The Blurst Bitch

It is a truth universally acknowledged
That a single man in possession of a good fortune
Must be in want of a dumb bitch bride
Jane Austen sort of wrote that
And then I wrote it down
I’m the queen of writing dumb things down
And the king of not deleting them
These are the riches of my noble lands
The Kingdom of Dumbitchwriteria
Adjacent to: Genovia AND
Duloc
And all the fictional movie kingdoms
Which make up the dull impermanence of my mind

People are always talking about man’s hubris
When they could be talking about man’s pubis
It’s like… here lies me, Ozymandius, in my bubble bath of sand
Spitting on all who pass me and shitting beneath the sand
Split my swan neck watch the dumb bitch juice flow
I mean the creative juices
I mean the red wine and coke zero
I mean the dumb bitch juices

I’ve got dumb-bitch-itis
My organs slick, sick with talent and insight
Like a stupid chicken stuffed inside a stupid duck stuffed in a stupid turkey
I have so many layers I’m like an onion
I have so many layers I am an onion
But I also have a fructose allergy
Get me away from me!

I have nothing special about me
I don’t even have my wits
Each morning I wake up and it’s a little later in the day of my life
I’m roaring towards something
I’m snoring like a freight train towards a distant station
Where cheap cigarette girls sell
Petit packets of petit mort

Faster than a lil Lana Del Rey of light
Between Madonna’s thighs
Out out brief candle
Life is just a tear-jerk shadow
Life is just a knee-jerk shallow
Life is just a circle jerk meadow

& I’m lying here so daintily
Thinking: my god life is so flimsy like the first dinosaur-bird
Let me die out too young and so pretty yet such a bore

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Lovely Windows

Broad sand flats, crows and gulls on the verge,
white lines in the sky; on the other side,
past Flat Holm island, Cardiff; no border,
just a sign in both English and Welsh,
on our way to Swansea. Wet, mist and streams,

thick reeds, old stations by the railway.
Years have passed; the longest tide,
the promenade where we took Bailey for a walk,
how you had to vacuum our flat,
my eyes weeping every day. It was too much,

the lovely windows on either side, the tall grass
in the yard, the wind and seeds on the sill;
I remember it, the steep cemetery, the last light.
How you did all you could to stop my tears,
the table we sat at, the lounge I could not lie on.

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The Black Cockatoos

On photographs by Leila Jeffreys

As if, surely,
they recognise
her joy in them,

wear it welcomingly
on their own gaze,
they create, with her,

a mutual stillness.
Then her finger
moves.

Some carry stories,
cryptically
hidden but present,

of dispossession
from empires of
fruited green,

from wide-armed
darknesses hung with
seed cones – brought down,

brought down fast,
to create miles of
moneyed space.

Let each gaze speak.
Where there is gentleness
let gentleness speak,

or feisty idiosyncrasy
or curiosity
or spry charm.

Even as the studio light
plants a white moon
in each eye

these cockatoos reveal
their essential selves,
enter, inhabit

an out-of-time poise,
everything stripped back
to wonder.

Have so many losses
in our overlapping worlds
wrought a new intimacy –

with each bird offering
freely, a knowledge
beyond our own?

Each portrait gives
a side or three-quarter view,
the single mandalic eye,

brownish black,
a pool of awareness,
lucid and deep.

The Red-tailed females
have particles of gold leaf
strewn across

breast, face feathers,
their counterpart flaunts
a mirage-tincture

of turquoise ready to
shift, to further subvert
varnished black.

On the Yellow-tailed,
near-gold cups the edge
of each scalloped feather,

forms traceries
on the recumbent wings,
glows from cheek-puffs.

Their given names are
Nora, Melba, Rosie
and Pete, his crest and head

a furore of feathers,
that centred eye
all the more steadfast.

Akalla is the Glossy black,
recently ill,
still gathered into herself

but wearing a humble pride,
her measure of gold
dusted around her throat.

