Sonic Twin? A Poetics of Poetic Radio

When I reflect on the last decade of my engagement with poetry, I hear a presence shadowing many of my encounters. ‘Hear’ is an apt verb, because this presence is aural. What has so insistently stalked my encounters with poetry is the medium of radio, which acted as a bridge to poetry, catalysing my absorption of the form at a formative time. Radio appeared when I was seeking other ways into an art that was energising, perplexing, and intimidating – the latter when it seemed too serious about its singularity. I remember listening, at this time, to a sprawling acoustic art program on ABC RN’s The Night Air, as I drove home from the industrial outskirts of the city; I remember my feeling of bliss, as my ears and mind were opened by the experience. I count myself fortunate to have caught the tail end of a period of sustained acoustic experimentation on RN, though I missed the aurally plentiful The Listening Room (1988-2003) and its precursor Surface Tension. This tail end has been long, and has included Poetica (1997-2014) and Soundproof – which ran admirably for two years from the end of 2014 to the start of 2017, during a period of relentless budget cuts and a shift towards more generalist and journalistic programming at the station. I’ve spent the time since that first enchanted experience hearing poetry nearly as often as reading it, and producing other poets’ work for radio and podcast (including the use of music and digital effects, in the tradition of the programs mentioned here) more than writing it. Some of this audio work is now lost, airing as it did in the years before regular institutional podcasting; most of it was given a home on RN’s Earshot and Poetica.

Radio programs used to have a sense of ephemerality, with their airing also a vanishing. It may be for this reason – the impermanence of the medium – that literary critics do not routinely listen for poetic resonances in more artful radio. This is despite the techno-spiritual link between print poetry and radio (particularly cultural radio): they often share a quiet way of being in the world, compared at least to commercial films and novels, which tend to announce their phenomenological affects (‘THIS SUMMER …’ / ‘gripping’; ‘compelling’; ‘unputdownable’). Another reason we routinely hear around, or hear past, radio when we seek out poetry is that modern and postmodern poetry, in its diversity of forms, is not so singularly fixated on sound – and so the rhythmic voice and poetic sound on the air mightn’t immediately strike us as akin to the poetry we read. But from a cultural history perspective it’s surprising that we don’t talk more of radio in the same breath as poetry, given that so many prominent Australian poets have also worked as literary radio producers. Among these poet / producers are John Thompson, Martin Harrison, Amanda Stewart, Robyn Ravlich, John Tranter, and Mike Ladd, all of whom have / had significant careers at the ABC, making radio art or literary radio programs.

In this essay I trace an understanding of the poetic that is grounded in aurality, in order to hear where poetic radio occurs. This demarcates a scope: there is obviously more to poetry than the aural, even in the basic fact that print poets work with language, which is part-aural and part-visual. There are also many poems – concrete poems, typographically experimental poems, digital poems – that may be structured or motivated more by a visual impulse, or equally by visual and aural impulses. Exceptions to definitions I present may be reason for another essay, one on the visually poetic dimensions of a primarily aural medium like radio.

I try to show how sound in radio may be poetic: this goes beyond programs that simply transmit recorded poetry, and into sound design, including the use of music and non-verbal sounds. The essay acts as a bridge – like that in Robyn Ravlich’s ‘Mostar,’ explored below – connecting areas of criticism that are usually disconnected: formal poetics, radio theory, and cultural histories of poetry and radio. In linking these different areas I hope to expand our listening, and to add to our vocabulary for thinking about such radio when we encounter it.

1: The sound of a medium

Radio is a medium of pure sound, which may include linguistic as well as non-linguistic sound. It may include speech as well as music: representational as well as non-representational sound. Poetry, in our highly literate age, is most often a medium of sound as well as sight. Literary scholars like Adalaide Morris and Garrett Stewart have reminded us, over the last two decades, that when we read texts ‘silently’ to ourselves, we are engaged in the sensory experiences of both sounding and seeing the text. In the case of poetry, most obviously metrical verse prior to the twentieth century, there is a lot to be sounded out. This is evident in the terms that traditional poetics uses in formal analyses of poetry, many of which refer to sound: rhythm, rhyme, cadence, alliteration, assonance, consonance, onomatopoeia, etc.

