Owen Bullock Reviews Rachel Blau DuPlessis

Days and Works by Rachel Blau DuPlessis
Ahsahta Press, 2017


The title of Rachel Blau DuPlessis’s new book is a reversal of Hesiod’s Works and Days, which introduced the character of Pandora to the world. At the front of the book, before even the title page, is the statement ‘We are living in late catapultism’. The paraphrasing of Frederic Jameson immediately locates DuPlessis’ work as a postmodern artefact. It’s a fun bit of word play, and I hope to find out more about catapultism and the role it plays in the book. On the opposing page, another introductory fragment refers to uncanniness and then breaks the word ‘uncanni-/ness’ as if to emphasise its meaninglessness (especially since canny and uncanny are one of those strange pairings that can have the same meaning). Except for more of the uncanny, only ephemera can answer uncanniness, the text suggests – an overtly postmodern perspective (which celebrates the fragment rather than decrying, as did the Romantics, its implied loss). The text further sets up its preoccupations with the use of epigrams from Gertrude Stein and DuPlessis herself. They refer to the problem of how to speak when so much needs to be said – which is such a problem that the newspaper seems the best form – and of what can be real within so much diversity. These multiple references, in common with many other works from writers as diverse as T.S. Eliot and Leslie Scalapino, suggest the collage as vehicle.

Days and Works responds to these concerns in various forms, using prose and lineated sections, mostly without titles, in one long work. It was written during a single month when DuPlessis was resident in the Artist Program of the Djerassi Foundation in California. Newspaper clippings pop up with regularity, alongside concerns about the form of the book. The text begins with the topic of the origin of life, with a newspaper snippet about neutrinos and beside it, in lineated form, DuPlessis’s own response about ‘5 kinds of sex’, ending in some nonsense words. One creature’s excreta is another’s nutrition, and all is an ‘attempt at / sustained / resonance.’ The first full-page lineated poem begins with the line, ‘Swamp walk by the ocean’, suggesting an earlier point of evolution as well as its ongoing sense. Ending with the lovely, Joycean hybrid ‘Pentacoast’, it asserts an ecological rather than religious explanation for existence.

Blau DuPlessis follows this with a justification for writing bound up with desire and the philosophy of language use, outlined in ways reminiscent of a number of writers from Beckett onwards. This problem ends with her question: ‘How can so many things occupy the same space?’, which, I suppose, prompts further questions around how and when things do occupy the same space. I seem to remember distant philosophical arguments that part of what defines objects is their mutual exclusivity in terms of space, yet dual occupation is not only possible but has been observed scientifically as a living paradox. A poem about a dream concerns a walk on Rangitoto just off the coast of Auckland. It ends with the intriguing line ‘I was walking into time’. It is resonant for me having recently visited the island, where the evidence of frozen lava fields suggests that the past is indeed extraordinarily present.

The voice of the text comments self-consciously: ‘It named erasure and coping and performed that.’ It asks, ‘Is this a scrapbook?’, confirming collage as vehicle, with an attendant sense of incompleteness and contingency. Unfortunately, some of the prose doesn’t attempt to weed out cliché, as if that is another found element. It would be difficult to describe much of the prose as prose poetry, since it generally lacks use of poetic idiom. Some of the interjections are worrying, such as ‘And it takes so long even to write bad poems’, as if the text has given up on that enterprise; or, ‘why did he think she was producing gibberish / when she was only working a level of language’, which sounds like an excuse for writing ineffectively. Days and Works certainly doesn’t have the poetic drive of, say, Claudia Rankine’s recent works, despite some similarities in the fusion of poetry and nonfiction, and I suspect it doesn’t want to have. It raises the question, can a text (which is advertised as poetry – the publisher refers to the book as ‘a mini-encyclopedic poem on an intimate scale’) be unpoetic or pragmatic and get away with it?

But that doesn’t mean the text is without charm, aesthetic phrases or poetic ideas, such as ‘I’ve got to get out of this year.’ Statements like ‘So what if I am having an aesthetic crisis’ are not accompanied by any kind of poetic dramatisation or depiction of such a crisis. But they give a relaxed and easy tone and the feeling that one is reading a kind of diary as much as a scrapbook. And I’m very happy reading diaries by poets. They are often poetic. For now, I’ll put aside thinking about labels which assert whether the text is itself ‘poetry’. Phrases like ‘biscuit conditional’ and ‘sidereal time’, and paragrams like ‘googol’ keep me interested at the level of the poetic. The prose beginning, ‘The page was shadowed by stars’ offers rather more than most. It is oddly confessional, but of the mind and its philosophical questioning, rather than embodied experience. The book is often comprised of philosophical musing, sometimes with arguments trailing away, and not really engaging as arguments, for example, in the reference to children dying from gun violence. In fact, the prose asks a great many questions. It would be more original if now and again there was also an attempt to answer some of them. Perhaps the text asserts that the questions are not answerable, but the trope becomes somewhat monotonous.

