God Is Pooh Bear

for D.M.


My lecturer picks corn
chip from his beard
before telling me
how his world turned
darker than a black bean
the morning it dawned
on him that Kerouac
possessed only one
emotional register—sad.
Lowell’s favourite Jack
found everything sad.
The middle-class
philosophy was sad.
His lover’s post-coital
yawning was sad.
(Parenthetical thoughts
between streetlamps
were sad). Even
spreading mustard
on salami sandwiches
in a parking lot toilet
was sad. But burning
the roof of your mouth
on hot joe or running
out of Benzedrine
was lugubrious. Despite
his thirst for adventure,
I don’t reckon Jack
would be my first choice
of passenger: at stop signs
and red lights he’d recite
scraps of Nietzsche
or spill his cask wine;
he’d detail how the folks
sharing a meal together
down the RSL were sadder
than most because they
didn’t know or accept
their sadness; he’d let
his cigarette grow
perilously floppy
with ash while he gaped
at a cloud that stuck
like a lump in the blue
throat of the sky;
and when cruising by
Cold Tea Creek,
I couldn’t bring up
the anti-tank ditch
in case the car combusted
with his disgust
for the faceless military-
industrial complex.

What would Jack make
of me eating all alone
this Saturday night
in an empty SUBWAY
opposite the highway?
Maybe he’d say no gal,
no digs of my own,
and no permanent gig
are ideal ingredients
for an authentic poetic
existence. Or he might
just think it sad. After
damming the river
of drool that floods
the cotton fields
of his faded plaid shirt,
he’d wonder why
his offbeat dream
had suddenly come
to a halt; he’d bang
on the windows or kick
the driver’s seat,
laughing as he shook
half a century of sleep
from his wandering
eyes; and then he’d cry
until we were back
on the road—a sea
of shadowy houses
ebbing in our rear-
view mirror and jazz
flowing through our ears
as daylight oozes
over the horizon
like God sat on a lemon
or upset his honeypot.


*The title of this poem comes from a passage out of Jack Kerouac’s novel On the Road (1957).

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Aftertaste

In the beginning? There was buffering.

There was a butterfly flapping its wings in the Amazon.

There was certainty, orange juice (sugarless) and Coca-Cola, there was a Lhasa Apso, there was hardly any horizon, and there were fruit in the trees in the old house where we went every summer and there was moving and maps and strawberry syrup antibiotics and time, so much time you could drown in it, and there were dumplings and TGI Friday’s mustard and cake mixes and butter fingers, and I’ve mentioned butterflies already but there was waiting and there was magic and triplets on TV, and there was carnival with its confetti, there were cassettes and cousins and their ferrets and stories so many stories but there still are – in fact I think sometimes that’s all there is – what was it like, though? When words were that concrete

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Emergency Exit

It’s not as if I don’t remember
anything of our werewolf months.
The shipwrecked femur, sticky dark.

Now it’s just some scenery thawing,
and the edges have grown a little wisteria –
bruised foam, some freshwater light.

And in the decades since, I read books
with the word “innocence” in the title.
I can’t remember the last time I blushed,
felt all my arrowed blood, admitted to anything.

You were right to leave.
It takes six trillion years, after all.
The moments in which I’ve caused my life.

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666

1.

Hey Nine’s Many Sides, who
you calling “arse-up”? Six
could claim the same. Besides,
they’re the other half of
that tantric act and it
does take two to tango.

2.

Six, you are everywhere.
You’re all strings strummed on a
guitar, beers drunk from the
pack, and the degrees of
separation between
two people anywhere.

3.

You’re revolver bullets—
just like the number of
shots Dirty Harry claimed
he lost count of from his
.44 Magnum on
some punk’s luckiest day.

4.

In the mountains, you’re the
crystalline symmetry
of a snowflake. And you
categorise insects,
shape the sides of beehive
cells. Bent little tadpole.

5.

Six, you sense dead people.
Your nightly news is dark.
Ancient Greeks put a hex
on you. You’re also sex
from the Kiwi tongue—or
said in Latin. In the

6.

Bible, six is seen as
sinful—even more so
in a threesome: Satan’s
secret symbol. Bad, they
say. It’s a good thing you’ve
turned 18, Six Six Six.

