Wombats

Driving through Kangaroo Valley
I glimpsed a low slung animal
in my headlights; pulled over
and recognized a wombat — fog
lifted its gauze, a clump of ferns
moved apart. Another animal
trundled out, then a third
came into view, larger this time
with darker colouring.
All three moved into a rough circle.
I turned the headlights off,
squinted through the glow
of parking lights — too dim to see —
I grabbed a torch and rolled
the window down; frogs pumped
in the undergrowth, nightjars
passed along their liquid calls —
in the middle of the road the wombats
were doing a double shuffle.

 
 
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Impact

for Matthew Hall, after reading ‘High Pink on Chrome’ by J. H. Prynne

 
Light glancing off polished steel.
                        Steam, petrol, adrenaline in the air.
            Surfaces – skin, metal, language –

                                    all the muscle implied by them.
This wreckage of disciplines –
                        impossible to tell which vehicle

            is which, and if this is a problem
                                    of language or vision. The perspective
from within a dim, unplaced room.

                        The “accident” glimpsed through bent
            horizontal blinds – lines of poetry
                                    from 1975, still warm. Tucked into

deep folds of grammar – knives.
                        You could have but didn’t call
            the poet ‘seminal’, the word too much

                                    rooted in the historical, sexual to be
of more use than the impact itself.
                        Reading a photocopy, I’m jolted

            by the motion of the last train
                        home, someone shouting into
a mobile, another – one bare foot –

                        burping through three litres of cola,
            the rest of us facing each other like in-
                                    determinate alternatives, swaying

and blinking into the night. The edge
                        of the palm of your hand that keeps
            appearing in the margins is

                                    to me the key to the long poem.

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Her Joy (In two lines)

Moving his cursor across the screen, the doctor circles a small patch of light and dark.
“You see those two lines?” he asks, and we nod. “Well, Madame, let me say that you’re in luck!”

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Double Happiness

A cataract of water clinging to the tail of the penny
magnifies its ringing summons, promises not mere
luck, but double happiness
I must have it, bending over in spite of that voice —
that one of my beau, scolding me with
“Leave it for some less fortunate kid.”

Doesn’t see the one hovering just under my
slightly enhanced self-made sistah’s skin,
bawdy, incredulous celebration of better days.
It’s love when he calls me his little grubber
And, truth? Hovers over a deal as lingeringly as me.

But I just can’t leave double happiness
or just plain luck to someone less appreciative
though I might know that a penny shared is
exponentially luckier to its finder. I’m satisfied
with double happiness.

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Plato at the Pictures

For the briefest of moments,
a glimmering sketch,

I incline my right cheekbone
one degree, untransfixed

by the knowledge of him,
the frame of his arm,

his crumpled penumbra,
a whisker perhaps.

As much in character
as anything else, I ask

my new buddy, the vague
auditorium, the rippling,

piercing green exit
signs: So what’s the Idea

of a Schwarzenegger,
ploughmen’s arts not of earth
?

Dialogue strays, indisposed for a punchline.
Woah, honeyed Silver. We rise before the titles.

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Doll Making

          after Vonnegut

 
She sits before the TV screen
and needles russet comedy from cloth.
While the re-run witch
talks through her laugh
and zap,
unravels time and space,
she fades into the ad biz of the age.

A million bony fingers
stuff gray fluff
into her carapace of cloth,
but the fabric of her mind
is much too rough;
the slightest cut
unravels it from thought.

While our interstices bleed
ice-nine into the cradle of
her life; while the digits
of our thought embroider time
and curliques of space
onto the skinship of her mirth;
and while we laugh,
say “so it goes” until we drop;

The grinning lips of comedy uncurl,
until just beyond the blackest,
vacant snuffles of pure sloth,
before we rise, before
the up-turn of a smile,
she stops,
and crowns that yarny head
with a cherry colored fools-cap
and a laugh.

Such actions speak much louder here
than words; the ends of empty stitchery,
they lift us from this fantasy,
and short commercial blurbs
to leave us with her memory,
unraveling epiphanies of trash–
and that is when,
sewn carefully to cloth,
her scarlet velvet heart
leaps out to us.