The publisher blurb asserts this is a political book. (The book came with no press release, but the website outlines its strategies.) Despite a number of allusions to what might be termed political issues, I didn’t really feel this was the case. At least not until the two newspaper excerpts concerning police brutality. (The story of water contamination highlighted on p. 53 also gets across a powerful message.) The reproductions of clippings about this issue seemed to constitute a protest, in the same way that videoing acts of police violence does, and acts as a moral statement even where the video is technically illegal: it champions the moral duty of citizens to sometimes defy such a law.

Method is important to DuPlessis. One of the lineated poems offers an explanation for method when it declares:

I want to know which is margin, which is text,
which is writing, which is gloss
and I won’t


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Joan Fleming Reviews Fiona Hile and Luke Beesley


Subtraction by Fiona Hile
Vagabond Press, 2018

Aqua Spinach by Luke Beesley
Giramondo, 2018


Two very recent books by two mid-career Melbourne poets offer distinct intellectual gymnasiums in which to lift and push and run and sweat. I may not have been able to master these books, but they knocked the breath out of me.

Fiona Hile’s second collection, Subtraction is not poetry for the uninitiated. It is sophisticated and, honestly, inscrutable. In an interview with Sandra D’Urso, Hile saysid she sometimes makesde poems by stripping down chapters of a novel-in-progress. And, indeed, the poems do read as something like the opposite of story. Could it be this process of radical redaction (subtraction) to which the title, at least partially, refers?

It could be said tThe poems reject narrative and lyric conventions: the conventions of establishing context, positioning speakers or agents, and crystallising experiences. However, they feel instead as if they are generated in a world quite apart from such considerations. And I must talk about the ‘feel’ of these poems, because, at least at first, I was slipping off their surface like a novice climber on a slick slope. I admit, I did at some early point think: I don’t think I can review this book – not because I didn’t like it, but because I couldn’t understand it. However, unwilling to abort the mission, and more and more disinvested in the notion of expertise and mastery besides, I kept on. Those readers who managed higher than a B in their post-grad continental philosophy coursework may have an easier or more satisfying time intuiting the poems’ implicit philosophical preoccupations, but I must meet them on the level of affect and feeling.

And how do these poems feel? They are gloomy. They vibrate with dissatisfaction. They joke. They bite. They are baroque and insatiable. They torrent. They hold themselves in utter balance.

I want to say something about how the lines work. Staying mostly faithful to the syntax of the sentence, the poems pile vivid arrows of declarations and questions and conjoined imageries upon each other, and they all point in different directions. The poem ‘Aubade’ features a ‘bedside colander’, a ‘hatful of hollows’, ‘Two handfuls of sunrise’, ‘a fake hostage video’, screams, love, money, and choice – and that’s only the first quintet.

At times the poems display something like a warped Whitmanian impulse to radical inclusion: quadruple-visioned, and buzzing with the tension of opposites. The poem ‘Song for an Indifferent Italian,’ ends thus: ‘A wall of windows irrigated / by flights of sluggish moths, whirring in the chest of the / Moreton Bay Fig. An electrified bolt splitting the carapace, / plastic flowers strewing the dashboard, longish knuckles / ructioning the parquetry, the top half of a terrace / with its affordable glimpse of the harbour, her collection of nice / looking but impractically small suitcases’. At times the poems display something like a warped Whitmanian impulse to radical inclusion: quadruple-visioned, and buzzing with the tension of opposites.

How are these poems made, then? Why these choices? Why this particular almost-overflow of taut, utterly specific, yet seemingly unanchored private thought-cogs? What does this machine do?! The poems are embedded with clues as to how to read them. One poem asks, as I do:

What is Form                    and                    Why is this happening?

The later lines suggest a slant answer: ‘the poem is a container for the formless horror of your eyes as emotion … representation of the poem as a container for the formless.’ However, these lines are not fair or typical examples of Hile’s brilliant wordplay. Better to cite a line like: ‘The curlicue scent has not the mother in it.’ Just, wow. Or her reappropriation of sistine as a verb, as in: ‘I thought I saw you sistine through / the overstimulated waters of our local / swimming pool.’ See what I mean about her being funny? She is funny.