And what of Kirra,
a Carnaby’s black cockatoo,
the species most under threat:

deliciously, delicately
beautiful in plumage
and in her mien,

crossing a line somewhere
to share in our nature,
allow us to share in hers.

From the photographer
with her spellbound patience
no smile-provoking jokes –

though with cockatoos
themselves, the risk
is always there.

The miniature studio,
world within world,
a bough its only prop,

is an open cage of light,
this imaging
an act of tending.

If you wait long enough
you can begin to see,
even to feel

the spirit of these birds,
their verve, resilience,
their wild, raw joy,

to long for their voices,
raucous and vivacious,
as with silent composure

they look towards us, through
the eyes of their photographer –
memorialist, celebrant, lover.


See leilajeffreys.com, / ‘Biloela Wild Cockatoos, exhibited 2012’

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Recycled

We  worry  about   the  weather,   and  whether  or  not  we 
can make  a difference,  sorting our  recycling in  the  dark.
The   floods   have   become   so   commonplace   that   they
don’t  make  the  news  unless  a  bus  is  swept  away  or  a
fireman   rescues   a   dog,     because   no   one   can   resist 
animals  or  minor  heroics.   We  stopped  driving  so  long
ago  that  we can’t  remember  where we  left  the car,  and
we walk  to work,   the commute  lasting days,   sleeping in
farm  buildings  or  under  the  stars,   fighting  nightmares
of   having   left   the   cooker   on,    and   avoiding   human
contact    wherever    possible.     When    the    sun    comes, 
we smear ourselves in mud and leaves. There are rumours
of   refugees   walking  across   seas   rammed  with  plastic,
only  to  find  another  war, but  the  wars  have  become so
commonplace  that  they  don’t  make  the  news  unless it’s
close   enough    to    smell    the   burning.    We    sort    our
recycling    in   the   dark,    switch   off   appliances   at   the
mains.    We  worry  about  the  weather,   and  whether  or
not we’ll be next.
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Waiting for the Byron Train

Waiting on the southbound platform
in still humid air, for the long journey home,
half-listening to buskers, bands blasting out
from a nearby pub, you keep a close eye
on checked-in luggage, wheeled out
in a trolley, now unattended
the new surfboard there
for the taking. The boys are anxious,
can’t board until it’s loaded.

We’ve eaten fish and hand-cut chips,
revisiting that last surf on Main Beach,
the swell and the riding, big rollers coming in
swamping, in the Buddhist way,
the sand fortress built this afternoon.
A late windsurfer on the bay moves swiftly
across our line of sight, the lighthouse
flashing in the distance, moon rising
and a slow sea-mist coming in.

Through fogged glass of the window-pane
the green hinterland rises and falls, drifting
down valleys into the timbered forest.
Soon we’ll sleep, the boys stretched out
on the floor, beyond the racket of train
to arrive in cold dawn. They’ll return sometimes,
just passing through, nothing changed,
the street-front palm trees still in place
like pieces from an ongoing jigsaw puzzle
the green frog in the letter-box
shiny, ceramic, you’d think
someone left it as a gift.

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Security camera roosting

(after Ted Hughes)

I sit under the eaves of buildings, my eyes open.
no falsifying dream between
my straight tail and straight brain.
no sleep to delay
me, I rewind the day’s play and zero
in on the city’s fringe-dwellers.

the convenience of the high rise!
an abundance of electricity,
out of rock throwing range
and Earth’s faces up for my inspection.

my red eye can spot a mouse
twitch a whisker.
with just a whir, I can pivot about-face
on my steel-tipped wings and close
my shutters on persons of note.

some days I link coppery claws
with my hunting mates in a grid
and together we fire up a live circuit,
scouring the field.

I am every court’s most
credible witness. my gaze
means the allotment
of both freedom and death.
for the one path of my flight
is direct through the eyes of the living.

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fiction is necessary

but, upside down in the dark,
all the lyrics have fallen

to the bottom of the box.
turned, back to the dark ocean,

the strange wet lap of the beach,
and, as I risk vertigo,

riding a warm updraft to
hover and glide with the gulls,

all strokes, no answers, fending
off clocks and chess boards and clouds,

intravenous hits of doubt.
it’s a furred logic this, as

truth makes its slow osmosis.
but the trick? don’t read for plot.

