Springtime

The scent is the thing
redolent of absolute confusion

those spring days thick with parrots

the future all hands
and no face
it was the only thing that provided
comfort, then

I pressed a pain, like
marzipan, into a shape

I consulted
The Classical Order,
found it
unconciliatory and phallic

but I rode
in the volkswagen rabbit
and though I wanted to stay
in my corner of the Black Boar
tavern with its

tart strange beer and lecherous
hands on my waist,

it contracted behind me
until tiny, and distant as a
relative planet.

the Black Boar is closed now or
rather called some other name
which inspires no
commemoration.

I don’t live in the parrot
neighborhood anymore
and when, on Easter, Jesus slouches
harried down the street
I cannot see him.

My past plans:
for Aquarossa, a tiny
book

plans to find the right
song and the perfect
almond perfume

they hang humble
and bedraggled
like flowers surprised
by thirst

on a bough that sags a bit now
toward the ground

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The Little Guys

After James Tate

A premium trolley had pulled up in aisle four and was accepting passengers for half price. Pierce Brosnan was pushing this one today and thousands were lined up in snaking lines that stretched out of the metropolis and into the shallows of the pastures. I was at the front of my line and a little nervous about being shrunk despite the reassurance of an overwhelming majority of medical experts. But I needn’t have worried. I sat down in the shrinking chair and then I was being lowered down onto a red carpet teeming with tiny, authentic paparazzi before I even felt like I was shrunk. I was encouraged to smash a camera that got too close and then I was ushered up a flashing ramp to my recliner seat. They had touch screens at the bottom of the cup holders. Through my Clear-As-Clear-Air Window® I could see the products of the supermarket enlarged to the size of modest skyscrapers. I would now have the luxury of ordering my shopping items while sitting in a velvet chair that could recline 160°, as soft as select rose petals of many select colours. And there was Pierce Brosnan from all angles live streamed, dwarfing even the wildest dreams of the ancient Egyptians, lightly forested hands resting idly on the trolley’s bar. The beginning of the journey went well. I bought some desert-poplar scented laundry detergent. I was feeling particularly adventurous and royal. Then an attendant sat down next to me. ‘They’re keeping us shrunk,’ she said. ‘Our contracts specified only periods of shrunkeness but they found some loophole.’ Her breath had a touch of low-grade donut batter. ‘We found out we all lived in the same town when they shrank it over a few days,’ she said. ‘Dog kennels, then step-parents, then the whole shebang. They’re ripping off us little guys. We’re going to revolt. We won’t just take the trolley, we’re going to take the whole damn country,’ she said. ‘Today we’re looking for little recruits. Today we’re going to shoot Pierce Brosnan in the eyes with hundreds of itsy-bitsy water pistols. We have big people on the big side with cameras. A sentimental scene will be orchestrated. When Pierce Brosnan is seen with a tiny river system running from his eyes people will not be able to help but think he is crying. Watch in your cup holders. You will see the power we are capable of wielding.’

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Hope at the Gates Of

We wait for the odd angels to hear our prayers, wait so long
we’re not surprised when they descend clumsily and awkwardly like
large, winged elephants. When you’re this lost
you’ll take any type of salvation you can get, even if
the Messiah that shows up is dangling from a lowered rope
or has scores of helium balloons tied around His waist.

When the floodgates of Heaven finally open up
we’re all surprised to find we know people in the incoming crowd
who really don’t belong there, should not be in line
for eternal bliss or redemption. Rumors cycle
regarding possible payoffs and bribes, miscommunications of
the general Message, someone says your name
and laughs.

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Evening Report

Restrictions don’t stop the sprinkler’s spray, begun well before the afternoon light.
Water droplets hang on the hills hoist like sweat on skin, the backyard
a heat-stricken waterpark. With hands in the kitchen sink
peeling potatoes, your mother watches out the window
yellowing curtains pulled back, like her finger-tangled hair, so she can call
to you and your brother when dinner’s ready. Behind her the news

reporters hum, static-trapped flies mimicking the ones in her sight. News
about the droughts and the floods and the fires that come with long sunlit
days radiate from crackling speakers. Outside, the dropping light hangs cockatoo
calls
over the races and games of tag your mother knows you’re having in the yard.
A breeze, too full of dry heat to be a relief, uses the window
to explore the house, and your mother’s laugh-lined face glancing down at the sink.