Poetry has historically had a close relationship to sound, and this relationship is apparently clear at the level of formal analysis, but becomes difficult to define upon closer inspection. Sound is fundamental to the system of poetic analysis known as prosody, which attempts to ‘scan’ poetry for its sounds. Lines of poetry are read for their sonic patterns – which syllables are stressed and which unstressed; what rhythm this creates, and where this deviates; and the reason for rhythmic choices, in relation to meaning. Such metrically regular poetry (in the work of Tennyson, for instance) is exemplary of the following definition:

Poetry – like prose, and like music – is an art of SOUNDS moving in TIME. For particular purposes, these sounds may be analysed into various units; for example, into PHONES (the smallest distinguishable speech sounds) or, in English and in many other languages, into SYLLABLES. (Shapiro and Beum 1)

This is a fairly loose definition: if prose and music are also arts of sounds moving in time, how can they be distinguished from poetry? The conflation of poetry and music is more considered in definitions of the lyric that refer to its relationship to song, and to a tradition of musical accompaniment. Daniel Albright defines the lyric this way:

I believe that lyric poetry is fundamentally an attempt to approximate the condition of music within the slightly alien and prosaic domain of words, whether through phonemic intricacies or through the frustrating of semantic reference or through the presentation of transcendental ideas or of absolute feelings. (ix)

Although it is true that the ‘frustrating of semantic reference’ can be an attribute of both music and (lyric) poetry, Albright also claims that lyric poetry ‘approximate[s] the condition of music … through the presentation of transcendental ideas’ – but how can music – that is, music without language – present an idea? We associate ideas with language, not with music. Maybe he means that music presents transcendental feeling, while poetry presents transcendental ideas.

The radio theorist Andrew Crisell has argued that ‘the broad emotive power of music enables it to be combined with words and/or sounds as a way of signifying something outside itself, and some of these forms of signification are worth considering in detail’ (216). Crisell’s reference to the signifying power of music when combined with other sound is reminiscent of David McCooey’s notion of the ‘poetry soundtrack’ (a term he coined, for a form he works in), which are ‘sonic objects made up of original text-based poetry, music, and sound design. The term deliberately echoes the “film soundtrack”: each engages a totality of sound – speech, music, and noise – and each employs audio technology to produce its complex effects’ (McCooey par. 7). Here music is represented as part of a larger harmony, lending its ‘emotive power’ to boosting the signifying power of speech, while resonating with the meaning of that speech.

I want to pause here to note that locating the ‘poetic’ in sound and musicality does not exclude free verse, even if it tends to pattern sound less regularly, and is more playful with the look of the poem on the page – with its visual dimension – compared to metred verse. As Derek Attridge notes:

Once poems started to be circulated in print as well as recited from memory or from a precious manuscript, their look on the page became significant, and the history of English poetry could be written as a history of the gradually increasing importance of its visual dimension – but always as this interacts with its aural dimension. (2)

Print invigorated poetry’s awareness of the visual. Along with other popular media such as film and television (and more recently, the smartphone), it arguably primed the domination of the visual in our imagination – what scholars have termed our ‘ocularcentrism’ (Lacey 280). The oral and aural made a comeback in the second half of the twentieth century, thanks to technologies of sound reproduction. Walter Ong has called this resurgence of orality/aurality a ‘secondary orality’: a mediated speaking and hearing facilitated by technologies such as the phonograph, telephone, radio, and television in a primary literate culture (11). This resurgence of the oral was tied, for some artists, to an experience of deeper subjectivity (though Derrida would later term the value judgment implicit in this as ‘phonocentrism’). Michael Davidson has argued that, in the mid-1950s, American poets such as Allen Ginsberg, Paul Blackburn, LeRoi Jones (Amiri Baraka), and Jerome Rothenberg turned to sound recording technologies to reclaim their connection to the self, via mediated orality, as ‘orality signifies unmediated access to passional states, giving testimony to that which only this poet could know’ (97). Using magnetic recording technology as part of their creative process, poets at this time sought as well to re-claim a self that had been appropriated by the state (via audio surveillance) in a burgeoning Cold War that eroded the privacy of citizens: ‘voice was a contested site in a battle over identity and agency’ (99).