One penetrable theme of Subtraction is a continuum between love, domesticity, womanhood, and compromise. ‘My Views’ is one of the poems that announces itself as an intensive emotional self-portrait, and could be read in light of female experiences of domestic self-erasure. The poem ends with a quotation from Theodor Adorno’s Aesthetic Theory: ‘Something frightening lurks in the song of birds’. What Adorno goes on to say, which Hile does not quote, is:The rest of the quotation reads, ‘… precisely because it is not a song but obeys the spell in which it is enmeshed.’ Women’s submission to the definitions of the male imagination, ideas of shape-shifting and being constrained, and the questioning of one’s own existence (‘Did you ever have a name? / It’s lost … You were designed to reflect’) preoccupy the collection’s later poems.

So, this is how I have steeped my brain in this collection. I now sense that these poems are not only inscrutable – not merely inscrutable – to the reader, but also to themselves. By which I mean, these are poems both somehow engorged and starving, starving for answers, and yet replete with their own restlessness, their own unanswerability. This is an amazing book.

Luke Beesley’s third collection Aqua Spinach is similarly restless, and similarly challenging. Although the character and feeling of Beesley’s work is distinct from Hile’s, both of these difficult, anti-lyric collections challenge the reader to disrupt her mind’s habitual grasping for logic, narrative, and cohesion. Further, both books are self-consciously intertextual. The poets employ allusion and use opaque strategies of collage as engines of composition. Hile’s influences and allusions may be more seamlessly folded into the fabric of the poems. However, she, too is liable to name-drop. Euclid, Jean Racine, and Kierkegaard (referred to, with causal intimacy, as K.) appear alongside Dolly Parton and Mr Softy, the American ice cream truck mascot. Both books claim access to and make use of the consolations and repulsions of both high and low culture.

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Winnie Siulolovao Dunn Reviews Tayi Tibble

Pokūahangatus by Tayi Tibble
Victoria University Press, 2018


Against the Whiteness of settler-colonial Aotearoa history, Tayi Tibble brings from margin to centre, her Indigenous experience as a Te Whānau ā Apanui / Ngāti Porou woman. Pokūahangatus is her debut poetry collection, which explores the violence of settler-colonialism against the imagery of pop culture, Māori activism and the strength and sensuality of Brown women. As Tongan, Palangi (Palagi) and Samoan poet Karlo Mila wrote in her PhD thesis, ‘Polycultural Capital and the Pasifika Second Generation: Negotiating Identities in Diasporic Spaces’, Tibble’s poetry reveals how ‘culture, ethnicity and identity signal the complexities of lived experience[s]’ for Indigenous and Pasifika folk. Pokūahangatus chronicles the struggles of being Māori and woman in a colonised land. By sharing this lived experience, Tibble aims to write beyond and despite marginalising stereotypes that deeply affect herself and her communities. Her work reveals authentic and creative representations of what it means to be a strong young Māori woman.

As a mixed Tongan-Australian woman from Mount Druitt, Western Sydney, born the same year as Tibble (1995), I resonate deeply with her poetry. Pokūahangatus is a fictional, hybridised Māori word paying tribute to Pocahontas of the Powhatan tribe. The title itself is poetry allowing for broader discussions of cross-Indigenous solidarity. A chance to understand each other. Therefore, it is no coincidence that the opening poem, ‘Pokūahangatus: An Essay about Indigenous Hair Dos and Don’ts’ begins with oral storytelling:

[G]reat-grandmother on her bed, cutting the thick peppery plait falling down her back with a blunt pair of orange-handled scissors. Remember the resistance. Imagine if the ropes of Māui had snapped and the world had been plunged back into the womb of darkness.

By speaking the whakapapa – the genealogy of Māori ancestry – as the opening for her collection, Tibble reshapes and reclaims her colonised land.

It is then that the Māori women flood in and rightly take up space. The poem, ‘In the 1960s an Influx of Māori Women’, outlines the intimate domestic experiences of young Indigenous women who wear ‘printed mini dresses’, buy ‘vodka and dirty magazines’, who get their hair fixed straight at ‘Lambton Quay’ and ‘[t]hink about drowning themselves in the bathtub’ only to ‘[r]esurface with clean skin’ then ‘rinse and repeat.’ Tibble’s poetry shows the complex lives of Māori women who struggle with and resist the tools of colonial power such as fashion, print culture and alcohol. Their rising up with clean skin is an act of constant resistance, an act of sovereignty. It is the intricate politics woven into Tibble’s collection, which gives her writing strength and purpose.

