the ceiling we’ll traverse
toilets dissing the clock
wise anti-delirium & go back
Down Under where the rest sank Freud
après the ludic deluge
ici aussi
totes


(‘After the Orgy’ is an inversion of Rimbaud’s Après le Déluge)

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Put Your Helmet On

get your chewing Gum. get Time like a Man in a tin
Frock. in the Field, the naked Butterfly is fending off
the Microscope. a giant Sunflower is roaring Seeds at
the Enemy. it’s Autumn, and the carrot Pickers bend
over. I’ve a Sip of old Religion and it tastes like Paint
Everything is being sucked in. the Apocalypse will be
blue and yellow with a bottled Accent. Years on the
debating Team funnelled into a shouting Match with a
Machine. the Nuns admire my bolt Cutters, the Goats
my Boxers. We had stolen Something, it was the
Anniversary. We had our gold Gloves on, and a hotted
up Wheelbarrow. it was Then or Now. it was There or
Nowhere. it was listen like a Wattle or talk like a Sap
the Ferry the first Conveyance, where We lost a Body or
Two. curious, the English spoken on It. Tourists
Observers of Penguins. Suits worn to genet Plays speak
of going over a Hill, and finding one Tree. There was a
lot of Desert to fang across. Bikes, Dust, Letters from
Doters. They were Poetry, but I had to find … You’d
driven here in a State of Loveliness, but were then
advised of Infidelity, Treason, Infanticide and the
Shooting of a Horse. of a great many dishonourable
Fights. a Silo suffered, some wild Girls started a Ranch
Someone else wanted to go Home. mow the Lawn to
Kingdom come, You thought. the Turkey in the trinket
Shop gobbled under its Breath. We were starting to
situate Ourselves on the Show. I had Walnuts to pelt or
nibble. there were four drag Queens sitting on my Chest
not my Idea of Heaven either. yet We were slowly
annexing History, converging on the peppercorn
Grove that marked the Spot. the Patterning was enlarging
there were no major Poems on Dolphins as far as We
could tell, but with our Teeth in our Ears to stop the
Tears, We weren’t the best Judges. We tried pouring
cheap Plonk on the Soil. We set up Camp. We tried to
read the Grass and our Stock tried to eat it. the Ride was
slow and dangerous. You took your Frock off and I tried
to like You out of it. You ate Mushrooms out of the
Ground now We had fallen in Love: it was Summer. We
had reverted to Diesel; We wrote up Suicides as Cases
and found Everyone living shallow. there were three
drag Queens sitting on my Chest, and Everything an
Oyster or Chisel. the Bus wouldn’t start, there was Beer
and Donuts on the Floor, which wasn’t the best Policy
the Paintings told me More than your Dreams ever did
your Painting of the dead Neighbour, your Painting of
the polar Bear with scared Eyes. a Spanner came in handy
at the Gates. She did not have all her Arm, and the Rocks
hid potential Mercenaries, Windfallers and bull Ants of
the human Type. it had not rained for ninety-eight Days
this was on the Outside. We began to trust those We
knew from the bowling Alleys. We began to talk Tactics
Ideas, ‘What we wanted’. We agreed it was the long
Game. We wanted to still be there in the Morning. I
sewed a Pocket on your Shirt and took ten per cent of
Everything that You put in it. I wrote a Book about lou Reed