While we’re riding this wave into media culture, it’s worth noting that the increasing availability of sound recording technologies intersects with the trajectory of sound poetry – that other realm of sonic practice that runs alongside the modern tradition of the lyric, and print poetry more generally. Sound poets have always sought to push poetry beyond its representation of meaning, and of the authorial body. New technologies of sound recording allowed poets to process the voice in unprecedented ways:

The development of the tape recorder after World War 2 … led to an important link between sound poetry and audio recording, especially through the construction of ‘unperformable’ works, such as Henri Chopin’s sound poems, from using (and misusing) tape recorders. Such a ‘tradition’ developed through the 1960s and 1970s, as seen in the work of John Giorno and Bob Cobbing, through to the digital era, in which poets such as Christian Bök and Amanda Stewart use digital means to produce audio works that anatomise speech and deconstruct semantic meaning. (McCooey par. 13)

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11 Works by Paola Balla


Paola Balla | Untitled | 2010

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Do more, do better

1.

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11 Works by Hoda Afshar


Hoda Afshar | Untitled #2

Behold

Behold was made unexpectedly, and without design. I was travelling in a city that I sometimes return to, and I got to know a group of gay men. There, where they live, these men (and many others like them) are mostly left to be. But only on the condition that they lead one part of their lives in secret. Rarely, that is, do their bodies ever meet in open honesty outside, in public. Only here, in this bathhouse, where their desire to be seen and embraced by others – just to be and to be held – is played out the partial openness of these four closed walls.

The bathhouse no longer exists. But while it still did, these men invited me to document it and a little glimpse of their lives in it. We arrived, but I was not allowed to enter. So we rented the place, and for a few hours I took pictures while these men played themselves performing their lives for my peering camera, in order that their desire to be seen might be realised, in part at least, here in the world of the images – in the act of beholding, where the bare thereness of life is transformed from mere appearing or appearance, into something more meaningful … into recognition.

In the Exodus, I Love You More

In the Exodus, I love you more is an ongoing series that I began in 2014. It’s a record of my changing vision of, and relationship to, my homeland, Iran – a relationship that has been shaped by my having been away. Distance is something that I embrace in making this series, rather than clinging nostalgically to my image of “home” or to a narrative of painful “exile”. I try to turn distance into a kind of seeing. To let what is both there and not there shine through the surface. To let the surface speak.  It is an attempt to explore the interplay of presence and absence in the history of Iran and in Iranians’ lives during a time of great transition, and to discover the truth that lies there in their never-ending meeting, in-between.

Under Western Eyes

Under Western Eyes (2013-2014) is a series of manipulated studio photographs that combine, in pop-art style, familiar signs of Islamic identity to challenge the dominant representations of Islamic women that circulate in Western art galleries. Through pastiche and redeployment of these familiar signifiers, this series attempts to locate the origin of these representations, and the reason for their predictability, in the Western gaze. Thus, these images aim to critique, through mirroring back, a certain audience expectation and desire in relation to how ‘the female Islamic subject’ is seen; for it is this expectation that partially explains the recurrence of the same few signifying elements in the works of Middle Eastern artists – above all the veil. The central idea, then, is that such (self) representations often depend on, and thus re-produce, familiar signs of ‘otherness’ that cater to Western viewers’ and the art markets’ demand for ‘Islamic’ artworks that highlight their cultural difference in safe and predictable ways. At the same time, such representations also serve to position the Islamic subject in relatively fixed ways vis-à-vis the ideal type of Western viewer. She is oppressed, tradition-bound, and inferior, but secretly – beneath the veil – ‘just like me’: i.e. fashion-loving, rebellious, and sexually-free.

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Waiting

Would you like to fall in love?
I want to ask.
I’ll make soup.

It is winter and she is pale,
blowing on chapped hands
as we stand
waiting.

What are you reading?
I want to ask.