But what does it mean to grow up Indigenous in the twenty-first century? For Tibble, growing up Māori in this day and age means navigating difficult family relations, understanding the allure of sex and dating, and feeling the whakamā – the shame and the aroha – the love. Her poem ‘Scabbing’ encapsulates all these experiences with phresh images, vernacular and tone. The narrator remembers regretting breaking up with her twelvie ex-boyfriend who, ‘makes $50 scabbing schoolkids for a dollar’ and to ‘make matters worse he’s a proper rugby player now’. The shame involved of having broken up with a Brown man, a ‘true hustler’, leads the narrator to lament about the life they could’ve had together as she beats out all the Bogan beauty queens of the Greater Wellington Region to become a proper ‘Kiwi socialite’. The love involved within Indigenous domesticity becomes paramount, where the narrator fantasises of being a Brown man’s housewife and fucking together until they both die. Even in all its irony, there is something powerful and sovereign in two Brown people hustling together until death.

However, while it may be overlooked because it centers on the pop culture franchise Twilight, the most significant poem in the collection is ‘Vampires versus Werewolves’. I was around fourteen when the first Twilight film hit cinemas. Well, hit my TV on a burnt CD my aunty had bought back from Tonga’s illegal DVD shop. I remember staying up until 3am playing the movie on repeat and murmuring along with a grainy Edward Cullen, ‘And so the lion fell in love with the lamb’. Then, I’d stand in the shower and scrub my brown skin with ALDI soap and wear long sleeved skivvys to hide from the sun so that I could look as White as Bella Swan. White enough so that someone like Edward could love me. Growing up, my nickname was Fie Palangi, which means Wanting to be White. I remember stomping around my kui fefine’s house in Mounty County, beating the soles of my Chucks on her freshly mopped wooden floorboards proclaiming to my hundred aunties and uncles who were over for a feed, ‘I’ll never ever marry a crazy coconut!’ All my fam laughed it up at me. Then, I ran to hide in the darkest part of my grandmother’s lounge room and under a statue of White Jesus I began to recite the entire dialogue of Twilight from memory.

What Tibble is actually writing about in ‘Vampires versus Werewolves’ is the experience of wanting to be White coupled with the experience of coming to critical consciousness as an Indigenous woman. The poem is complex because it is in the form of dialogue, which is shown by an italicised secondary voice who, from the left margin, repeatedly asks: ‘Could you be more specific? ’ This forces the narrator to continuously build on Twilight as a metonym for White supremacy on the right margin. Tibble writes, ‘Brown reminds me of leaves and sausage roll wrappers in the gutters’; an image of self-hatred. Later, she writes, ‘All you want is that pale sparkling on the television’, building on images where her self-hatred originated from. By using the phenomenon of Twilight, Tibble reveals how our White supremacist society leads many young marginalised people of colour to obsessively destroy themselves to Whiteness. As young Brown women, there is nothing we wanted more than to leave the gutter and become White; hoping that one of our own ‘wolf pack’ boys would take us home to their parents instead of the palangi girls, while we pinned Edward Cullen to our bedroom walls. Same sis. Same.

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Holding Pattern

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It Is Happening Again

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14 Works by Ms Saffaa


Ms Saffaa | MilkMan1 | 2013

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Deaf

The spines of books
digging into our skin
I feel them pressing in as we kiss
this joining of multiple loves
intellectual divine
The hot mess of your sex
panting pressing wet
black lines on white pages
neat and tidy between hard
tangible covers more solid than us?
It’s better not to get existential
while sheets are getting twisted
I’ve resisted these thoughts before
when the sun was filtering through
the stained glass of our tiny house
the currawongs were dipping their beaks
in the compost heap
knowing they’d struck worm gold
Every time I’ve repelled these thoughts
I’ve eventually come back
rappelling down that hare hole of fear
at losing this us this brilliant unbridled us
that could give that stained glass a run for its money
where we spiritualise sensuality
incense burning oil heating
we forget about this
often bleak situation
we’ve been thrust into
On that dance floor when we first met
I told you I was a poet
you spoke about the power of language
to give voice to those parts of us most integral
how without it we’re almost nothing
Almost
That night we got high
danced until sweat drenched
our feet ached
we collapsed onto your mattress
found more energy again
Now we push the books
off the edges of our bed
as we push each other
to the edges of ourselves
repelling the finite once more
ignoring the sound of it knocking
above the currawong calls

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revoke

the horizon
a flat lining heartbeat
encroaching darkness
retracting all
until the formlessness
stays the madness
)fluttering breath
the wings of bats overhead(

remember when you
used to envy her pillow
permitted to retain
her sweat scent spit

the sky
is a liar
tall tales still
in thin moving clouds
the threatened downpour
dissipating the promised
cleanse diminishing

remember when every
dip and curve was
your revered nation
religion and patriotism
suddenly consummate in
your previously anarchic
being as your fingers
whispered secrets down her belly

the trees
are sentinels
protecting the no ones
protecting them
in the shade
she’s most brilliant
parts of her hidden

remember when excuses
tumbled from between lips
still wet from her lips
still wet from your cunt

the sun
made from bees
vibrates mightily
burning even the most
conscientious as though to
prove a point

remember when she
started disappearing into
her ugliness
flushed cheeks fresh
with “fuck you’’-s so violent
your breath left
erratic patterns in your
chest connect the dots
gone all wrong

the birds
a cacophony
of ordered chaos
a crowd of witnesses
crowing at dawning rituals

remember when tea
scolded both
your tongues each
morning
but even that
couldn’t burn the
laughter out of you
both

the earth
unsteady shifting
not half as strong
as its reputation a mass of
impermanence

remember when she
realised you could die
denied it every day
until she fled
across that lying sky
into that beatless
horizon

..?