to keep me occupied on Lookout. I had been given a lot
of Information about lou Reed from an indiscreet
Source. my Agent suggested We call it a Novel and
change the Name to michael Stipe. I remembered
michael Stipe eating beer-soaked Donuts off a bus
Floor with two drag Queens on his Back. We posed as
Couriers. We drove the whole Way with our Eyes on the
Road. We failed to see the hitching Skeleton. We saw no
wind Farms of chivalric Beauty. We licked the Lizards
and went on, bad Memories of bad Furniture and give
way Signs. Everything within the World is round: every
Move is a Turn. I know that cricket Ground, that rodeo
Site, those lovely tan and white Kangaroos (part Dingo)
the Tank is leaking, We’ll be ill for Days. stay in the Air
as long as You can. burn a grass Circle around You. put
your best Eggs in the Pine. some Parts of my Brain that I
wouldn’t miss. What would You do if your Mother
married a police Inspector when You were just coming
into your Delinquency? declaim Modernists on the
Beach I suppose: to the Lighthouse a Plum, a black
Bough. but We are Nowhere yet, as long as We can see
Houses, Cars. I think about the town Option, as two
Ducks stripe my Vision. yet I know the Hut burnt down
before I was born, don’t I? We have Bases all over the
State. I think of going Somewhere with a Mob, merging
into it: think of hiding under Wildflowers, or using
Bellbirds to tune into the Bush. These are the Uses of
Poetry. it makes You warm, it replaces Cinema, it helps
You put Words between Self and Heart. there’s no
original Poem, it’s all Sequel as far back as We can
remember. We embrace this, for the Loneliness is hard
Enough. the Souls of our Cats power the Gloveboxes
the Souls of our Dogs the Guidebooks. our Vehicles
and Minds are parallel Worlds where the Dead live
You’re bent over at the Creek, pretending to pick
Blackberries but crying. the Radio is pumping ‘Gold’
I can’t help thinking of morning Tea and the Rations
and putting my Frypan in a Mynah’s flight Path, but
instead retrieve the Tofu from the Boot. You make
savoury Lamingtons using Miso and I feel Time go back
or sideways like an elbowed Head. We recede North
making Strudel while driving. the onion Vines thicken
their Bulbs whack against the Windshield. it’s a
Sanctuary of sorts, but so many Escapees, Manatees and
Derros live here, It can also be a bit hairy. palm Readers
yell our Fortunes at Us but We only show them the
Backs of our Hands. We’re only an Etching we yell back
an Etching of multiple Jeans and fluffy Jackets. We’re
Metaphors, Messengers, Hieroglyphs. though We might
bring or mean Nothing but Damage, it’s not Something
We’d give up to Anyone differently iffy. those still wearing
their full ethical banana Skin like They’re god’s
Breakfast can implode on their own. let’s see Who
dissolves if it ever rains, Who breaks up first if it
hurricanes. weather or be weathered. the Stars are not a
Target. if We yearn it’s for the tomato Fields We were
born in. a Cup of Surf and a kelp Biscuit. ave Tarantula
sitting on the Shells that They paid Us. when We get
cracking We’re like a six-legged crow Race: two Feet
on Salt, two more on Glass and two on Sandpaper. a drag
queen Skull in our Lapel for Luck. Lice our Jockeys