What are you listening to?
I want to ask.

She has the kind of ears I like:
sticking out a bit
with her hair tucked behind.

In the end I say nothing,
lowering my eyes as she raises hers.

I think she may have cut her own fringe.

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forgetting as commodity

grandma disembodies her youth
as if famine isn’t a weapon of war
once she was pregnant
for the fourteenth time
but her husband doesn’t know my mother’s
name from Vietnam’s humidity
to knowing snow in her bones Oklahoma
she said privilege is the ability to plan your burial plot
or to know where your ashes will be disseminated
after mating mother octopuses don’t starve to death
her protoplasm betrays her
epiphanies are nutritious
my grandma said
if you can afford them
my frustration of inheriting cultural loss is equal
to Aristotle’s declaration that octopuses were dumb ocean mass
dear three hearted cephalopods,
the reflexes from grandma’s left fingers
are gone infected from scrounging aluminum recyclables
the past orbits her present strength
oh the difficulty of guessing a tree’s age
when admiring its crisp shadow
an octopus’s production of natural pigment
harms enemies and the self
sometimes knowing where you come from
prevents growth
old leaves fall to make space for new buds
what is post fragmentation
if emptiness is a pretense
what is queer visibility in commodity culture
but spatial subversions
grandma taught me that when octopuses
can’t escape their own ink cloud they cease

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Gathering the Rocks

When I think of you now,
I see you in space
with your arms full of rocks.
It’s winter.
The fields are bleached
and bare.
The rocks are brown –
volcanic rocks,
pitted and domed.
They have to be just right.
We’re gathering them
for our garden.

The fields are spacious,
flat, filled with afternoon light,
dull-grey.
You stand up high
against the horizon.
The rocks are round
in your arms.
They shelter against your dark coat
like breasts, like children.

Our dog barks behind you.
Chasing birds in faraway fields,
she runs, her breath streaming.
Over by the highway,
our baby waits, her face
a tiny planet in the car window.
Who can say what distance
her eyes go round,
behind shadowed glass?

Planets we are, all four,
circling each other.
Rocks and space …
This is our family.
It has to be just right
to plant them in our garden.

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Equinox

Cartograms are almost impossible to create by hand.

When bastardized versions of indigenous culture are let loose on the tourist market, there can be no margin for error.

An ersatz Indian arrowhead found in a grave in the small Southern Illinois town we both grew up in meant that the transmission was easier to shift.

Three important methods of healing, with special reference to the Yuan & Ming dynasties, were discovered in the National Library of Australia collection of Crystal Clear Transparent Snap-On Cell Phone Hard Case Covers.

Everything seemed in a state of flux.

He did not consider the floodplain to be a part of the creek.

All that inherent uncertainty stemming from the nearby wine country.

A metal pen point was patented in 1803.

Is fashion a form of expression?

Dobre wiesci z Mazowsza Rock In Minsk Festival `08.

Every new user is indoctrinated to believe that their bodies belong to them & only them.

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Nebula

I wish upon this not star

– this chemical spill of interstellar death -

that I will be able to spirit these dead things I carry

these heaviest in my heart dead things

away from me and

catapult them into the outermost reaches of space

so they can suffocate

so they can freeze

so
 

a million memories of you and I and us and ours

can burst into smithereens and finally die

and not have to wane with the everlasting ache

of an infinity of love lost

our life lost

and each particle in a globular cluster of hurt so proud

can be left to wander off

to tumble themselves away

and try to know themselves again

alone



and from nothing

a fire will strike

a star will ignite

and something new will live

and not know what had to die

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Mistakes

Ti-tree flowers mistaken for snow
A bird on an aimless afternoon
How much time is left to me
and why are you walking ahead?

A bird on an aimless afternoon
Clouds gather like bargain hunters
and why are you walking ahead?
Time is an advancing avalanche.

Clouds gather like bargain hunters
Rain prepares to change its mind
Time is an advancing avalanche
Weather a recalcitrant child.

Rain prepares to change its mind
Days like an absent family
Weather a recalcitrant child
counting the hours on both hands now.