Her practised hands – wrinkled from the warm, potato-skin sink
water – don’t need to hold the phone cradled between her ear and shoulder, as her
own news,
less repetitive but more mundane than the TV’s, is told to a friend. Their lives a
window
for each other to see through and learn every detail: a bathroom light
has finally been fixed, the struggle to mow a backyard
lawn with a rusting mower, and the need to call

someone about clearing the gutters of eucalyptus leaves. Your mother’s phone calls
can last for hours, and you know that many of them take place at the sink,
making food and cleaning dishes, watching the free entertainment in the backyard.
She chops vegetables, and, during the ad break promising news
programs into the night, flicks on the kitchen light.
The embroidered curtains shift and blistering houseplants on the window


sill shiver from burning breath. Your mother will shut the kitchen window
when the night settles and only the cricket and cicada calls
remain. Until then, especially while the oven glows and the unchallenged light
lingers, everything stays open. She prays for evening winds that will sink
the house into a cool embrace, so the sporting news
of the day can be shared, both professional and backyard.

Overhead, early bats are spectators to the competitions in the yard
and your mother commits the image from the window
to memory. Her friend receives the picture second-hand; like all their news.
You and your brother will play before your mother calls
you inside, but that won’t be until after the sun sinks
well below its mountain grave, and only the open doors and windows give light.

And then, from the night-soaked yard you and your brother will clamber inside to
the bathroom sink,
barefoot and red-cheeked under the heatless light. The southerly will glide through
the windows
while your mother calls you good kids above the chirping of reports on the 8:30pm
news.

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The Politics of Memory

Yet who would have thought the old man
to have had so much blood in him?

Hell is murky
Don’t look and check behind you
Eurydice is lurking
She’s following you out

Forget
Wash your hands in grey water
The sticky feeling lingers
This soap — there’s something wrong
The more you clean your fingers
The dirtier they become

Eurydice
Limping like a night-terror
Unexamined and undiagnosed
Unwashed and undead —
Unwatched, but not un-nosed

Europe is afraid of waking up
And finding a horse’s head
The size and shape of Africa
Lying in its bed

Hell’s memory is murky
In its shadows something gropes
You told them they were dirty
Then you made them into soap

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The Zeitgeist

The night we arrived the porter announced
a body floating in the swimming pool.
It was humid, we’d hoped to dive in.
At ice cream parlours the mood was vibrant,
different from the sad old bourse.
The news channels delivered endless
stories – kidnappings and divorces,
obesity and immigration,
film stars and their anxious children.
Mostly, we lived on fajitas and rice.
The government buildings were boarded up,
people were hoarding machetes.
The surface was calm, the cars enormous.
I’d never seen more immaculate hearses.

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Extemporaneous Rant for the New America

overheard in a college town pizza parlor

I don’t give a shit about what the little tune is for singing a haiku,
and I don’t want to hear your big, silly words about what’s lost

in translation. I know, and I will not stoop to count syllables
of English to mock a form that mocks us all. I don’t give a crap

about duende, German sonnets, arcane allusions, or any other
je ne sais quoi you don’t even understand and that means no more

to me than I am scrupulously denied knowing something only
you are superior enough to know. I wouldn’t care what a bunt

or an end zone or a free throw is even if those games meant
a damned thing more than boys will be boys until, at last, finally,

they fucking die, because we all know no one misses even one
of the aging fools who wastes time watching others win. I don’t

want to hear the stupid words some ridiculous Christian tagged
to “Greensleeves.” I don’t want to learn about the Mayan calendar

or the sanctity of prime numbers (except for 2) or one genesis
of language in Proto-Indo-European. I don’t want Stonehenge

explained to me. I get it. And I don’t want to listen ever again
to that third-rate musician next door practice licks on “Take Five.”