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Grackle

Sun-white
and ravenous,
a parking lot
empties
into a bird’s
eye.

Eyes
white,
the bird,
un-ravened,
empties
its slotted

beak of glottal
stops. I,
empty
and white,
raven
the bird’s

cackle. The bird,
unholiest of the lot,
hides not its ravenous
eyes.
I write
blank

verse in my empty
bird-
brain. In a white
ballet
between ears and eyes
a ravenous

voyeurism raves
until I am empty-
eyed
and bird-
clotted.
Black on white,

a ravenly bird
struts an empty lot
eyes wide.

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For Louise Bourgeois

In Charlotte’s Web, a pig
watches as a matriarch
wraps five hundred children
in silk.

In your gallery, each infant
has grown into its power
legs in bronze and steel
spread across the room.

We’ve been taught not to invite
this type of attention.

In the animated feature they’re
smaller than itsy bitsy, little semicolon specks
with extra legs.

The same man who wrote
those tiny spiders instructed
the world in the proper use
of commas, clauses, sentences.

Your sentence begins
with a steel limb, outstretched
towards the door. It grows
until it can’t be kept
inside.

How much space can we occupy?

The only time I’ve seen a spider close
its legs is when it dies—each limb
hinging in and folding.

I have learned
to crumple my body small.

You have found a way
to birth the descendants of another
world, some civilization where we
can be this grand.

When I was young, you built
an eight-legged monolith, its abdomen
and thorax ribbed with bronze, it towered
thirty feet above, guarding
thirty-two marble eggs.

When did our fear become so large?

I stood beneath that spread of legs
and looked up
like the diminutive nude
you once sketched
in charcoal instead of bronze.

Those enormous steely spindles
sheltered me
sparely,

left enough visible sky
so that I could remain
terrified.

(If this is what motherhood is like
then perhaps I could stomach
a child.)

When your spider died
you threw yourself into the river
and survived.

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It Gets Easier

I see what looks like trouble,
something that doesn’t fit,
a writhing and twisting
near the new-leafed tree
as if two bare branches have fallen but live
their own lives under some dark curse.
What I find is a braid of two snakes
knotting and unknotting
their bodies, heads coral
like the flesh of an unripe peach
and slim cold muscle sliding,
skin countershaded to look
like double-braided rawhide.
Two coachwhips, oblivious
to the world and me.
I have seen single snakes
periscoping from the tall grass
but never two together like this.
So this is where their kind begins.
Somehow, I had never asked this question.
When they untie they fly away over the ground
like ribbons driven by the wind.
Let me tie a knot into the day;
let’s see if the love will stay this time.
I saw what looked like fear
but it was a wreath of beauty,
not disaster. Time heals everything,
everything, I believe it. Every wound
(except a mortal one).

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December Moment

A wintry morning,
the ground covered in hoarfrost,
the sun a red bull behind a metallic haze,
the brittle branches of the trees,
tender and graceful,
as if sketched in India ink on silk,
gray with a violet shimmer,
and beneath my shoes,
as I cross the brown field,
a sound as of breaking glass.

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Silt

Back then, roadtrips and hiking trails
all led to sacred rock: Cathedrals sandstone,
Blueies granite, Moonarie quartzite,
a dolerite middle finger smashed
by the wind and waves in Fortescue Bay,
my hands freezing to the rope,
as I watched your headlamp crawling
like an uncertain firefly
eighty metres up the Tiger Wall.

But when I heard you’d married
it was silt not rock I thought of,
silt in a sunlit river,
that shallow, shaded river
we might have descended together,
might have followed all the way,
but that we kayaked there that day
with the man whose wife you are.