Days like an absent family
Sea alone belongs to me
counting the hours on both hands now
Ti-tree flowers mistaken for snow.

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Nights of Excesses

for Sean O’Callaghan

A Kalashnikov, is an AK-47.
Americium, is an actinide, and has
an Atomic number of 95. The sun, is 93 million miles away.
The word punch (in Hindustani) means 5.
The Dead are mourned, in Muslim cultures for 40 days.
5 and 6 are a Ruth-Aaron pair. 12,648,430 (in
hexadecimal) is C0FFEE, and coffee troubles the mind.
There are 6 feet in a fathom; 16 people in
a tug-of-war; 8 one end & 8 the other. Love is
a score of nothing. “81”, the symbol of the Archangel;
“59”, a stupid number; say “Sorry” / “Sorry!”
The Torah commands you to love, respect, and
protect a stranger — 36 times! Talking about, talking
the hind leg off a donkey; the √2, is irrational.
72º, room-temperature. When David slew Goliath he had
5 stones on him. In Neo Nazi circles “28” stands
for Blood & Honour. Shostakovich scored with
a Symphony in B flat (minor). 10 – 9, say again. 10 – 2, copy!
An Arabic proverb sez, to understand a people, you
have to live with ‘em for 40 days. 47 is the telephone number
of Norway. The length of a cricket pitch ______ 22 yards.
There are 86 metals in the Periodic Table. The .45 belongs to
the Smith’n’Western. The 13th Hour, is the hour
of darkness; “25”, the name of a card game in Ireland.
Psalm 101 tells us to lead a blameless life. And as
we Exit those bars and side-streets, and all those
nights of excesses, we fall asleep (mixing up all our
emotions, with listening) to the BBC. The sun, is 93 million
miles away. The Atomic number of Rhodium is 45.
There are 17 strokes in a Chinese ideogram.
Picasso completed Guernica at 55. The word punch (in
Hindustani) means “close by”. There are 18 wheels
on the back of a trailer, and 1 makes 5.

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Ghosts of Instagram

The sky is already curating stars and the unseen
creatures are crawling out of their burrows and
into my ears by the time the sea confronts me.

My friends complain I’ve been far for
too long but still the tug of return is too easy to ignore.
I sit and watch the light depart from the Adriatic

as it does from my grandmother. Thirteen thousand
kilometres is a bit much (isn’t it?) to go watch
someone die. She would love this coastline though,

something about the ocean exhaling waves onto the sand
always brought her a smile. Frail Proust tells me people don’t die
all at once, but it’s like they’re travelling abroad.

Well the dead don’t clog up my Instagram with
obnoxious photos of old buildings or their beach bodies.
Though maybe I’d prefer it if they did and Nana

could soon post a pic with lips puckered while wearing
oversized sunglasses and an ancient monument behind her.
And then she can take a selfie with Grandad so he can say hi too.

Last minute plane tickets really are expensive. When did
the water become so dark that it disappeared into the sky?
I’m disappointed that the ocean isn’t reflecting stars,

that would’ve looked good on my grid.

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things I left out

you steal other people’s stories, make yourself star
confess by email solipsistic, I know
you have the kind of eyes that put Isabella Rossellini
out of work in movies or so she alleges
smashed-avocado green cosmonauts
ski slope cheeks

you invent national tours
I’m pleased for you but when you concoct
the A3 sheet of paper on which to write the dates down
wouldn’t A4 do?

you are a goose for compliments
long-necked short-legged you follow them around
you like to make me jealous even
a cat will do
your texts lack stops and so leave me hanging

fact is, Einstein said it best
you are spooky action at a distance

sometimes I become you when you’re not around

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Like trying to remember a dream

David Lynch is holding me underwater, one hand covering my mouth and the other
stroking my hair.
Through the water bubbles I can see that he is
smiling.
I’m afraid to take in a breath because.
There’s no telling where I’ll end up.

There’s someone standing over his shoulder and at first I think
it’s Jesus
with that dark skin and thick beard. Part of me thinks
this wouldn’t be such a bad way to go.
Part of me thinks, hey Jesus, let’s get together. And also, no.