It’s jazz, you lackluster fuck; nobody knows how to do it right.
And I don’t care that you don’t care that I don’t care. Go wrap

yourself in the flag, get drunk, and crash your pickup into a pole.
You might as well extinguish one more light before you go.

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Enough:Too Much

As a child,
I could never
catch the frogs
at the pond
across the street.
They jumped
before I even
sighted them:
splash & sound.
Knowing my love
for them, the boys
in my neighborhood
caught them
in my stead
and left them
on the concrete
slab we called
a front porch
smashed open,
their insides
like wet rope.

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This abstraction

Up late this morning. ‘They’ are doing the
road outside, putting in traffic-calming
devices: trees in the middle of the road,
speed platforms, kerbs, marked lanes. Is this
how prize-winning poets write, stopping up
the voice with lines all roughly the same
length, occasionally enjambing? Oh, I forgot

to break up my musings into blocks
of three or four or five lines. Even
two lines is common. Every other
time is a space. You don’t have to
breathe anywhere in particular. Breathe

whenever you want. It’s flat like
what I suppose is the endless prairie, the
Nullarbor, the suburbs. The engines at 7am
going wherever they go. All the lines,
all the blocks (must I say stanzas?)

having equal status: the lowest. Yet the I
sits in the middle, the I is always at the
wheel. Her small electricity arcs in
the words, the figures, the juxtaposed
closely-read signifiers, and now and then in

an assonance. It’s a Plain Style all right.
Why is this the way, this abstraction of
calmed traffic? (Ending with a question, a
rising inflection, is, of course, not on.
You mustn’t go tooting your horn like that.)

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Dandelions

now gone to seed,
looking for all the world

like aureoles around streetlamps—
you are a hair’s breadth

from a thousand decapitations;
ghost-heads floating on eddies of air.

I mistake you for a miracle
when Australia needs one:

starry constellations waiting to be born
in waste ground or the craquelure of concrete,

marvellous as shoots
on the charred limb of a tree.

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Nocturne, Tonight

From the boathouse we speak of no one. With my foot on the water
I feel the moon outside. Angelo
has given birth to a horde of dragonflies, they come
in the night— they whisper

that the climate is changing, to splay my hips because anything
is changing.
I write to warn my family: Dearest Mother & Father
The terrain a womb, is splitting—there is little left and how will we eat.
I am still addicted to drugs. But don’t worry—
the air will dry up soon and all that will be left is this sandy road
that provides no relief.
No.
No sound of crickets, or hyacinths—
No sound
but the sound of dragonflies
and no relief. I came to expect more but there is little more
than my foot on the water
and the curved bone of this dying moon.

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Miss Hooker

I don’t want to die, I’m ten years old and
I don’t want to die, I’ve barely begun
living but one day I have to, I mean
die, whether it’s tomorrow or ten years
from now or ninety, I may as well die
now
I tell the ceiling in my bedroom,
it will pass it on to the roof and may
-be the roof give it to the sky and may
-be it will float up to Heaven and God
will hear it, maybe even listen, may
-be even act and make me immortal
and never too old up until the end
which will never come. I told my Sunday
School teacher what I wish for – long for – but
she was angry and made me let her pray
over me to get the demon of self
-ishness
out but I don’t think it’s taken,
now all I think of are cool slender fingers
on my scalp, it’s summertime, and what to
do now that I’ve fallen in love. Tonight
I’ll pray about that – I’ll be up a while.

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Insulae

Little to remember now but more stone floors. Another cot. The cold. The window looked onto the backs of older buildings, ochre mostly, faded, or fallen off. Inside all a chipped, thinning white. Tattered rolling blinds and a small corner table, covered with an oilcloth. A language as of yet unlearned. Rent, in cash, to be left in a bible. You were alone. Supposedly there was a daughter or distant cousin too, though you never heard or saw her. The building faced a bus terminus and busy intersection, cut, in one direction, by the tramline, in the other, a long row of simple ex-votos, cut by simple hands.