I lost my glasses when I rolled.
The two of you were gone
around the bend and did not see.
I waded my kayak ashore through reeds
under the shade of peppercorn trees.
The mud clutched as I waded
back and forth across that river,
peering like a prospector
for metal’s gleam through clouds
of silt my wading stirred.
I cursed myself and the pair of you,
as shade eclipsed the amber stream.
And because I was frustrated
I kept thinking of how I’d waded
last night in the clutching silt of you.

Gave it up as daylight tired.
Hauled the kayak from the reeds,
paddled in a crimson blur
that swirled towards the edge of day,
and miles to fall yet with that river
whose name is clouded now.
The Ovens? Or the Goulburn,
or the Acheron.

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Corolla

A barrow is wheeled into place.
Sparrows the colour of buckwheat.
Two neat runners of treated pine
Sleepers, more broadly divine
The intentions of the day.
Scurrilous cross-hatching lies sketched
At each unpicked hem of reinforcing for
The concrete marrow therein.
What we need now is a fine load of sand –
Which we’ll collect from the arc
Of the river which is but a
Quick trip in the khaki green corolla,
Already equipped with
A shovel and Pepsi, the dog, who
Can’t wallow enough in the
Last of the puddles –
to finish the driveway in time.

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Diagnosis

It’s getting hard for me to remember
what it was like before I was a tree.

What the news reports don’t tell you is how
this all started as a little pain
between my legs. A small throb.

I thought it was just a case of blue balls. At first
the doctors called the dark fractals in the sonogram
mineral deposits, suggesting the sea.

They didn’t mean whole swift swarms of fish.
Imagine a man like me
with no city to abandon or look back at—

and suddenly becoming salt.
I should have known:
I have always loved to dig my toes

into the mud. I’ve always marvelled
at the downing of power lines
and the slow breaking

of the local roads and walks. Times
I’ve been kissed and told I reek
of black cherry and mulch.

Soon after the groin aches started,
I took my love to the sakura festival

and stood under the orchard rows
and could not stop staring up
into a couple million crumpled

bloodied buds, as if some blunt thing
full of spring had bashed them open
one by one into this gangbuster chorus.

What a sky to gaze into—a hallelujah
of tattered tongues. Brutal, I tell you. Hell,

I got no clue when I’m supposed to
break into blossom. But when I do,
I hope there’s music playing

and lovers lying in a lanky tangle
beside me. I promise to stand absolutely still
and forget what it was like

to have spent my entire life walking around
as if I’d ever been just a man.

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God’s good old China

Everywhere you go is walking under heaven.
In those ruins east of Pusan Road
where the Shanghainese had homes before the Chinese Dream,
in that block of broken houses and farm fields run wild
locked in by that white-washed propaganda-picture-bearing wall,
there where old enamel floorboards
which were someone’s pride some twenty years ago
show a pair of foot-square patches through the rubble
like a pair of perfectly good teeth
from a skull lost in the grass in an old warzone
carried by the ants up on a hill
where on inspection by the ant officials who inspect all things
the teeth were found a useless kind of thing
and so they threw them down,

there God lives on Earth in China,
having left the West for good when finally it got to him
that all his warmth of love for all the world
cannot unsay the saying that
if God lived on earth people would break his windows.

But where is an almighty God supposed to live if not on Earth?
Is the Lord to live in outer space?
Shows how much you people love him!

So God went to live with the good old
domesticated and heartbroken Chinese ghosts and devils
(heartbroken at abandonment by their domesticating ones
who either never read the Little Prince
or never took it seriously
that we become responsible
for the ones we have domesticated)
and there God rented out a home
from the Howling Ghost Real Estate Agency,
a good brick plaster kind of home
with a second-story balcony and all
and a big vegetable patch outside
to potter about in late evenings after work,
last in line nearest the corner with the security booth,
and in the booth there is a paramilitary uniformed guard, guarding
(in case someone might come in order to disturb their dreams, I guess,
with foreign propaganda or a stolen parking space among the reeds,
or must not ghosts and devils also dream the Chinese dream?)
by staring at his screen-phone day and night, the ghosts and devils
who live in that long line of growling, moaning, doorless homes
windowless and full of shapeless rubbish
and dark, oy, when has it ever been so dark
except in the beginning, when the earth was void,
as they say in the book, and shapeless and the spirit of God
moved upon the surface of the deep?