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Traces 6: Quality time

I spent quality time after her memorial
reinventing banalities.

The absoluteness of her being
here, then ™Photoshopped out.

What is it that anyone
remembers? Most of the speakers

were not and could not be
eloquent. Everyone nibbled

at the borders of her life
and of the unspoken.

Nothing scandalous–just
you can’t articulate it, any

of it, either in part
or as a whole.

Of course, memory itself
is one culprit: iterations,

inventions, re-castings, thoughts
escaped, home movies, rifts,

pretensions, chains, scraps of fabric
and frozen evanescence.

Did you so believe in soul?
I didn’t know! I thought the word was odd—.

Someone stripped away the black
of the beleaguered words,

to reveal the shadows
beneath their nakedness.

The heavy doors of travel
pivoted on hinges and turning points.

Sometimes hinges make a sound
like vermin. The mist

between landmarks encouraged earworms.
A Chopin étude, caught in a loop

and never resolved.
Or the “Chiquita banana” ditty,

pert, didactic, unforgettable,
a Potemkin village of kitchen pleasantries,

stereotypes and housewife-ry
under which tentacles

of collusion, massacre, preferential
access, policed economies,

and paramilitary activities
far away from home.

You can see right away there are
two stories—the palpable, but insignificant
and the hidden, real enough but all obscured.
What? That number is patently
ridiculous. Two says nothing. It’s wrong already.
It’s certainly simultaneous conflicting,
overloaded presences of “story,” crossroads, the honey of personal life,
one tiny part of a well-built honeycomb,
done beautifully, with compassion,
sweetness, and the rocks onto which
some jump or fall–all that
narrates nothing, all that loses everything,
though a number like two or three might do to symbolize this
so long as one doesn’t forget intricacy and the networks
of collusion, themselves limiting us to the
binary, the trifecta, the 4 cardinal points of mists
neatening or sweetening all of it, the lot.

Time’s pale light upon the trees blinded the viewer
as the rushing stream rushed on.

Of course we spoke
awkwardly, a translation

without an original.
How could we have not?

2.

The poem, unwritten, is concealed by the poem, written.
It’s kind of a disgrace.
There is a lot of blank paper in this notebook.
Perhaps it should be left there, empty.
Time is gone, emphatically lost.
Its feeling tone
persists.

That’s what you say
because you want to say it–but
does it really?

Perhaps there is no choice.
This unwritten–reliably as
a force that unwrites itself–
creates spray and backwash,
recriminations in the holes and crevices
that fill, some seasons,
with the powerfully dangerous tide
of what some person meant to do
and did
not.

Especially sediments of unfinished
stories, eroded stories–

Any solid page of print
is a bluff–or I guess, that
is art.

It should truly be full of
ripped paper, holes,
elisions, burns
white spaces
and actually

emptiness.

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Lovestore

To request the presence or attendance of
to wish, long (to be, have, do)
to ‘toe a line,’ meaning stand in a row

Of things: to require, need, demand
a vehement pang, eyther of bodie or mynde
zealous pursuit of paltrie trash
a fit, outburst or state
marked by or of strong excitement

Amorous impulses, lewd behaviour (obs.)
senses relating to passivity and activity
the affections of tropes and intimate apparel
limping made unconditional

Thy darling sin which to enjoy thou couldst
resist all others (at least thou thinkest so)
frigidity, the proper passion of water,
sometime accidentally hot

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Whatever

dictate your every word, you bright nymphs
mistake the possible. Thank you for the plangent
note, the sacrifices that were not at all intended
as an offering. The snare you prepared with the guile
of an anxious siren. If I was ungrateful, I was startle-
hitched. If I tried to be direct, or refused
to condemn, there was something knowledgeable.
Here we mistook the gun who was neither bodyguard
nor the decent acquisition of lymph-yielding limbs.
The rustic incursions of cellophane lips. There is nothing
in you that is not interrupted by flow in the opposite direction.
The capacity of an imperium is the power to command
but how can ridicule sustain this kind of asymmetry?
Why would I erase you when one fatal day I might find you
in your own dress? What more could I have to say to you
that is not a swarm of twentieth century cavalcade?
To pluralise one’s contractions with an apostrophe is a sign
of trustworthiness, the formal vanity of the tuxedoed
vernacular. Everything that is hidden becomes crucial.
So why do things light up when you go away, but go away
when you come near? I fear I must keep you with me at all
times, without knowing what this might suggest. The radical
social and cultural delinquency of thought shivvies,
asks ‘what if you are the envoy of smaller things?’
The problem is: you are prose and I am lacking a differential
topology of holes. Shooting out radicle sense-organs causes
arctic overload, you split into non-commodifiable units of
paraphrase. If you think of me at all it is to replicate
my need, harvested from the vertical Norwegian glassfields.
Everything I see and hear reminds me of you. Vegetables
left to rot in the car overnight, the boisterous dysrhythmia
of hunger. Extension du domaine de la lutte. Melodies
of songs that you wrote but never listened to. Tagging
the Elwood estuaries with a bag full of poppies, eating Pho
in a Vietnamese diner. Choosing between pale ale and desire.
Is this our ruination in reverse? We are carbon neutral,
paid-up members of the union at the end of history.
We are kosher. We are sweet. We are all doors open
for business. I see nothing in your eyes but pure belonging.
For those who have nothing it is forbidden not to relish filth.
Like a man who has seen too much, I am tamed in the snare
of an earlier desire. We are dreaming in tandem now,
in this life that is not a dream. Not fearful but minuscule, Decisive.