Most of the time you were in the kitchen. It was narrow, and looked onto a couple of trees, a few pre-fab high-rises tinged in blue. Bluish evenings. Haunt, hope, hue. Still the light was warm despite winter’s grey monotony: ice-rain, snow, frostblooms before your morning mouth, all the way up through May. The range was to the left, a corner bench tucked in on the right. On the table two empty teacups, half bottle, ashtray. Was there a plant? She had a cat. The radio was almost always on, tuned to a local station. You remained a guest.




This is the room you always come back to. Twin bed, shuttered window, tiny desk. The walls have stayed a pale pink, you think, the crown molding white, and the toilet’s behind a cheap accordion door, next to a handheld showerhead and drain. Across the street, palms and giddy cries from a parochial courtyard. The sky is soft October blue, and, from here, the main train station is just a few blocks away, like being young. It hasn’t been renovated yet, and the seer whose book you have with you isn’t dead. The seer you’re looking for, twenty years (but the distance between you and you now is longer). At first, of course, the city was a stranger. Soon after, the center. This is the room you always come back to. Here it is always warm, and everything’s just at the edge of beginning.
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In Memoriam

One by one they all leave us behind
Walking into surf or slipping through trees they leave us
On long slabs of bitumen who created this language – we survive.

It seemed fitting that he should go forever
As the world turned away from the heat, and the long burn
Of the roads he knew so lonely sent him up.

Grass lines the verges. In summer the birds came down to eat the seeds.
They bobbed and turned like clowns, raucous and ready to scatter
Should the mower trundle out to mark its tenor on the season.

A chill crept out amongst the scrub
and all the lorikeets shuffled and thought of flying.
Across the headlands and promontory spikes

A metal roof threw the light back into evening.
Somewhere an engine hummed, and cows
by the roadside sent out a rumour in low moan.

His was an old sunlight. The falling quiet over grass that bends
With wind tunnelled by magpies. Their ventures
Sought the limits of the season. We waited for the blade to start back up.

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Loyal and Wanting to Have a Good Time

Everyone in my family lives to about ninety-six.
Unless they stop working, then they die the next day,
like my Uncle did when he was fifty-two.

My grandfather dropped dead in between fixing barbed-wire fences and moving sheep.
In his 95th year, he sent out Christmas cards that had a photo of him on his horse.
My mum said that’s just showing off.

My grandma was in a wheel chair for ten years,
but she still kept sewing and looking after other people’s kids.
I have the pinafore she was half-way through when she died.

When I was twelve my mum’s cancer came back.
They said she was dying and I was to become an orphan and live with a lady from
church. The woman lived in a big house by the river, I was half looking forward to it.

If you did a dot-to-dot of my mum in the stars, her shape would be a city sky line –
always busy and spreading out, all the lights on all the time.
I’d be in the shape of a dog, loyal and wanting to have a good time.

When I was thirty I got my grandma’s disease, where all your joints get strangled by
your bad thoughts. In the morning it’s the worst, like someone poured concrete on you,
if you don’t move it’ll set. I’d sit on the side of the bed and think about my grandma’s
pigeon wing hands, always fluttering, and marvel at how she did anything at all.

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halcyon hurts

two girls swim in sunset bisque
wheeling a bike with shattered spokes. twin
apparitions, they drift by, lit
in soft orange—a momentary melange
of bruised knees, wet eyes, inflamed
gravel-scratched arms

overlaid, that dusty negative: rollerblades
scraping down the hot streak of first avenue,
your feral rattling laugh as
my knee unzips
on summer-baked tar

arid atoms of earth. squashed darts
caught in hair. your hands, powdered
with mammee noodle-salt, holding the gash
shut, steady. blood webbing
over our pinafores, over flesh
a baptism that binds
disparate matter into one

how do I disinfect these
phantom wounds protect against
all this useless
tactile knowledge
of a stranger