Well, that was in the book, but in real life, a house
with a good wood door, a blue
screen-phone-colored light low in the second-story window,
white Honda sedan parked in the mud outside,
that strange security booth with the paramilitary black-shirt guard inside
installed in symbol of the senselessness of the primeval chaos
by the Bodhisattva who is boss of Howling Ghost,
and an unbarking St. Bernard dog running back and forth along the nearby river
which moves mysteriously like the spirit of God upon the waters:

this is how God lives now in a place
where at least they will not break his windows, where
when curious folks, strangers to the place, come stumbling in the heaps
of to the people once-important
now abandoned rubbish still important to itself,
he goes out on his Chinese motor scooter to investigate.

A balding short old village uncle type
you will not meet much off the mainland,
beer paunch, open black polo shirt
and friendly smile as easy to mistake for a policeman’s
uncomfortable tricks as he himself for a detective
in his black polo shirt with the big rhombus on the left side of the chest
which looks like a police badge in the dark.

And when he offers you a smoke
remember that we meet God’s face in every stranger,
remember and do not do as I did.
I with my fear
that every stranger works for the police.

Do not say, No need.
Just accept.

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Psalm 19b

Let me stand at a door that opens to ocean
ride on an orca under water, then up and out of it
leaping. Let me call to forests a name they’ve forgotten
their leaves breathe a breath from the mouths
of all children. Let me dive from a mountain
despite fear of falling, let the snow that I fly through
be skin that I land in. Let me river the windows
on skyscraping offices while clouds get in shape
for a priceless economy. Headlights in traffic are eyes
full of wisdom, let me get out of my car and walk
with the billions in a line that leads to a clifftop cottage,
it fits all of us, easy, we listen to the story of living
words like an ocean stood up in and opened.

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The Mechanical Garden

To think, to know that this precise angle of light, this hue of
sunset dripped all over the marina, and this turn in the convo
were all caused, to a microscopic t, to the slightest twist of

All paths turn curves and lead in straight astray plot, by the Big
and branching to the mechanical garden Bang, completely and
where photon cogwheels tinkle down a ray without remainder;
merrygreen as chlorophyll molecules harden that this includes
where Ben Joe John Alexei Stephen Katia all internal sensation
and I throw a recurring poetry party and experience. The will is
where in the garden library the teas unwilled; it is self-coercive.
are spiked a tooth so you feel more at ease I am not at liberty,
but if you peer into the deepest wellspring I am not at liberty to
you reach realization past all helping change my will, I am to it
into the nature of the mystery seemingly a voluntary prisoner,
where myriad particles just bounce around since a free choice is
along the great pipeline of destiny in fact a compelling absence
where no foothold of freewill will be found. of it. “The illusion of
what the English call the free will,” as the Indian prophet put it.
And since I’ve freely willed to own no assets, there’s no leaving
a will in the other sense, save for the small comforts of a poem.

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Fishers of Men

Fishing provides that connection
with the whole living world.

—Ted Hughes

The buoys hang wet between small crosses
Of clotheslines in a stubborn lean;
The creak of wood on wood and bolts pitted with rust,
The nets slump in exhaustion
Like hammocks and drag their toes.

In bare light, I peer through bleary wooden panes
As Larry unloads his night’s toil;
Some pilchards, salmon, a few yellow-fin bream,
Boxed in by handfuls of ice,
Leeching swirls of blood and coagulant.

