Graceless, Even with Wings

Three wild horses punish the dust.

A butterfly waits for glass to become a rumour.

Once again, I am incapable
of tucking my heart in.
It will kick up, reckless and flying,
beating its wings at cold luck,
losing grace.

The sun may force itself upon the horizon
but dusk will always powder
at this time of year,
with this karma.

And my sun drops everything
for your headland.
My butterfly hammers beauty
and doesn’t see the truth.
My wild, beautiful horses
gallop towards your headlights,
towards your captivating headlights,
and then turn from grace,
head for the dump.

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Upstream

Cigarette smoke tumbles over lawn-puncturing high-heels,
punchy accessories, splashes of color. Amanda blows smoke rings
that expand toward the stars. My waking age reels
before me amid rocks and retches. It tangles in palpitant strings

tied up between tall cans rowed like soldiers, roadside crosses,
and IV stands; I don’t have a glass to sit behind.
G&Ts offer to soften my edges, pry open my losses,
hum me synchronous with the smoky porch: I politely decline.

The lawn chair sucks onto the backs of my thighs
while I try to dissolve. Elias perfects his French inhale,
as a cichlid transmutation glasses my eyes.
The smoke settles into a film over my hardening scales.

Swimming away under everyone’s kaleidoscopes, I think
how good it must feel to let oneself sink.

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Mr. Eno, A Brief for You

Can you do 6 seconds of inspiration, optimism,
futurism that is sentimental and emotional?
Sincerely
             Bill (Microsoft)

Sure!
             Blah-blah             Da-da-da

                                            Brian
PS             3.5 seconds okay?

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Cameraman

As he filmed,
He walked backwards.
He fell on his arse,
Stomach upwards.

from ‘Buwarrala Akarriya’ (Journey East)
Annie Karrakayn & Dinah Norman Marrangawi

the cameraman walked
with his back to history
filming the women

the stone was placed here
in the dreaming
to stop those

who look to the future
without understanding
the past

the cameraman’s feet
danced for an instant
kicking up sand

on film the women
laugh for an moment
then there’s nothing

but sky

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Midnight Jackdaw on the Jackpot Blacktop

The fact was that everyone was acting on an intention to kill. The knuckles in Cottage Apple’s right palm were flinty pistons rotating beneath his sailing overcoat. When Sapling Delicious was within charging distance of Brick Picnic, something heroic and primordial swam through his bloodstream. Electric Gazelle stared as the twins summoned carnage and life-suppressed spleen down onto the scorning thrill of Brick Picnic atop his motorcycle.

Sapling’s knee collided with his target’s chest as if the sky had tossed him with the pluck of prizefighter ropes. Brick Picnic surrendered to the mercenary grace of his oppugnant. Soon Cottage Apple had joined the fray and was driving his shoulder, with the pride of an unfamiliar stag, into Brick Picnic’s neck. He was claimed by the vanity of the night, by the violence of the street and the sewer-blood pumping beneath its lazy loam. Electric Gazelle sat weeping in the presence of the sweetest, bergamot-soft moonlight, blinking back a tide of gratitude, alone behind the whirring mechanism of the car motor, a spectator to some ancient act of kingmaking. The twins went Rodney King on Brick Picnic. There was blood scored over the pavements and the sweat of the skirmish smelt too fine.

When Edamame Mint’s favourite henchman was genuflecting before the twins and gargling for armistice, Electric Gazelle choked the ignition until it squealed into power and venom once more, and when the brothers deferred to a safe distance with a whip of their hands, our valiant behind the wheel lowered his heel onto the accelerator and palmed the gearstick into second right before Brick Picnic’s droll little frown. The car rolled over their freak antagonist at a handsome cruising speed. By the cold toil of Christ, the bastard looked nought short of a goddamn jackdaw right to the quarrelling end! It’s curtains now, Bubba. Electric Gazelle lashed himself fast to the steering-wheel.

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Obviously

If you want a “u,” you strike
the “u” key, not the “i,” the “b,”
or the “c.” None of us doubts

the design. It’s obvious to all
who lack the genius to create

an algorithm of such majesty
and simplicity. If you want
sherbet, fruit is the only flavor

whether it’s a scoop of sunset,
cloud, winter surf, or sunrise.

Everybody knows the rules,
and nobody needs to tell you
there are six and a half billion

of us, and each has only one
single soulmate. We all know

the truth. Conspicuous misery
born even in our naked numbers
moves none of us to question

the fact. It’s a rule like a ruler,
narrow, straight, stiff, wooden,

useful to measure our decline
in inches, the shuffle of our feet,
and the trim hedges of our yards.