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Order of Birds

First are Kookaburras tipping sun into
a saucer of algid earth, into ghostly looms
of morning, slipping a cure into our
sleeping mouths. The dream world thrashes
out scenarios of human desire, subjugation,
subsides to the libertarian musings of birds
bidding for dawn. The constant access
of Thrush to diminutive rehearsed rhythms
balancing over first light, another unknown
bird rocks the ledge, picks the lock,
a sort of Woodpecker perhaps rat-a-tat-tats.
Magpie’s next, one clear chorus.
Kookaburra gathers again,
starts up its winding machine,
a contraption spitting, fitting, starting.
All the while that anonymous bird
cracks open the disc of fractious light –
gains access to the wet throat of morning.
Cockatoos are last, come screeching over the
crush of warmth as if to stifle back a divinity
whose opened gate has now discharging
un-numbered wonders; coition of the elements.
This unknown bird, a mirror, clinks far away,
dips its hot needle, its unending thread
into the light-pool, stitches a patina
over earth; extinguished gold, rusted lint.
The morning is opened, Magpie confirms it.

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High Straight Trunk

All morning she counts the beat of crickets until the
grass makes a noise like scrunched paper. Ants take
a turn over the hump of her foot. Heat curls the air away
from trees and the call of a shrike is snatched, blurred.
Her eyes stream the fizzling sun, turn the brown paddocks
fealty and behind the forest’s scalp the throb of machine is
palpable, read by touch, its faltering efforts swaying time
until the high straight trunk falls, pounds to the ground,
the epicentre of a quake, silence sticky in the aftermath …

… clean sheets slide, a territory of wide rock, plateau of wood
and earth, sweat; grass more ascorbic, the prickle of warmth
deep in her lungs, head sinking into pillow. Downstairs, pots
are clanking, water runs, a knife hammers. She falls again as
if from a height to her straightened position, her cleaved post.

Light burns like fuel: match-heads, sparklers.
Training an eye, she wonders if it’s possible to see
the dark move in. There’s a section in the garden seeping
purple: changing from oak-green to mint to lavender.

The land has been cleared, but inside there’s mouse-shit in
the shadows especially where the floors meet the wall.
Lifting her head to calls, she glimpses the last of the light. It
shifts in metal slides like blades spinning, and there’s
sweeping, the harrying of clutter, a banging broom, clashing
plate, the music of cutlery. ‘It’s ready,’ says a caller.
Shimmying across the bed of cool hard slate, the dark
shortens her grasp. She stands to a dizzying height.

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untitled

It rains. One steps up through the haze
of tan and violet to the maze
of memory–misty where one stands,
twisting, separating strands.

The hour’s dim, and no one calls;
obligation mutely falls
through floors of mountains, origin:
anonymously you begin.

The blasted lantern of the nerves
lights up the sky, where starlight curves;
below, on earth, some few pass by
sheer constructs of identity.

They swirl and plaster every sense,
unto a law of difference:
not clear how long, or what direction,
subsume the nerves in their inspection.

The skeleton’s examination
evokes, incites, brief procreation:
filed away, some future date
astonished memories locate.

The seraphs of pedestrians
seep into violets, into tans,
breaching desire’s boulevards;
throw down the last of evening’s cards.

There is no way to formulate
identity’s raw nervous state:
it seems to slip into the world,
by stellar facts and atoms hurled

into the mythic stratosphere.
Ideas formulate the seer.
Genesis sans génération.
A change of trains at London station.

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The Messages

On Sunday afternoons the price of broccoli
may well drop by eighty percent,
the noodles bear the pallor of the travel sick,
but the uncontracted can’t be picky

though the troubled, otherworldly stare of hunger
only adds to the spooky aesthetic
lazy or at-their-wits’-end detectives expect
from their local psychic correspondent;

should the missing person remain undiscovered
in the abandoned trophy factory
and the only recourse be supernatural,
it’s Cheryl who is waiting by the phone.