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Silence (Maria the first)

Standing on the platform
at Central Station
nervous fidgeting
eyes darting

seeking your face out
amongst moving masses
there you are
rushing towards me

anxious smile I hug you tight
with a mouthful of hello
knowing the awkwardness of
three years of relative silence

would settle upon us quickly
it did
so I hug you again
willing myself to be present

Instead
I’m back in the car with you
three years ago
when silence stretched between forced

syllables
I was an arsehole
who took away your agency
made a liar out of me

broke your heart
I remember the way your voice splintered
how you reached out
I pulled back

turned inward
so deep
I couldn’t see it
etched in us

Back on the platform
pulling away from our strange embrace
mouth full of everything unsaid
I see what you’ve managed to erase

what’s been carved into me
I am aware of everything
too suddenly
willing myself to be present

Instead
I am somewhere in an alternative universe
where I could have been happy with you
could have loved you

for a really long time
if I hadn’t been such a coward
my mouth is not full of anything now
it’s dry as you ask about my flight

my thirty hours traveling
we find safety in the banal
I fill the air with similar noise
I can’t look at you

all I want to do is look at you
actually all I want to do is kiss you
Three years of silence
all I want to do is kiss you

We are sitting in an empty library
books propped open
in a language I can’t fathom
like our new language

so hard to navigate
I tell you I really like your partner
it’s a lie I fucking hate them
they love you

like I was never able to
They remind me of me in many ways
I dislike my reflection in them
you tell me you’ve never felt more loved

in all your life
I want to apologise
take your hands
tell you I was so afraid back then

all the time
then press your lips against mine
beg you to forgive
everything I put you through

believe me to be a better being now
I don’t
I just listen smile
will myself to be present

Instead
I’m back where you and I stood in a turret
atop a castle
in another country

I was inside you
your breath on my ear
as you told me
you could never ever refuse me

Here in the library
I am overcome by the need
to test whether
you can refuse me now

I tighten my fists into balls
push my nails into my palms
and let “I’m happy for you, really I am”
tumble out my mouth over and over again

Later I tell you about how sick I’ve been
embarrassed tears run
I wipe them away hurriedly
telling you I never cry

both know that’s a lie
you tell me to take my own medicine
be vulnerable for once
I talk of being a burden

you call me your friend
– never a burden
“friend”
who knew that word could cut so deep

three years of silence
you have moved me into friend
hearing your voice utter that
fills me with regrets which can not

tumble out of my mouth
You’re happy
I’m happy for you
really I am it’s just

I should have loved you
better back then

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don’t look down

your scars
a brutal beautiful
forging through life
even as deaths gristly
hold tries to drag you
down the jagged edges
of scar tissue something
like a zipper you joke will
be your next
tattoo

dust particles
tap dance off the edges
of furniture light splayed
like the sun’s split wide
trying to say ‘look at my
hot stuff babe’ while the
pain rides every
internal nerve

you are wound tight
like when you were young
you’d wrap rubber bands
round your pinky blood
gathering at the tip til it
turned purple suddenly
you’d be afraid it’d drop off
the swelling making it
harder to remove the elastic
your panic a pin prick spreading
swiftly

that sensation is
your every day
the opiates a liquid dip
muting a little more
with every hit
your fingers trace
again those battle lines
on flesh carved
with tiny knives

people dip their heads
over the precipice
just to feel their breath
catch in their chests
you would give anything
to be able to scrabble back
from the ledge

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Dear Mr. president

Dear Mr. president
there is only one human
body on the planet whose
gender you get to identify
after that it is
none of your
business
just let
the windmill
burn around him
Boris Karloff trapped
under a wooden beam
we had much to leave behind in
order to follow the river to the sea
every time I wear
that hat I
can hear
her
queer
sisters
lovers
murdered
not the sheriff
not you Mr. president
give them dignity
even after death
but they never
and I never
needed it
fuck you
we win
it all
our
genie
leprechaun
froot loop tonguerer
ferocious ecstatic venerated queen

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The Doctors Say

I mustn’t use my body as a dance move,
as a way for me to prove the voices
wrong; that we are rash choices,
that without the coupling we’re just skin.
You can’t deny the smile that comes
with cumming, there’s a silent thrum
shared, he loves me, but I knew this.
I’m just scared that without proof it’s
beyond my reach, something I can lose.