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When Nothing Else Will Do

The first haul was in a village north of the A17
I scooped up all six small jars
and thought they’d be good for another six months
or more but it seemed to rain every other day
and our landlord with her bouncing pony tail
opened all the windows to the Arctic and beyond
each time she came to show new tenants through
we unscrewed cap after cap and watched the rain
a drought was declared in the midland counties
we moved to a city criss-crossed with canals
a cathedral at the highest point
clouds hunched overhead
and it rained every other day
I found shelves of the rival Marmite in different sizes
and a Sainsbury low salt viscous variety
that you said was another kind of bitumen
and no, I don’t know why it tastes so good
or why it rained every other day
April was the wettest month on record in the UK
the drought was lifted last week in a few counties only
and you reverted to your childhood favourite
the biting sweetness of Dundee marmalade

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The Twilight Zone

Maple Street, Smalltown, Ohio. Sunday afternoon, a regular sitting room, an urgent news broadcast. Doom. And then nothing.
     Electricity lingers briefly, like a soul, until there is only the grey bulge of the screen and its putrid reflection. A man and woman on the sofa crawling with roses shift towards each other. Their fingers entwine and grapple.
     Outside the blades of grass reach unseen towards the noonday sun. An abandoned lawnmower is silent as a stick insect. There is the sound of an ignition clicking. The milky wails of a child. Then suddenly, on the side walk, running. The aeroplanes, purified by the Midwestern sky, have arrived in a shining haze of noise, with nobody on them. They fill the world like a scientific vision.
     There is knocking, humble and wooden, at the door. The man and woman stand and retreat, hiding in the aircrafts’ screaming. The man fumbles for a flash light in the bureau by the stairs. Takes his wife’s hand. They descend to the cellar, deaf to the protests of the timber steps and the patent leather of the man’s shoes, black and vitreous.
     Underground, ghosted by the torchlight, sweat melts like wax from their skin. Then the man drops the flashlight. The darkness is inscrutable. They hear the batteries extrude onto the concrete floor and roll, almost like marbles.
     Until something, or somebody, stops them.

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The Pope’s Arms Are Dripping with Gold

after viewing the Barberini Tapestries

 
The pope’s arms are dripping with gold.
Handed down palm to kindred palm, unseen
behind a veneer (a garland of souls
worn thin) of smoke-tinted color. I mean,
what else could it obscure? Lovely rosé,
after a few drinks of bubbly the world
appears brighter or at least more holy,
even the gold the pope’s wearing, the hoard
of pirate’s booty that’s hidden then found
in light bearing the same strange light of storms:
streaming in shafts, hallelujahing down,
the heavy air precipitating sound.
Then silence (pause), which brightens even more
the gold dripping down the pope’s arms.

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Missing in Action Prime

Just because it didn’t go off doesn’t dispel
What’s primed “digit immortality” will tell
2012’s May Day OZ Lotto #950 draw
2+6+25+29+34+36+37=169 is 132 see-saw
3 & 8 supplementary to missing in action
Fibonacci series 5th-month Day protestation
What’s going down goes around, until …

No Hand’s an algorithmic computer program
Of random number systems, i.e. lottery scam
And word ordering stratagems of poetry contest
So as Boobquake’s “Cordite #39 Jackpot” conquest
2012/4=96th Prime: inverse 69th-position predestinate
But another No Hand is placed to manipulate
Of $US640-million Mega Millions world record …

Plans meet flash in pan web trends; how do you wield
2010 CSIRO identifies 5 “megatrends” shaping the world
8 “megashocks” of impact; where natural world has preset
Digital counterpart defining rich & poor; Are we there yet?
Social media added propaganda, but what’s new & controlling
If high frequency traders are inside, algorithmic programming
May 8 OZ Lotto Game #951 is Jackpot $70 million …

Without 5/8 lottery draw No Hand’s at best only half the poet
So reversed Game 950 to 059 with 1st & 2nd digit transpose it
To be 30zero31 test-dummy 4-Corners of the Metaphysical Tomb
Product first two primes plus one is prime, etc. prescribes doom
59×509=30031=2x3x5x7x11x13+1; no 5th-Prime to 7/31/211/2311
Unless 30zero31 is TOBACCO code instead of smoking heaven
El Dorado sequel to Raleigh’s 1585 Roanoke settlement at 770 W …

Heard it thru the grapevine, but can’t remember crossing the river
Positive & negative: if IR “wire” predefines the route, who’s married what
In getting to the altar on time & schedule has hidden agenda to deliver …

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Fabian Avenarius (Arthur Craven)

I can be anything. Leave me in the dark. – Jorge Francisco Isidoro Luis Borges

I was christened Contessa Sarita Mujer de la Dia de Muertos.
Crones called me often,
my nurse called me Sibyl,
the workers, spoiled and worth it.