I think I’m kicking my feet but I’m not sure. Do I still have feet?

David Lynch looks angry. He is not
smiling
He is stroking my hair but now he’s pulling it, pushing his fingers to the roots, my scalp,
and scraping.
It doesn’t hurt, but I think, I’d like to get up now.

My chest hurts where my lungs are shrinking into empty plastic bags.
That you might kick out of the way and they might get swept up
under car tyres or end up in landfill.
Those are my lungs.

David Lynch is looking back at Jesus. They talk but I don’t hear them because I’m
underwater. Jesus nods and leans closer, over me. I think he’s wearing a dark suit, and
I want to tell him, you look nice and maybe we should go out somewhere after this.
Like, for thickshakes at Rosie’s.

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Lakewater

We speed past the same breed of low‐tide pelicans
I remember
from when I lay with you,
amongst the flattened reeds and upturned kayaks.
Everything smells of barbecues and lakewater
as we ride east, now, toward the sea,
where the teapot fumes from the smokestacks
merge with the upside-­down cauliflowers,
and you question our relationship early today,
on a cloudy public holiday.

We cross the newly raised cycle tracks crowning the flumes
and plane off-­road into a squawk of cormorants.
Our bikes pin-­wheel through the marshy puddles,
splattering black mud on lycra, till we collapse on the far grass.
I smell the dankness of the urban run-­off, and the cool water,
and remember my frustrated haste,
and your slow and easy laughter.
We eat soba noodles today from our panniers,
then remount and roar back west, past the pines
and the inert fisherman, unwaving
in their timeless fashion,
and I wonder if I too am frozen,
ever-­circling.


I believed, back then that
love, far from growing, is a growth,
like algae, like the houses
fusing to the edge of the lake,
a slice of waterfront
that we must race to clutch, at a speed you loathed
until you couldn’t anymore.
Now you and I fly on carbon fiber,
and I want to tell you that I love you, quickly,
before the setting sun pierces the vegetables.
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How Could You

In darkness slicked with humidity,
I practice nocturnal habits
scented by anal secretions.
Milked glands daub human skin,
rain-soaked undergrowth
breeds my musky smell.
Maligned for the spread of a deadly virus,
I am culled in a blame-dance seeking revenge.
Is it I who infect – or you?
A creative hunter in a love tryst
with cherries from the coffee tree
I peddle to your desire,
the bean survives gut juices to yield
kopi luwak
sumptuous for its rarity.

You wear my arse,
drink my shit,
curse rivers,
devastate my habitat.

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No. 5

A.
nathos, althos, ardan
crept willow aches the soil
*
whose names are these
(whose hands)
now kino stains the trunk
your brothers slipjoint gleaned
when we were younger

grasps age cinders
become
sequence without object
and mothlight bracks the edges
of motion in

carnations clove
double
suss the tatted palm tree cheiro
bruised knuckles feed cunts
eating play-doh

hachures collect
contours out of date
chainlink hatches light
within so without
thought (lines clade thus)

menthol cracks again yawks from a
merc
do not go gentle
as the moon indels
its image is

always riddled through reaction
rue
for the visual nerve
two three pregabalin
to relax

i guess there was more to it than
that
felled limn that lyric displaced
along creeks swerve
by this yearned

for pining i have learned bijol
dyes the morning
(occupying
erasure so
lines distrail

under flight paths) past figured youse material
of my sole worn
in places how
locus stems

aspect descends in colours asked not to be named
anaphor leaf
nodes kin to trees both
senses

inseperable as the whorls in greased fingertips
tapped eucalypt turps blind
preserves (thins)
the would

in amber sets each sun the great western highways enjambment
overrun
parra grass
harrowed

cortege to pinegrove (will gestured wisps the streetlights through them) still
far windshears
beat catena
for

you the draughts cohere lucida these plains border immanence
replica (orchid
and the
wasp)

what culm measures are buried here weather bore (dendrite fossils / window frost
daylight
breaking
through

warms) rim articulated stick spoke skrt out the cul-de-sac telegraph
poles (the
copula)

aspire tns hanged from the wire approach birds at these distances
we swallow (boot)
the

herron blue without water crowd touched crwth the lyre crows youse spelt what indifference
broods
chord

dissonance resolved tense holds the sirens too late whose names are these whose hands now kino
stains the