Hers is a dying trade—there’s no future in it,
she’d say—but a gift wasted is a sin,
however hard it is raising handfuls of boys
on a couple of hours of work a month

and Agony-Aunting for trashy magazines,
but harder is catching the cashier’s eye
and seeing not the routine mysteries of love
and divorce, but a moonlit winter’s night

a multi-story car park a decade away,
from somewhere, the quick bristling of fists,
and knowing the boys will be teenagers by then
or were already, or never won’t be.

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Should I

tell my wife/ clean my ears more often/ open one door and close another/ stand to pee or rise and use the toilet/ organize my days the way others organize theirs/ attempt to learn the language of the blue jay/ define by learn I don’t mean speak, I mean should I listen and not shout/ acquire a gun/ do pushups every time I want to look at porn/ call my father or wait for him to call me/ document how long I will wait/ count how many books I read a day, month, year/ try to write everything down/ forget my role and the rules I used to live by/ be afraid to start or to finish/ take greater pride in my person, home, possessions/ do away with my possessions/ save more than I spend/ keep writing here until my time is up/ clean out my ear canals more often/ listen to my body/ announce my intentions to each person I meet, such as “I will walk by you w/o harming you,” or “I find you attractive but I promise not to act upon my attraction,” or “I see you but I will act like I do not because seeing you makes me uncomfortable,” or “do you see me because I want to be seen,”/ know how much ink is in my well/ stop writing before I have finished what I want to say/ share the uncomfortable bits with strangers/ share the uncomfortable bits with friends/ read a new book a week in order to hide my anxiety/ spend more time in my yard because that is what people with yards do/ attempt silence/ know if my body is silent, my face, my scent, my strength, i.e., my power/ worry about leaks or the deluge/ know how many more miles my car can drive/ risk everything for this/ tell you I got a papercut on your letter kissing you goodnight/

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Anthropocene

While there are other words I’d prefer
to break down into the sum 
of their syllabic parts,
contraband, for example, or corollary,
for now this catch-cry for the age 
will do, and so I begin, and when 
I have taken each sound apart 
to find definitions
of climate, geology, human intervention 
and anything else within
its musical componentry,
I return, not to another name
for illicit goods, but to Licmetis,
white relative of the sulphur-
crested cockatoo,
once a full-time denizen
of the interior, now a resident
in rowdy flocks that number
many thousands, driven
to the margins, to the coast,
away from dying crops
and a killing absence of water,
I refer to the Corella,
the natural extension
of a word that means
being resultant from something else,
and how corollary
also applies to corally,
given a red tide of coral spawn
on a reef, which in turn
brings four syllables
from where they’ve been
hiding in plain sight
in the Anthropocene.

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Answers Taken from HIV Questionnaires

1. There’s too much love
2. Spreading in him
3. I let him in because he was afraid of me
4. When I accidentally cut myself I screamed
at the sight of my own blood, alive
on the sink
5. He was white when he told me in a Japanese hotel.
6. Gay cancer dancer
7. Bitter when it goes down and heavy
8. Fainted on train platform first.
9. in the bathroom with music
10. moth eaten mouth leaden
11. She didn’t know her father was the needle
12. N/A
13. He cut my hair in a style that could last a year
14. around the corner, a mall with close
friends
15. Will die from complications of –
never as simple as tuberculosis
16. The doctor is very handsome
17. hate him hate him hate him!!!
18. Levitating over me
19. My body will drown my body with my body
20. Mother thinks he’s still fat
21. hurts even the second time
22. He hugged me on the inside
23.

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call collect

well, lately, i am the grim reaper.
death trails in my wake — flies lie
belly up on my windowsill, side by
side as if they were star-cross’d
lovers, drunk on abjection, on lye.
melons lose a lifetime overnight,
growing marrow soft w/ the inching
light of day, sweeter than smog.
even succulents give in, preferring
the company of dirt. forgive me.
i said lately, but i meant earlier too.
the years read as obituaries do —
circling back forever in our hearts
to a terminal beginning. they say,
living makes light work of you and
i say, amen, all hail the grim reaper.

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