The world was my lover, the oyster my best friend.
Women called me wanton,
my husband, cock, tease, rapture,
my wife in the bleak of the night, “So beautiful.”

On my bed of many feathers, wings, many wings
dreaming five fields of chrysanthemums.
Rose-red. Cumulous. Sunrise. Amantillado.
And Flesh, a sixth field of Flesh.

“So beautiful, so very beautiful.”

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Listening To Cuckoos

Two unchanging notes; to us, words—always those high
elongated notes. Red-eyed koels with feathered ear-muffs,

downward ending notes that pour through a falling of night
coming over the distances, words that don’t change.

The two notes remain, a split phrase, two words
meaning, not exactly a self—not quite, the first day of spring.

The moment of utterance, candor becomes
the piercing, whistled syllables. Penetrating the dark green

of twilight, the storm birds call, two notes, two words,
and cackle in the broken egged dawn, in the echoing light.

 
 
 

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Payback in ’78

At Bre’ the Rainbow Serpent flows from sponges
in colours pre-mixed in tins. Children reach up
to spread the curving back along the school wall
clammer to track his path in psychedelic spots

The river is a creamy slurry waiting for rain
They show me a bend in the gouged-out stream
Words point at fast currents folding in

‘See he goes under there’

Their gravel voices fill with stories
legends of canoes, paddle steamers lost
Uneasy fingers twist through hair, check
with a side-ways look as they whisper
his name. Their sleeping giant

‘No one swims here any more’

*

‘Missa, Missa them blacks out there
gunna’ burn our town!’

Someone had burned the station one night
They’d already torched the only pub
Hotel swings from the Liquor Outlet now
a no-frills affair: roller-doors down at ten

And we’d heard talk of wild kids, good with fire
living on the edge of the next failing town

*

Goodooga’s a cross-roads place shrinking
from drought, the end of our ‘Outback’ tour.
A lonely petrol pump’s the last truck-stop
to ‘Brissy’. All roads lead to places livelier
than this, branch off in dust, heading straight
to homesteads. Station-runs standing still.

*

The aluminium space fills with children’s voices
claiming the Rainbow Serpent story.
Young men, bros and cuz, come in from Dodge
take control of our ‘Art in Schools’. Paint
the silent magic of their Muruwari Dreaming
Leave their pride in an air-conditioned hall.

Dodge City‘s on the edge of nowhere. Off-limits
to finger-pointing tourists or ‘blow-ins’ like us

This painted landscape is already too old
or too new for change. Shaped
by late-model cars
– white goods rolled in dust
Useless inclusions in houses
that never had power or water

The people remember centuries of water holes
in scrubby grass. Shifting to camps, penned up
like sheep. They watch other tribes move in
take over towns: living well on their country

Made guerrilla war in lightning strikes
with the only weapon they knew

Bre’: Brewarrina NSW
Dodge City: Former Aboriginal Reserve

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Imperium

Memory takes us for a ride, and we it –
Time clocks its vengeance on forgetfulness;
When the god Remembrance comes calling
(Old Eros in a mask) we repossess

In vain the confabulated latitudes
For our retelling, now tainted and digital;
Far below the long-relinquished Equator
Our analog histories in the original

Lie in dust like Alexandrian manuscripts
Or sunk, an irretrievable Atlantis;
So we puzzle over what preceded Genesis
As we wait for Revelation to supplant us.

And so history is our cross and our salvation,
We genuflect before its stations, cosily;
From the first sad Romulus to the last
A hundred dozen winters weave a rosary

We can say in one chart or chapter,
And we joy ourselves then, or else we cry;
And we fix memory’s shingle to our future –
We will miss ourselves when we die.