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White Lotus Temple

It begins with
a spark. The wind knows,
slipping through the square-shaped mouth
in dark-grey of a brick furnace.
It’s breathing. Flying up.
Bursting into shapeless flames.
There are people, their eyes
telling a sterile apathy, not going with
their obsessive hands to put
the gifts in. They are murmuring
an ambiguous prayer, to the hopping spirit to
morph piles of four-cornered paper sheets,
which take the form of American dollar,
Hong Kong dollar and Chinese Yuan,
into ashes. They turn around and walk away afterwards.

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The Coffee Bean Prophecies

1

In Laos, when people see Good Luck, they’ll touch you on the arm and ask your name and where you are going. They’ll want to be there when the snake crosses the road, when the monk anoints their wrists with a saffron thread fragrant with sandalwood. Once I saw a rickshaw driver (who’d seen too much of life) flirt with the waitress, the palmist’s daughter, (who was dismayed by his hands). She told him: “Don’t blame your bad luck on migrating gypsies.” There were days I dreaded, those I-feel-disaster-coming-on days. We blamed the curse of the bargain Ukrainian icon I’d bought for a silver coin in Budapest. My wife turned it to face the wall. I remember when the Beachside Good Life Prophesy paid cash-in-hand, when the club boss stepped out of his Porsche, a veritable polar bear turbo-charged in shiny white acrylic moccasins. The turtles would get up from their vodkas and form guides. Three kisses for the Boss! Those were the days, before the sunburnt rioters clogged up the train in spring. I remember how Fotini would dance the dance of smashed plates. For good luck she said. Rickshaw Man remembered when school prawns came wrapped in newspaper. It has remained to this day a luxury in the Andes.

2

So history’s been superseded by a grey funk. The lack of factual reportage in schools, the drought we had to have. It’s bad Feng Shui. It was the Huguenots with their obsession for punctuality. And she was right, always right. It’s 10 years of bad economic management. Too many bad bets on bad folks who can’t pay back. Is it? When they say ‘have a great day’ in the New American Church Bazaar you expected it: Jesus in a Mexican Tortilla, aglow in the shape of a fencepost five minutes before sunrise on November the 12th. If you escaped the tomato factory they called you a diaspora, a lucky migrant. Once, I was lucky to see the Catholic Youth group taking up all the bunks in the Glebe Backpackers and commandeer the PA for a very long weekend. Now I wait in hope. It’s those marble islands, those three garage temples and the Cantonese charlady shouting at me when I was five. We were terrified by the unseasonal gale. But we loved that place before we stared at the future. She foresaw beautiful grandchildren. She saw a Trifecta of arranged marriages so perfect and magical and necessary. Then the missionaries arrived. Where their dark shadow fell, they built their temples of stone. Good fortune wasn’t luck, they said, it was a piece of bone they’d locked in the cellar. It was a glass of blood and a cracker.

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Internal Weather, for Randolph Stow

I dwell in this bone-cave     rocking cup of skull
histories constantly re-writing themselves     weaving

‘brain-waves’          thoughts drift out from
a fatty backwash   veins crawl with grainy information

blood-cells pushed into the white country
in multiples of ten                           you know nothing is lost

we remembered     sand streamed in syllables
lines breaking into phrases          static-sparks         weather
breaks

rain splattered paper       torn memories     flicker
sparks ping against blue tats      a healthy pink tongue

touching porcelain    internal canals   gushing
  woven nests    waves of fine              fragments of shells

Cannot evaporate, can’t die down—we live
at the world’s expense         devouring         pale after-images

with a bad weather-eye      tails of the serifs
chalk-up        fine stainless blades       score the walls of
arteries

a typewriter of bones   tapping   Morse on the spine’s
fret-work       the philosopher’s a machine     ticking out days

skidding down aisles in supermalls      I stand in the hall
in a column of human breath       the sandy desert

polishing finger nails          hair combed and dressed
a boogie with Mondrian     over leagues of broken weather

 
 

Return to Three Poems and Webb Lecture by the Inaugural CAL Chair of Poetry

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Reality Recreated

A transcending wheel of regrets
Sprouts forth wisps of choices.

Which world shall you conquer?

A directory of multiple screens,
Different routes, the same ending,
Where everything is really fake
But the enjoyment is surreally real.

An unhappy fairytale, an enchanted traveler
Bestowed with the gears of the mind.
A clockwork so extensive,
It has gone digital

Like a boy at the toy store,
He plays with what isn’t his,
A remote controller browsing fake realities.

Films of futuristic memories
Resurface on calm waters.
A beautiful portrayal distorted by the ripples of time.

One-time routines, impossible horrors, desired fantasies
Forged in the darkness of Helios
Shattered by glows of the god.

A current future passing,
A thought remaining unexplored

What could tonight’s dreams hold?