I cannot use my body as I choose,
as a way to just shut up and play the hits;
songs we make up with our jigsawed bliss,
a shared light widening until we’re thin,
unthinking, breathless, cramping, voiceless.
Today they say that I must change the noises,
the method. My body is a bleeding gum.
I feel your fearless tongue, our bodies’ scrum,
your viscous grin I could never disprove.

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Looking for Hot GAM

Looking for hot GAM, 37 degrees Celsius
neither feverish nor cold-blooded
well below boiling but able to melt
ice. Not averse to skin, his own colour
nor jealous of body fur or the large
strange builds of other races. Me, I’m
turned on by brawny intelligence, defined
sensibility, buff in both ways. We could
go for long knocks on the brain, sip
piña coladas or something more
apropos. Lapsang souchong, baby.
Did you avoid an Asian mother
complex (not hot)? Can you object-
ify yourself ironically? Can you laugh
like me about pulling faces in the mirror
Am I handsome?’ Not to say I wouldn’t
date other races. This is just desire in
flux: settled, embedded, illusory. I’m
lately distant from the shared gay hobby
of temptation and lust but recalling
past fantasies, I’m game for a certain
toughness, square jaw, the tensility
of how the skin holds together, tight
what it encloses, remember chase
and capture sweet as lotus seed
paste. Then I’m ground and radared,
squirted and selfied, grindred and
gaydared, classified with private pictures
unlocked. Interested? Face photo
(not the dick pic), stats, tell me a
secret … not that one, too obvious. My heart,
stinking with pride, hot with reflection,
I offer in return.

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THERE ARE ONLY 16 GENDERS

There are only 2 genders: the SEX DISCRIMINATION ACT
& the 2013 amendment to the SEX DISCRIMINATION ACT


There are only 3 genders:
AFAB (assigned female at birth)
AMAB (assigned male at birth)
& ACAB (all cops are bastards)

There are only 4 genders:
Violent Femmes
Men Without Hats
Queens of the Stone Age
& the Holy Sisters of the Gaga Dada

There are only 5 genders:
401 Unauthorised
404 Not Found
409 Conflict
422 Unprocessable Entity
& 451 Unavailable For Legal Reasons

There are only XX & XY
& X & XXY & XYY & XXX
& XXXX Gold & XXXX Bitter
& other discontinued genders

There are only genders

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testosterone

when i forced my queer arm elbow
deep into the cavern
of our chest, i was reminded, again,
why i no longer buy blue
glitter | partly
it’s about microplastics
lodging in gills and cracks
and the ocean’s blinding
enough without our help, but typically
like musty letters or the humidity of
testosterone
it’s because it never disappears and never breaks
down.

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At Rome

We never went to Rome together
but as I have it
we wake early and seek out sharp coffees
spend the day brushing hands
flirting with a previous idea of us
rush to the room to make love
under white curtains
on a pile of tourist maps, your winter coat.

Pilgrim stream under window
wick-hold the candle
steady now
cassock of flow
impeached women.

On the last night I paid for a guided tour.
You pointed out umbrella pines.
I pointed out the brevity of our attendance,
the thin foot of our welcome here.

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Argo Notes

1

irreverence of being a baby
amniotic fluid sonic bubble & blood
i find you forget you
the heart’s action & breathing
i keep forgetting you
makes spontaneous gesture possible
but you remember me
our conference about breastfeeding
i lose you feel sad
come to recognise
radical alienation from our
body / use you as not-me
utterly dependently falling for
ever morbid & bad
blockbuster Oedipal bad
met by ordinary devotion
my anti-interpretive delinquent mood
my dirty mirthful
queer as pregnancy itself






2

no such thing as reproduction
only acts of production
inching toward the state he
thinks we’re all girls
writing echoes uncannily
shot through w/ darkness
don’t have to be disappointments
came from the fluid world
still clouding thru memes
the me & the not-me rage
that what is good is always being
destroyed for feeling real as she comes
to know me as real / just
another human animal among us
flying anuses / speeding vaginas
having been gathered together
held w/out a point / a lack
no memory save the sense






3

our body grew stranger experienced
surges of heat ghosts
who proclaim w/out these sheets
we would be invisible
spinning in the murk of cells
are programmed to unfurl & you can’t
reverse this helix of hope & fear it’s dark
we develop even in utero
in response to a flow of projections
reflections that ricochet
loose & hot in our house
made from stuffed-up stars we materials
may never leave this world recycling our
many whats made from wheres unwittingly
backed into a paradox paranoid-tending
we tend to bend in order
to develop & diss eminate
there is nothing you can throw at us
that we cannot metabolise