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Dialect of Cirrus

a measure of the
dead. suppose I should

explain. hours spent sift-
ing the light, no al-

readys to drown. ‘a
bagpipe sings for two –

first for etch and shad-
ow, second, the drone,

in the dialect
of cirrus, for days

with blunt endings.’ is
there a season for

wonder? where sits the
god of golden means?


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Jeder Engel Ist Schrechlich

"Every angel is terrifying."
                                                            Duino Elegies - Rilke

great grandfather soiled the family tree
lifted his penis high in the air
and peed on its trunk
the stump of my mother

great aunt had young lovers
and hidden amongst the foliage of time
stories lurked in cupboards
behind the smiling faces of fading photos

three sisters wear each other’s clothes
while their mother rocks her lovers
in the marital bed, the dead father’s photo
swinging in time on its nail

we are of bastard stock it seems
look in the mirror myself
and see the Cossack rape
full moon face, blonde hair, blue eyes

mother silent over winter snow
and frigid with her frosty breath
covers her mouth with a scarf
so we cannot see the chilling truth

the dead sclerose my dreams
hated oddities, they fall out
like unwanted fetuses
curled up inside their beginnings


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Scribbledehobble

Language is a parasite — LACAN


All languages are equal                                                                                        (the spoken word comes first, writing second)

Language is messy: the lexicon is messy                                                                           (Chomsky would have said as much)

Dictionaries are cumbersome to consult                                                                                                           (never up-to-date)

Bilingual dictionaries are elliptic                                                                                                                (traduttore, traditore!)

Machine-readable dictionaries drive you nuts                                                                                             (try that in Japanese)

Machine translation is a mere machinery of suggestions                                                                      (meaning is in the gaps)

Big Dictionary: Small Grammar                                                                                                                       (swallow that one)

Swallow the dictionary [Y+O] use uncommon, and esp. long words: * `I’m a scribbledehobbleanalyst.’ `A what? You’ll sprain your jore (=jaw) if you start in trying to swallow the dictionary all at one go.’ RM * He may be an expert but can he talk to school-children? They’ll not sit still for half an hour to listen to some guy that’s swallowed the dictionary. * Infin. Or perfect tenses.
No, thanks. Thank you (very much (indeed)). Merci (beaucoup).
THANKS.

Headword: abandon.
Meaning vt (forsake) person abandonner, quitter, délaisser. (fig.) to abandon s.o. to: se liver à, se laisser aller à.

Meaning vt (Jur., etc: give up) property, right: renoncer à; se désister de
Meaning vt (Naut.) ship: évacuer; (Jur.) cargo: faire (acte de) délaissement.

ABANDON (vt)
Abase abash abbreviate abduct abet abhor abide abjure abnegate abolish abominate abort abrade abridge abrogate absent absolve absorb abstract abuse accent accentuate accept acclaim acclimate accommodate accompany accomplish accost account accredit accuse accustom achieve acknowledge acquire acquit act activate actualize actuate add addict

ABANDON (vi)
Abound about-face abscond abseil abstain abut accede accrue ache acquiesce act adhere advert alight allow allude amble amend answer back apologize apostatize appeal appear appertain approve approximate arc arise arrive arse about arbitrate aspire atone…
Ab.aahbablablahrealitêtebeaubsuneliscribbledhobbleKantsdunichtsehenunacosacoyosolasonneronttuémortdéjànay (abj.)
DATABASE: SIGN    DOCUMENT: DESIRE    PRIVACY: 0    REC: AUTHORIZE


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Leaving, Are You?

I’m not an anonymous tip-off
or the cracking up over death.
I’m not easy or the slider
on the machine, I’m not
evidence or the answering tape.
Don’t tempt me!
I’ve seen you around the courts
and terraces, I see your leaves
your turning circle
your dust, all leaves, all gone.
I’m not gone.
I’m not even ticketed.
Neither am I here.
You’ve seen me around
seen me leaving.
It wasn’t easy.
The dust bears tracks.
I was not courted.
I was not circled but
nevertheless I bore
a ticket. Bingo!
It wasn’t evidence
but a demand at the door.
And the door keeps turning
though it’s easy
easy as leaves
turning like jokers
something from the wild
side of the deck.