(coral pea larra ilma hillcrest jasmine greystanes marion equity constance eddy)

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You Have Nice Eyes: Three Postcards

A man swings open the universe and hangs up his coat.
This arched vault of darkness.
I will take a bus through empty fields
and learn the names
of buried men.
I will learn to sing
the karaoke of the drifting bees.
See how the lightning strikes the hive
the sunflowers darken.
And once you looked at me your eyes were grey.
A silver train crossing a quiet sea.
A cage fighter in a park.
A shallow rain lake at the end of winter.
Cicadas humming
like bonsai.

See how the lightning strikes the hive
the sunflowers darken.

We passed a bonfire
I turned but then it was gone.
And then a car
the light was on they were oblivious.
You find your way between us
with your phone torch
and once you looked at me your eyes were grey.
Wolf of the forest
I have cut the eyes from the woodcutter.
I lay before you
this apple slowly falling
through deep neural orchards
eyes closed.
Your crystals spin
colours quiet on your wall.

See how the lightning strikes the hive
the sunflowers darken.

Flowers bloom on the mounds of fox dens
and the hair of a polar bear
is transparent.
In winter foxes go across the ice
scavenging for colour.
And the word for bear is wanderer.
The fur so dense
the heat
never bleeds.
The river freezes on top.
The ice runs hollow.
Like abandoned cars in city parks
the bears
waiting for spring
sleep on the dry river stones.
And once you looked at me your eyes
were grey.

See how the lightning strikes the hive
the sunflowers darken.

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Taking Care

Today my house smells of mangos, christmas trees and heat,
the air is sticky and clings to the inside of my lungs like an idea
grew legs and crawled down my throat to make a home in my gut.
Now the concept of change makes me nauseous
bile rises from my stomach like the time I downed half a bottle of vodka
and everyone was so impressed they thought it might’ve been water but
my mouth tasted like kerosene, i could’ve breathed fire.
I just wanted to forget that I was growing

When we danced on the road and
you watched me laugh at the idea of being hit by a bus
i can’t apologise for the chemicals in my brain but I’m sorry,
forgiving, forgiven, for giving you reason to be concerned.
But i’m glad
You dialled the number when my eyes were too blurred to see,
my voice too slurred and broken by tears to be understood,
the world doesn’t deserve my inconsistencies.

We went from dancing on the street
to playing chess between sheets,
before the world turned my stomach
and red lingerie stained the bathroom tiles
I cried because I saw the way you looked at me,

It broke my heart the way i broke the porcelain cup
that used to sit on that ugly, tan-coloured shelf
and maybe i was missing doorways,
steps, and the point to this madness,
maybe it wasn’t worth the thirteen hours running
from the couch to the toilet and back,
a new bruise each trip, you,
holding back my hair.

It wasn’t just the cup that lay shattered on
that floor, our floor.
Your floor?
How was I to know I wasn’t welcome anymore,
Where were the warning signs?
“No trespassers allowed”?
I didn’t crawl through a fence to get here.

Tomorrow my house will smell of rain, cut grass and winter,
I’ll add another blanket to my bed to keep warm.

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Having a Hoegaarden Met Jou

From my balcony
I can hear the bells
of the two churches
ringing at once
oranges and lemons
lemons and lemons
two lemon halves
on a shelf
in our fridge
each half cut
from a different lemon
why should there be two
of everything
churches
lemons
windowsill tulips

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Impossible Images or; a list of things i cant describe –

– Dribbling, overflowing soda water
– Clinking plates passed
– Fidgeting w/ a ring and/or tightly bound bracelet
– Peeling an apple (Ozu)
– Snapping green beans
– Dog-eared postcards
– Garlic stained fingers
– A kettle’s steam
– Wiping a whiteboard with a blackened fingertip
– A flicked lightswitch
– Emptied waterbottle
– Painted nails
– Clotheslines
– Slabs of concrete,
wetted,
crack-filling
grains emulsified, paste-like
head full of it
buoyant and weighted
bruised, battered, chipped
swelling welts stuck
blistering and pendulum-like
swinging
toothpaste tubes
squeezed out
between a thought
butter wormed through the holes of a cracker
wafer
thinned to
the colour of a panic attack