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Nuit

even though the new specs made nuit jus a shadow of her former featherd self at least she no longer had to squint n fidget like a fruit bat at the regi swipin the organic as hell hand creams (which smelt of sex she thought) the pricey ones at the supermarket the one next to saint francis reserve where she’d sit quiet at lunchtimes under the pohutukawa in the days after she bartered her wings away for a pair of ray bans which she was told was the cream of the crop for her ruru riches her featherd furies pearls soft as oysters moist wit rain which would jus shake off wit a shake and she could shake fury from da sky she could and cos wing amputation was quite the surgical procedure afterwards a nice nurse took a polaroid of her damsel scar now retrospective in a snap (six hundred stitches swollen n swabbed) then gave her a back rub till nuit finally let go of all that she owned till the prospect of returning to her job pleased her untold (now that she cud see proper all fixed up wit her new ray bans) which woulda took a load off if it werent for the back pain the gap left pulsin like a secondary artery between her shoulder blades drawing horizons of weepin stars which’d never set which would constantly remind her of her loss her sense of deficiency and whenever a customer came up to the counter wit a pair of their own (synthetic whatever) on their shirts skins or simply silver round their necks she’d tell em of the other wings she’d seen (2 so far this mornin) along wit the myths n legends dat came wit it and all this kinda banter bout wings wit customers helpt her breathe away the dull aches her headaches and lopsidedness and helpt her breathe at the end of the day breath was all she ever had she thought it’d be all she’d ever own so she’d feel grateful for the next

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Wasted

the toppled woods were beautiful –
palm needles, car tires, bark and heat.
ash-plumes tickling the armpit
of sky, cloud ribboned like
cassette tape. we found Ozymandias
submerged in a century of polymers,
the gadgetry of bored children –
playstations, waterguns, ancient tvs.
the trash-amphitheatre sprawled like
a city before us. we took tiny breaths,
coughing up treacles as we spoke
bilingual tongues of ghetto and dirt.
later, we lay on sheet-metal counting
space-junk and satellites, and yes,
the toppled woods were beautiful
but we were not crying. acid rain
tiptoed down our faces like falling stars.

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The First Moments of His Absence:

A radio tuned to static after Mahler.

A curtain opened to a suddenly blank scenery.

The remaining stalk after the dandelion blow.

The thick silence after a confession.

A vital wire removed pre-explosion.

The hollow letterbox: a cubic sneer.

Eighty-eight keys, unstruck.

The suspended anchor of a stationary ship.

A dust cloak over a piano, still reverberating.

The unsaid thing: a moaning ghost.

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long cold light
straight into eyes—
stand and face
bright blue

the star keeps us here
without it
we are nothing

winter sun is
so remote
as we spin
through darkness

there are things
I have never thought
seen, heard
felt

when they come
they change me—
you bring
these things and I also go
to them
by chance I find

the first time but
not the only time

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In the Meantime

In the meantime, by which I mean the time
that is mean which is all time, really – either
you want it to stop and keep you suspended
in an endless state of ecstasy, or
you want it to hurry up
and get you past the kind of suffering
that’s made worse by thinking – a vicious cycle
in which you become convinced
that your god-like genius can solve any issue
as if life were a Rubik’s Cube or a game of Lemmings –
I’ve heard it said the most important lessons
are those you need to learn and relearn and relearn
perpetually which is why I keep falling
for assholes I guess and although John Lennon
insists that war is over if you want it
I enjoy fighting more than I’m prepared to admit –
like that time when you called me fat
and I called you a hypocritical old pig
and your face broke open into sudden bliss:
A girlfriend, a real girlfriend I can fight with!
as I stood with my suitcase half-packed
dinner half-cooked in your kitchen
rage like smoke from a saucepan boiled dry
not knowing whether to punch or kiss you
which is to say I miss you; our time together
like burning magnesium – gone in a white flash.