He’s tired; his arms licked with salt
And heavier from the spray,
His body incised by three hernias—last year’s Jewfish
That hooked him to a bed for weeks.
Now, the fish boxes are half full

And leave pockets of air between each stack
In the chest freezer. I visited that evening;
His arms in electric hum—bottlebrushes of fibreglass
Sanding an upturned hull.
He’d murmur old stories like photographs

Of my grandfather; beach fires, jacket potatoes,
Al’ foil wrapped fish and the town
Before the servo re-dressed as a bed and breakfast.
Tar had brought Sydney-siders
Down for summer and he’d ask how father

Took the loss—how lung cancer trawls the body.
I’d mumble a nod, fixed on the roll of hands
Over ribbed body, drawn to the fountain fall of fibres
And the closeness of the fibro hut.
The wind drew in the night

Like the turn of venetian dowel;
Old nets bundled in the outhouse,
The smell of morning—a memory soaked in the grass,
Two gulls skittered along a galvanised gutter
And I caught glints in the tidemarks of his eyes.

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thylacine

it’s like someone told me once to lean into the pain
now i am always leaning into the pain

i am leaning in too much

i am sticking my neck out and playing chicken with pain
i am shouting come and get me cunts to pain

you let me dive recklessly into your life
despite your severe and life threatening allergies to sentiment

you are macaulay culkin in my girl
and everything i say is bees

i say a minor catastrophe
could do you so much good

we are signing an extended lease together
the same time each of us are buying one-way tickets
to separate continents

it’s like the concept of not waking up next to you every morning
feels like being dragged through miles of broken glass
but it seems senseless to labor the point

it’s like i love you in the way
that my brain is yet to process you will one day die
like you casually mention you won’t live forever
and i feel a deep searing betrayal at the suggestion

it’s like hello
nice to meet you
are you mad at me

it’s like our wedding day arrives after years
and it seems necessary to ask if you actually like me
or if you’ve just been excessively polite
for a worrying length of time

if this was a complex joke
you’ve been pulling for several years
at the expense of basically all other aspects of your life

come and get me cunts

anyway

it’s not that i want to be validated
by external sources

it’s just that
have you looked at the internal sources

i want you to love me in such a way
that it positively baffles modern science
sending lab-coated professors into fits of utter bewilderment
as they crunch the numbers on our courtship with abject futility

i want you to love me like love is a thylacine
and despite credible evidence of total extinction
we’ve discovered the last surviving one
and killed it

i want you to love me
like i am always leaning into the
pain too much come and get me cunts
and you’re not scared by it
or feel an embarrassing need to make me feel better

like you’ve accepted that we can’t make anyone feel better
we can only make them less alone
and even then who knows how much or for how long

i want you to love me like i’m not a project
you hope might one day achieve sustainability

i want you to love me like it’s no big deal

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Another View

Landscape and jacaranda — Grace Cossington Smith

Is she sitting?
Or is she standing?
In the open air.

No, she is sitting.
Her eyeline lifts towards
the flowering.

The sun is behind her
but I cannot see
her shadow on the grass.

Time of day is strange.
It could be almost any time.
It is overcast.

Within reach of the house
within which she lived
the most of her life.

Are there footsteps in the hallway,
a clattering, a chinking
in the kitchen?

But she tinkers on. I am imagining
a foldaway canvas stool.
A palette.

Today the very day
the jacaranda begins to slough
her purple mantle.

Every profligate year
until it might as well be
this year as hereafter.

There the sudden slope of doubt
that falls away
into the unforeseen.

Nothing ever quite comes off,
nor should it.
Mountains looming.

I am standing at the tip of that slope
looking back at you,
Grace.

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On the Shoalhaven

Across the lacquered varnish
of the river, rain comes dimpling
the surface with a sibilant hiss
like the sound of fat sizzling.

Old boulders have come down
hill to examine their own unshaven
reflections in the mirror, come down
from the places they left a millennium

ago, a moment in the ongoing stillness
of boulders. Other rocks have also
escaped their portraits. In contrast
the fleeting water follows

its memory embedded in the river.
The life of shifting sand,
submerged tree trunks which never
stay still for long, these turn and

lean to the current’s bidding, all
with a singular purpose. This far
upstream where salt water stalls
and dilutes itself with air,

small whirlpools play about
the snags beneath. The broken
illusion of tranquility merging to the right
like a long, sweeping brush stroke

gliding to its vanishing point
where rare stuttering frogs read the news
to each other, and the water’s faint
gossip around the bend continues

on beneath a distant bridge. Soon it will
dissolve with time, nudging downstream
to the coast. Too late for the speed
boats who, tomorrow, will return

and cross the river Styx like a rip
down the centre of the canvas, stitched
up with mud and melting spit
giving form to a great amnesia.