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Fat

I’m in my garden.

This poem needs love, that needs secateurs.

I ruin quite a few trees.

Try hard. Outside objectivity helps.

But you’ve got to keep slouching back to your own Bethlehem.

I don’t read classy writers.

Get anxious.

But when I find a lover …

With one shoe off …

Sleeps blanket time, with a thumb in my mouth.

Syrup on the breakfast table.

The last piece of bacon.

Effortless fat.

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Everest

i. the blue inkwell of the sky

As a boy, I remember thinking ‘how is it possible to climb into the sky?’
My father gave action to my dreams    he taught me to climb small mountains
I have a theory that people climb for the smell of it
I felt more like an astronaut    no clouds    a curving horizon
Just the flapping prayer flags    the beat and heave of my heart and my lungs
You cannot imagine how beautiful
    small tissue notelets    Ang Lakpa told me to throw them
into the air    they hung there, caught in the updraughts
about 20 feet above our heads


ii. its wings and drops and cliffs

I was travelling in a whiteout    I fell head over heels
my ice axe had no bite in the snow
I could not feel my feet because of frostbite
the torches were not working
night was falling    and the wind was picking up.
I just slumped into the snow and cried —
tears for lost friends.
Some of us lost all our toes and some fingertips.
The summit is a narrow place.
20 people were already there.
I descended about 20 feet and sat alone.

 

Note: this poem was adapted from Everest: Reflections from the Top,
eds. Christine Gee, Garry Weare and Margaret Gee

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To the Fugu

I cannot see her tonight
I have to give her up
So I will eat fugu
– Buson

 
To kiss you is to mimic your own stunned face:
small-mouthed, teeth slightly bared.
But you refuse to flirt, giving nothing beyond
that slope-headed stare: not even girlish aspirations.
And yet, such potential within that provincial body!
This could bloom into something beautiful:
a chrysanthemum or crane.
Eight chances I will give you, for what’s love
without uncertainty, those few tingling doubts –
a growing numbness in the throat.
 
 

Fugu: Japanese for pufferfish (literally translating to ‘river pig’),
which has neurotoxic properties. Also refers to the notorious dish made from the animal
which, if not prepared properly, can cause death by asphyxiation.

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Boab Tree

(Adansonia gregori)

 
 
Squat I be,
swollen, grotesque.
rotund, not yet circular.
From deep beneath draw I my knowledge.
Warmun be my country, my dreaming …

A thousand years
have I been
raising branch to sky,
my frail witch hands into blue
nurturing the Gija; these be my people.

Now lament they
my departure.
Ripped from my heart-place
I journey south into exile.
where menfolk sing me to their earth

to soil that chills my soul.
I be alien here,
where rivers run on salt plains.
This be Nyoongar country,
not my country, not my dreaming …

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Man (o) Rina 7

Chainsaw theory:
sharpen metal fangs
(skin) take notes from bone

Hareless chaser:
groom rabbit chest
case ivory moon (with toothbrush)

Dusky grasswren:
flanks the heart of carparks
(mouse-­‐like) spooks air born harbinger

Dangerous trade:
putting a head
into a mouth (incisor)

Sunset solo:
park near sky. open jaw wide.
swallow. (fly)

Noisy miners:
(winging) bad commerce, draw
nectar from the black damp

Above all else:
jump away awkwardly
into the death

(kiss)

QPF

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Native

A block of greasy light reaches me
from the neighbour’s shed,
settles on the desk.

I browse the keyboard
for words I have forgotten. I type
‘stitch’ and imagine skin.

I copy down my steps
all night in the cold bedroom.
An hour
arrives and leaves.

Now: noise.
What doesn’t sing has no right
to be awake in the shrieking
hour
of birds.

Diamond firetail
gouldian finch mulga parrot
budgerigar—

Tree full of wagtail, myna, peewees:
native names I forgot,
learned on
hot days in state school
science class.

I try to say my name aloud.
Instead, words I heard
when I was a ten,
tadpoles in a bucket,
magpies pinch mince from
shaky hands.

Dead yellow budgie
on the neighbour’s deck,
typed
in straight lines.

I realise
if I step backwards
I will bump into myself.

QPF

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