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Pilgrim

Too funicular for me.
Those informers to whom I’m betrothed are so
mountain galore that what comes after their chicken run
is anyone’s guess. Not edification in the Ways
& Means of Malice that’s a certainty. O clutter
of Glockenspiel, may the one who excels beyond
all measure be measured, down a peg or two, say to
4am, too early for gamut, for Gospel to lead
with that proverbial left. Should I, in this the fifth
& final year of my notorious conviviality,
relish myself with money? How much against
the pugnacious would that set me? Ah, those
dark days in Peshawar, who would have thought
I’d be praised for health decoration: May no frenzy
visit Thee
. In unison, yes, they all said it, gathered around
my stinking bed in dead of night. And No, your request
for sanctuary has been denied. So no problem
if I keep shaving with this rusty cutthroat? Mission
statement: clean face makes clean mind. Mind
my p’s & q’s & I’ll be mountain galore, yes? It’s
palpable the No they unison, backing away
from my cutthroat. Has it always been like this, these
in-the dead-of-night-visitors in their grass skirts like cops
in some never-never land harassing poor me? What
has history done to my body, that’s what I’d like to know.
It should never have been this mouth-to-mouth nothing
with much negative about my hearing. Should never have been
a throat with wire, the one who tried to whisper English, yours
truly, who chose to have his noise absorbed by those
who wandered in & saw undressed the great plenty
I might have been, might still be, that pilgrimage
to the tomb of Il Duce still possible, thereat to wax
lyrical, candied, anointed, lubricated, decked out
in latest design flak jacket, bowler hat & spats, offering
myself to the first psychopomp who has the wit
to trump me, trompe l’oeil, trot-it-out-let’s-see
what-you-got, etc. Is it time to swoon? I hope so,
my feet are killing me, grammarians on my back about
my stumblebum meter or lack thereof. Reduced
to a crawl, Il Duce looking down from on high.
Too funicular for me.

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how many more are coming

a darkly troubled man with manners which white brothers found impossible to put up with
– The Bulletin’s obituary for Jack Marsh


hewitt & jones
were charged
& found not guilty

an eyewitness claimed
they jumped jack marsh
outside the pool room

of the royal hotel
(though the eyewitness
refused to come forward

during the trial)
marsh was dragged across
the road

& left against a tree
in robinson park
his last words

“how many more are coming”
called for chucking
after bowling victor trumper

for one marsh continued
to bowl with his elbow
plastered to prove it didn’t

extend during delivery
the english refused to face
him – too fast

or too black
equalled the world record
for 100 yards

but no records
were kept of a bundjalung man
who no one could beat


DEATH OF JACK MARSH.
ORANGE, Sunday.
At the inquest into the cause of the death of Jack Marsh, a one time champion runner and fast bowler,
who died on Friday evening May 26, the coroner found that Marsh was killed, and committed John Henry
Hewitt,bookmaker, and Walter Stone, bookmaker’s clerk, who had been charged with feloniously killing
Marsh, to stand their trial at the next Orange Quarter Sessions. SMH Monday June 5th 1916.

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takk for alt

they line up neatly

like a class best behaved
no whispering today

there’s a view of the sea
earshot of the factory

the road lies still
the fjord is still
are two stillnesses the same?

*

not every Hardanger gravestone says
but it’s the most common thing carved

thanks for everything
is the loose translation

for what is it thanks can be given?

*

tell me the sky – how it is, one more time
tell me the stream’s strong words
say after me
what I have meant
you know the things to do
they’re day-by-day
known to season

there is the need for a fresh coat of paint
remember to bring in the washing, the cat
(how many cats ago was that?)
and haul the boat before the storm

end of the day know all is done

du lever i vart minne
still living in our memories

høyt var du elsket
you much loved

there’s thanks for being dead as well
for getting out of the way
(no one puts that on a stone)

*

stand longer in my silence here
for it is love to stand

go with the mountain in my boots
because you have a touch of sky

the colour goes out of it
sky down and earth up
everything tending to night

*

here turf is weather
and weather’s a roof
my day and my night one

all are bones
clean as the dark to which we whistle
or else I’ll be damned

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