The ripples will soon subside,
the boulders quietly exhale
as the river accepts the inward tide
of a world reverting to scale.

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WHATEVER U LIKE

after Jane Bowles

everywhere somewhere
a woman complains in a supermarket
but the gold
in our sleep sustains us
no body believes
one bad thing can happen after another
no body can be a dog in their own dream
which means no body can be a dog forever
pleased in our despair,
does anyone need reusable bags?? we scream. i have 57
unkind men fail to love us.
lovely idiots, we go on with our songs
singing rococo, of lavish towels, strawberries,
broken bottles, little crystals
we lie back, nervous as cats, enjoy the haul
we have our health….
we open the windows to a soubrette
screaming in a romance language
something about — the price of cigarettes, strawberries, the recordings,
dexamfetamine, the abortionists, the vivid machinations of the statesmen and the fish
piled stinking along the river, the emails,
the dogs —
we shut our doors. we say what in fuck’s name
was that
we do not speak a word of french
we sing instead — come the revolution
come the revolution it will turn out right, burnishing the rusted
taps of our kitchens, come the revolution come now do not vex yourself
with the screaming, life is difficult enough,
come the revolution to follow our dreams
will not make us victim to our nightmares, come the, we will not cower
in our timed out shopping carts like frightened rabbits, come, some of us, will be spared,
though some of us will not, have not been spared a single thing,
come the second tragedy we will combat the first tragedy
which has been curdling within us, we will flee
from the second to the third tragedy, giving the impression of motion,
also, we remind each other, remember “tenderness”
remember that without imagination, reality is peaceful,
remember that all you really want is a bearable life. and no, you do not know
where the cockroaches go at night, or
what menace is present, in the room, with you now,
or what gutter puppies wait
for you to spill the milk of your human kindness, or whether
you should guard it like a wolf
but you know that no body
can be treated like a dog forever
not even a dog

Material reworked from Two Serious Ladies and Blue of Noon.

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Truva

Night after night the list of small entries grows. Once it starts it never stops. The land we tally was once a sea bed; we count the clouds reflected in the absolute flat sea, an arc of grey-green water, the number of times oars dip as ships seek shelter for the night, we count how many strong faces, the dark arms of the rowers. We count the silvered tangled mass of seaweed. We count those able to feel pain and joy. We count the ruins of summer palaces near beaches, walk to the small broken knob at the top of the hill, count the horde of stones beneath our feet. Olive trees, two creeks – all accounted for. Count the twists and turns, the limestone blocks through the dog-leg pass, the cobblestones on the Skiaian Gate, the graves cut into the face of a cliff. Along the canal we count paddling ducks, we count fields filled with the clack of bird scarers. We count brown leaves peeled off a stone. Looking past the benign surface, to be plain and simple, we drink from an invisible cup and stumble, taken-back promises are tried, tasted, counted and spat back out. There’s a crowd at the village notice board, a note ripped at the edges, going brown in the sun, ‘Count what you love.’
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Mirror

Sunday afternoon, gulping down the conversation
as if we’re in a heatwave and you are cooled water.
When I cross over do I become you? My breath
is sensitive, like photons, and I am lost in space
between where you end and I begin. As if we return
to ourselves after we are loved. We are forever
killing the things we find sweetest, like freshly
picked cherries and Sunday afternoons. When I cross
back do I lose you? If it were winter, things would
be different. There is no tethering chord for the next
few moments. Think of all the undiscovered planets,
casually dying from overheating. Fault lines create
opposition far too easily. The black cherries will never
be eaten. Swallow into night, and be done with it.

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