The others will have to
Wait for an apt description
Wait ‘till I’m flayed raw
from an untied shoelace
unspooled fabrics
wretched

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from Conglomerates

Myself I saw the first tender shoots of Gehry
thumbnails planted two-and-a-half blocks from
the beach, Sydney Eastern Standard Time.
That good ideas pitch us forward
is a mid-week provocation. This good idea makes
the same old view newly visible, think high relief,
imaginative, if not imaginable. For example
my tech friends pose like honest grammarians
and yet the tinselled evenings lapse. All the heavy
furniture can be scrubbed back and sold on.
Just leave a cyclamen for me at the reception desk.
Give a thought for other sprung apart things.
The network signal is too bad. I heard about a
to-and-fro, that the people in question
are a phenomenon. And I saw the striking close-up.
Some would argue we’re in the midst of a tactical
rainstorm, given the changeable
definition of a rainstorm. But when will it rain?
I’m not blameless. The reception desk
is overflowing with cyclamen. Have you ever
attended a worse party. I didn’t anticipate it.
There aren’t any crisps. That person in the corner,
we started out as neighbours and were close for a
time. Now we signal nonsense from across the park.
The park represents absolute finitude. It’s a sticky
place; the infant years, childhood, adulthood
– no matter what, this park has problems.
Sydney Eastern Standard. I figured that one out.
It’s the conclusion of a novel I’ve already
decimated. My novel about venue closures.
But the people around me are looking
more and more spirited, is it about posture.
They move in a silent figure-eight. What kind of
party. I’m fearful of nearly every decision, so
I’ve altogether stopped opening my windows.
That’s personal. Day and night. Myself, I. Let’s talk:
Say I Do Say Yes, will I need to supply and carry
my own bricks? I can heat up the bean mix. Leave
a cyclamen at the doorstep if there isn’t any room.
After the heavy furniture get rid of the lighter
items – table settings, cushions – especially get rid
of what’s bulky. Please Forgive My No,
if it happens. I’m a maniac. That bulk seriously
contributes – rid yourself of bedspreads, yoga mats
– and really, all of your linen. What would you
do now with a word like honesty? There aren’t any
crisps. I’ll Probably Say Yes. I’d keep the wardrobe
pieces that can be worn in multiple configurations,
like inside-out or back-to-front, or across seasons.
It’s very good to plant out the seedlings, look how
cramped the roots. Next time. That’s something
I know about. Look how colourful the salad. Look
how sequined the view. Look how dynamic they are
as a couple. Look at that little dog running.
I can fill you in about everything.
Don’t think I’m so sensitive as to have not, or never.

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Grounds for hope

When necessary,
I’ll build a face, of course I’ll build a face
I won’t mind a bit I’ll make every part the
teeth mouth ears nose and with uncompromising
style.

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Apologies to Maribyrnong River, I Always Called You a Creek

It seemed to me that the river had risen twice in size since yesterday, like yeast left in the sun. I could see you had the rings of Saturn beneath your eyes. It had been a year of heavy rain and all or nothing again. You said our relationship, like all lucrative technologies, had built in obsolescence. I was always listing forwards, in your presence. I said the bend, from bird’s eye view, might look like giant ampersand. You said descriptions were always cooler than reality, like how an orrery is prettier than the telescopic night sky. Besides, birds, like this dialogue, were going the way of the dinosaurs. A ring-tailed possum ran across the bike-trail in broad daylight, a well known omen of moments of what the fuck. You bemoaned the lack of wi-fi. Suddenly I felt self-alienated and salty, so to speak. We parted company like perforated saladas. I walked down to tidal reaches and realised, no, I’d never been here before. All this time I’d been thinking of Moonee Ponds Creek.


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