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Bukowski at the Track

considers a seven year itch
minus 2555 days of salve
calculates 49 dog years
without a flea dusting
each algorithm he decides
pales to the mediative scratch
of a punter’s knuckle
as he moves
to the tote window

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Obsolescent Music

a piano
built in America
for use in saloon bars
with a high iron frame and a tone
to be heard over a room full of sloshed singers
yet how sweet it could sound
when damped by blankets
and played at 3am by an inspired songwriter

the ivories are chipped like a woodsman’s teeth
and scorched now
by a hundred years of nicotined fingers
but still it’s a sterling object
built to last though inherited
by an evolve or die world where
what man makes man breaks
where he drinks to accelerando
and belts out ballads
with the timbre of falling trees

then there’s the coconut
with its unidentified growth factor
and floating in its glowing white ocean
expectant beings
ready to scale the meat form ensembles
evolve instruments on which to beat out
the rhythms of their tiny as yet
unbreakable hearts

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(untitled)

Taking down her panties
in the bar’s one toilet

she lifts her head
 to the sky
and starts 
asking for God
to take 
her away from all this.

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Conspiracy Theory

You walk your dog in the park. One black
car passes. Then another one, and then
another, but just the half of it. Strong smell of

gasoline. Perhaps this is why a red van
stops next to you, two guys rush out of
it wearing masks – one with the face of Saddam

and the other one like Balzac – and push
you inside. And all goes by the numbers:
duct tape over your mouth, sack smelling of poetry

on your head. They drive in an unknown direction.
You hear all, but you can’t see. The road is long and
only the ship’s horns hint for the inevitable future.

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Longevity

There are ghosts of me here,
and a trace of the old circle
in the grass my father mowed
so we girls could ride our horses
in the park. We reach the metal
gate that leads up to the paddock
and beyond, the house where I
lived when young.

‘I often pause my walking
here to take a rest,’ you say.
‘This road, this house.’
I called out once, at this very gate
to a God I wasn’t sure was there.
And thirty years later here you are:
the odd longevity of prayer.

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Duchy

anenome of anenome in ford datura talking about dransfield as travelling ghost, saying pitcherthislotta urbanmythnamedroppin circa72 sydney (man!) finishplayinbackamoon
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Dransfiel!! Walkininsittingdownan JACKPOT (man!) i read …my own stuff (man!) reachininjacketpocket anslidinonhisbook tofootend
dransfielsays ‘taste’ (man!)
‘can’t call ‘em drug poems’ (man!) – ‘mere modernist tosh’ (man!) – And I pass history on left hand side where life on mars starts over


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Jackpot Economy

a joker Wednesday      dripping
with the good fortune of global warming
      best July rain in sixty years
residents huddle in the basement
      café of their local RSL
picture window onto the carpark
red-welcoming carpet      warm
      as the voice of a favourite machine
they sit around tables sized for intimacy
weaving between chairs and other patrons
      balancing trays of unrationed water
      serviette supplies      a fistful of sugars
eat away a private afternoon      in public
      with a half-serve of roast (the ladies)
and a slice of lemon meringue pie
the new chef cut into 8 instead of 12
      it’s offered with a badge of proud cream
and a sorry for the battleship portion—
slicing through the deck of marshmallow
      the pastry hull with its generous lemon-
custard cargo      sweet/sour as the weather
      a smile trumps the wrinkles
      sun shines its brief blessing
      no need for a flutter today

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Dealing with Early Spring

           Hamburg, 2012

 
A beggar cups his hands and pleads for change
while the sun gilds his palms and fingers
like a bowl possessed by Charlemagne,
standing now in a museum’s vitrine. This gold
is superfluous to him but I check my wallet
and offer a medley of coins.

All the ice has melted; the locks
in the Elbe are overwhelmed
and I wonder what to do
with so much water that can’t
be channeled or held.

In the park the arms of beeches are empty⎯
candelabra lacking candles⎯and glowing
as though being smelted anew. A clear
plastic ball hovers a moment before
it falls, while the boy who launched it,
anticipating, already raises his arms.
I keep my hands tight in my pockets
like a boat clinging to its anchor.

While reading in a café
I lift my eyes from the book;
behind the polished window
the dawn-yellow of buttercups
is almost an affront.
Are they really wholly
oblivious to history?

On the way home, crossing over the bridge,
I decide to give up and toss the page:
it briefly ignites⎯incandescent⎯
before the letters run,
sink into the stream.

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Why Are there So Many Poems about Goldfish?