4

another form of paranoid i
slash them out //
edit myself
into gendered baggage sorry
for the confusion
sorry for whatever sorry
there are many speakers
who allow themselves the tremblings the lovers
& exes that make up
the mood half-dressed & staring
juts out of focus
you glimpse something radishingly intimate
a window my danger
a cloud my suffering
sunlight my nihilism
sex my abject ions
nine-tenths of the words i’ve stolen
are free but there’s no escaping
toxic material / the self
w/out sympathetic attachments
is either a fliction
or a lunar tic perhaps
it laced my ilk






5

the subtlefugue of my life’s
intervals of sun followed
by veils of red light
no real night will aspire to contain my shit
shadow on a wall
w/out a will to power we purr
or flee & demur / shift & refuse / write
slick amphibious
amorphing shapes of self
specular pleasure
in drag as thief or murderer
become our own stalker start smoking
again / difference happens
when the pleasure’s not only taken but
openly displaced in fragments
make a portal swing open






6

preserving the radical radishes
i have a bad habit of deeming myself lost
a little spooked by text
do you want to be right or
d’you wanna connect
i started leaving my charms at home
which asked too much to rent
the aim is not to answer questions
it’s to get out / get out of it
the air was hot
pro-Babel & shooting white eggs
bulbous beautiful
tears sprouted
ready to burst
we could be fucking the specific forces
that mobilise & crouch
behind us on this piled endangered planet
tiny being in difficulty
proposing an
alternat
ive






7

albeit stripped of pronouns
structurally vulnerable to being
hated or resented by somone
frothing in cargo
shorts i acquiesce into
participating in a belief system
that litotes its den
omination as metaphysical
that overestimates the maturity of adults
& fields unwanted //
monologues from
a cab driver //
just as ice has
no coordinates
a bloom of drops rose
indifferent to my doubts my
snowball self does not
wanna rep //
resent






8

people are in/different from each
other at the infinity pool
plural & specific
at deep play in the makeshift
Wolf Man’s memory of his parents’ encounter
& the girl having the feathers sewn onto her butt
easy to get juiced up
your brain doesn’t easily switch
not the same thing as in an ontological either/or
succumbs to the temptation to master
any gender any sentient being
no longer able to rip or delve into subversion
their light towers flooding
with titular features
think of how freaked
some people get
that the anus has tons of nerves
needs to be able to discriminate by feel
between solid / liquid / gas
part of mainstream domesticity
our studio w/ orange shaft lavender shadow
inviting more night storms to come
bash at the reality of my fantasy
protected by a force field
right to be free






9

not on my way in any way anywhere
a feeling of & a feeling of but
& a feeling of bi
you didn’t get the meme shel
lacking over their version of reality
genitalia of all stripes are all
slimy & pendulous & repulsive / / / what
even smell of a-holes beyond wanting or
being wanted
ashamed & undaunted i refuse to
engage in terms for ums like you
because of all the triangulation
my dirty secret has always been that
this is of course about me
for another by virtue of another
the shit stays messy
for the loosening that needs to happen
in order to speak a windswept kind
of edible twilight becoming animal
becoming molecular a thick bank of
rainbow above got sober
before i got wireless






10

words change depending on who speaks
the wings each flies w/
letting an individual fuck take
precedence over a categorical one
our unwitting collaboration
which i emerge from abandoned
to admit or omit every appearance of May
gender be more than just colour
collapse w/ all his gear on
in a paroxysm of will she know i’m good
on gleaming dark wood
floors me
(we look happy
now that there are
children in my life
it was our mountain
along w/ a sun cloud & two birds)
or will she mistake me
for an evil twin in triangle skirt
as a means of making peace w/ a
bummer i feel a loose sense
our flickering nature
/ nurture






11

i roll my eyes from the floor
“feeling real” is so moving
twenty-four hours a day soaked
in the immediate awareness of your sex
i rework the traps the happiness police patrol
give the state the flip
someone once policed your mouth
exploring slivers of light
filtered thru the paradigm we baffled
w/ ardour
you survive what i do to you
such ordinary self-serving we inter
lope & enter whatever shit
storm comes on sure
we can play Baby Bear
speech impediment games but these recalcitrant
mispronunciations get cold feet
in the epic line of frothy lunatics
their GOD HATES
(fill in the blank) signs
bewildered at the nature of today
crowded & contrary
the winternet promised
cheap gothic mandates
on a beach w/ a peach faux finish






[‘Argo Notes’ is ostensibly collaged from The Argonauts (2015), by Maggie Nelson]

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Aberration

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Finding Herbert

They circled Powązki more than once,
stymied and frustrated on the brick perimeter,
finally rolling over uneven paving stones
to practice parallel parking like
everyone else

*

Red wall. Neglected entrance. A beautiful truce
between gray and green

*

D. O. M. Luckily they ran into an aide-de-necropolis
carrying a watering can, eyes like bright corners
of a wet sky. He had the secret number
and an imperfect map

*

She handled the device, fed it the correct data,
translated the voice: Seek ZH in Section 14,
near the catacombs

*

Along the semi-rectilinear paths,
she picked Polish celebrities
like asphodels

*

He (Niemiec/Numbnuts) spotted only Wieniawski
and Chopin’s Family

*

And suddenly, one stone stepping out of the mosaic: there he was.
There he wasn’t. He was with the others and alone. More black
than gray, but still shining. A universal cross. A sub-INRI.
A fairly horizontal slab for rolling ordinary bones.
Not yet. Not yet. And no one said it.
She’s still combing her hair.

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I Look at My Body and See the Source of My Shame: Ecstasy Facsimile

Heavy thing, cigarettes and stale sex on your skin, why hog the blanket only
to apologize. I bite into my soul like a pretzel, it’s no
good, wipe blood off my lips with yesterday’s shirt. To regret an experience is
to nullify it, your 7 AM mug says. I wish my life worthy
enough to deserve erasure, I throw your ankle socks into the hamper. I lipstick
all synonyms on the mirror and slump my shoulders for
emphasis. I can balance a tray of plates on one hand and dishrag the smirk off
your face with another; besides that, I am ruthless
in amusing ways. I traveled from my country to this flat to be an actress and
morph into self instead. I wanted to be an almanac of
someone-elses but end up awake in bed an extra hour, nodding to reasons your
life should’ve been grander: without you until morning
I’m the body those lives give. Dear adversary, whose faces do you savage in my
dreams away from us, it’s time we make our god do unto us.

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(with(in)side) out

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Drag Act

When you consider the flea,
inbeing I mean,
hopping through whole
possibilities of cinema:
the assorted drag act
and bodies – old crossdressing injuries
in and out of roles
where we fit
crape hair, crap heir
to breakfast rolls, tin cans,
being Queen, being Titian,
tic-ridden,
so we will say
afterall
whether in coronets,
or to someone in chains,
My father, my son.

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TRUCK STOP BITCH

Hey there baby, it’s been a while
I look tanned
I look good
I look /
I look
a lot like trouble
a damned piece of arse
in this hot desert truck stop.

Got me own cabin
made outta tin
got me some rollies
2 weeks slabs of beers
got me the eyes
of a low-lying lizard
the paper-thin hide
of some nasty wasp

there’s dead tyre tracks
homing in from the distance
splayed on the dirtpan
carousing like snake trails
slithering up to the toe of my boot
I’m kicking them back into dust
into bullshit –
no need to keep evidence
wouldn’t you say?
Already got
one man inside
when I unbolt the door
he won’t run anywhere
already got a small plug of explosive
stored in my teeth should I need to bite down

The long hot horizon that’s always been shady
is still trying to trick me there’s something out here
I think I hear civilisation a-coming
But it’s just the gen’rater grunting its dream

Got a circle of diesel marking my boundaries
got me some matches got me some fun
got a juke box and teardrops
tin cans final notices
ribby dog sniffing at
piles of bones

So yeah come on join me
Bring your own shotgun
I’m wearing cuttoffs I’m wearing spite
it won’t hurt I promise
and you ortta know
what in our legacy ‘promise’ is worth

This time
I’ll bend backwards
for you baby sure
you got deadlines, commitments
I got thighs and supplies
I got a guitar and some old packing crates
got a view of the future
that stretches til sunrise…

come out come on baby
come out come on baby
come out come on baby
you know what I am

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I had a tooth ache

my tooth is drilled

the vibration penetrates and

I realise I own a body

for the first time in 28 years

someone stands in the mirror

I am not there

the vibration penetrates and

waves of iron wash me

my body was a car

something I couldn’t drive

something to use until

it broke and killed me

the vibration penetrates and

I remember all that I

put in my body

because it wasn’t me

you shove things in a car

and try to forget them

going to the dentist is

taking ownership

this is my car

this is what I have to deal with

the drill cracks the car open

inside is a girl

hiding in the corner

of all parties

sipping alcohol

wanting to leave

my tooth is drilled and

the car becomes a weapon

turned against that girl

becomes a club to

beat us with

I want to talk with that girl

but what do I do with the car

I want to dance with her

but what do I do with my hips

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