It’s not as if they speak to us of some tequila
moonscape lost to sense, though the telepathy
of our own hand-coded secrets might. Python
Technology integrates our systems more
effectively, overruns us like mice. To bolt
a metal bar to a sandstone wall and fear the
sheets tied end-to-end will cornuscate a sheer

drop defibrillates louche timefields within the shrill
carapace of our deep down landlords. Inevitably we
besot them and find no end to love but not to truth.
Arguing for the personal address you suggest
your face in a fish tank bobbing like an apple
I can’t just get my teeth around. Swimming
happily in your broad sea of alcohol
,

words that sound similar but are spelt differently
stalk you like Dentistry. You want to turn them
on creates a sequel for fibroid differentiation,
the whippet of rotting floorboards and bilge
cocktails Mates like James Bond in that film
about diving underwater / leaving your first love
to drown in a rough cut fundraising trailer

while all the domesticated carp you can eat still-
chair you like fields of electro-con workers, their
long blond hair and super-ramified orange overalls
Spread Eagled Energy Green spelling I KNOW
WHAT YOU LIKE, daisies and hydrangeas and all
sorts of flowery things like that.

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In Lieu of Feeling

In the dim hours, you’ll ask for a poem about chips, a request you think will unnerve me, but this morning, after a twilight of revolt and insomnia I realise, after reading the latest figures, that a disarmed heart is luckier than a fused one.

Instead of dallying about feelings, let’s direct the mind’s eye to the mauled trajectory of a love-letter sent twice: sent first into the hands of a stranger, and then into bladed basin of an unhinged roulette. Small difference where things ripen––it’s no more than ink on the page that only in part sketches the leaf, fills its pores, mirrors the paisley lines of apron-covered hands.

A shaving bowl on the porch stays as blue as the midnight passionflower which opens its dark centre against the shadows, disappears into further darkness, and loses everything.

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Every Punter Wins a Prize

See how the Fates their gifts allot,
For A is happy; B is not.
—The Mikado

At Maud Cahill’s bookshop I produce a list
of books I’d sooner sell than keep on seeing
on my shelves. It’s time that dust returned to dust.

I know the story, otherwise: they’ll stand
together, till the final purge of all, when heirs
will toss out Kees and Bishop, Pope and Sappho

in the same box with this sad lot who have hung out
on the sidewalks of the mind to beg for cash.
Perhaps their trash is others’ treasure. Maybe

there are people who, determined to have
one of every book that has been printed,
dream of making life-sized pyramids of paper:

who can say? Clive James composed a psalm
of joy to see his enemy’s book remaindered.
I’ve more charity, took pity on the homeless,

brought them in until they nudged aside my friends.
I tell Maud, strike out the ones you never wish
to see. She goes, predictably, to those

I first set down; Ronald, Lynda, Steven, Di,
you others: be advised, the Great Recycler
is at hand. Not for you the antiquarian

dealer, nor suburban op-shop bin. There are more
ways to cure depression – mine, or any future reader’s:
you shall be made one with nature, part

of that infinitude of atoms whence you came.
Your fractured dactyls will go flapping to the earth
to keep down weeds rank as yourself; you boys

who entered like a military band performing Sousa
will go out like that last horse’s tail that leaves
with its last flourish nothing but the scent behind.

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This Wealth of When

suddenly, noticing a lost sixty
            hidden in the blue carvings,

furrows gaping like fish, frugal
            fountain dipping to baptise

white faces, roses to itemise and
            radishes to task, there,

then he is sewn; fingers pool in
            drops on the desk.

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Housie

Before the first call of the day
numbers grow bright,
illuminate globes tinkering in and out of darkness,
Christmas lights or an imperfect grin,
a momentary promise
amidst gold-rimmed plates of pikelets and Arnotts.
A blue rinse array of perms and cardigans,
punters fanned by dull slow rotors,
low and familiar murmurs of weather,
gardening, and Tony Barber.

Nell, my Nan, spreads her many cards –
she has all the mystery of a Tarot reader.
A circle of black and white beads at her neck.
Outside the wooden hall the greyhounds
are training, chasing a hare around the track.
Our tables span like ribs across the floor,
Nell reaches to straighten my cards.

‘Eyes down’ and a palpable hush falls –
a last teaspoon tinkle raises eyebrows.
Orderly rows of pens and daubers
rise and fall as number squares
are blotted like missing teeth,
            both the fives, 55
            me and you, that’s 2
            it’s sweet 16 – key of the door
            and stop work, 65

someone calls ‘Yes’ and it’s a line.

A cardiganned enforcer
gives the nod to the line caller,
            and we forget to breathe –
            the lights, the numbers,
my Nan’s lost to the strange incantation
two fat ladies
I’m watching the globes,
and finally it’s ‘Housie’.

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The Railway Platform Weight and Fortune Telling Machine

looks like a casino sun
flowering in the night, full
of calibrated science,flashing
coloured lights and a Newton’s
disc that refuses to stop
spinning until the last pollen
of weight left by that moth
of a man before me is blown
away by the wind from the train
that passes. After a throated
clang it spat out a cut cookie-
coloured card on which is
written your lucky number
and a hooking line about fate
in proportion to your weight
in the world.

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