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spanish cream

all the scars are movie stars
when you drag my body along the lawn
ill go put the movie on
and watch our bodies spiral like a lighter song
broken ginkgo in heady fall
and the noise of your bloody voice
baby falda
a dip of vanilla cream
you taste like soda
does your history taste like sugar or bloody bliss
counting all the scars near your hips
nunca quiero ir no quiero marcharme nunca
the movie stars
youre a movie star kissing me on the lawn
smoking my melancholy song
baby falda
spanish cream

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Lamb Couplet

While salivating on a lamb cutlet,
I rack my brains to write this damn couplet.

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I Still Don’t Speak my Father’s Tongue

To be so close yet disconnected
Long stap pasim yet liklik long

Through divorce and loss, death and marriage
Long namel long katim marit na loss na maritim

The bird shaped scar across the heart of a people
Pisin sua kilok bilong manmeri

There’s no Tok Pisin word for colonisation
Because we have always existed in its wake

Both separate and connected
Tupela narakain na abrus long

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Alligator weed (Alternanthera philoxeroides)

Presenting a white paper flower
On your birthday I was wearing
The worst possible behaviour
Limbs all hollowed out.

On your birthday I was wearing
Rivers I’d found somewhere I shouldn’t be.
Limbs all hollowed out
In plants lining Georges

River-side. Found somewhere I shouldn’t be,
Lurking in what someone else has tended
In pants lining George’s
Knees on the ground.

Lurking in what someone else has tended.
Presenting a white paper flower.
Knees on the ground.
The worst possible behaviour.

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in our sharehouse

u have
eat the rich
inked on ur arm
and i have a $50 note

i kiss
the back of ur knees
and ur fever breaks
a hundred times over

hold ur face
collapse here

yes yes yes

here we are
here we want

the air leaves the room
so we can be alone

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Itai Hoteru Are Open 24/7

–thanks to 2July17 New York Times


No Bronx roach motel cliché
–rather this is a Tokyo reality:
half the minimalist hotel rooms
are furnished with traditional twin
beds, flat-screen TVs, plastic-wrapped
cups, toothbrushes — and across the hall
the other half, fitted with plain small altars
and narrow platforms designed to hold coffins,
is where all the corpses rest. Checkout time for both
living and dead is without exception no later than 3 p.m.
Premium suites may have climate-controlled sarcophaguses
with transparent lids so mourners can peer inside. Part mortuary,
part inn, these establishments serve a growing market of Japanese
seeking an alternative to a big old-style funeral in an island country
where the population is aging rapidly, community bonds are fraying,
crematories are not able to keep up with the sheer amount of business.
By custom, families take the bodies of loved ones home from the hospital,
sit an overnight wake followed by a service the next morning in the company
of neighbors and colleagues and friends. Then, in the afternoon, the body is sent
for burning. The ashes are kept at home before burial for 49 days, when according
to the Buddhist bardo, the passed are believed to arrive at the next world. But as strong
communal ties weaken, lower cost practical ceremonies are more and more the province
of nuclear clans. Demand for corpse hotels’ll increase till the supply of baby boomers disappears.

An Itai Hoteru - or corpse motel - in Japan.

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Queer Birthday Call


Morgan says, happy birthing
of the meat. Time isn’t
real, Billie says, but the body trusts it
still like a loser. Discord is
shit, the world is a fuck and you’re
older and
dad to a shifty cat; Ulysses
is a good birthday name, but I don’t
think Have a Birth
-Day like a Cat is sound advice.
There’s an essay What is it Like
to Be a Bat? It involves a sounding
an urn with a tiny hammer, to probe the noise
echoed, but then— says Ren—
that’s just every day, each stich unravelling
in the sun, unfolding like a child
into a wariness. I talk
sometimes in my sleep, lower jaw
cracks like ice, seams along
an umbilicus of air, releasing Jurassic
-era carbon. You apologise
for the wifi-quality
our avatars laugh like fire
sirens.

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Xanthippe, or, A Cure for the Common Scold

Wife of Socrates, was a royal shrew
Old Man Eloquent, knew not what to do
Little doubt that this woman he did dread
After she dumped a piss pot on his head
(What of your gal pal, dear reader? Behoove!
A philosopher be – your smartest move)
Love of wisdom and life of the mind rich
Just a hitch: one can’t reason with a bitch
From her he could only run, but not hide
The ultimate solution? Suicide!

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Everything Back Where It Belongs

When he’s Had Enough, which happens
every three months or so, he packs his suitcase.
Flinging stuff in with bravado, making a scene.
He packs towels and all. Really trying to sell it—
I’m Leaving for Good. Sometimes, he’ll even lug
the suitcase down the stairs and outside and he’ll
deposit it in the truck of the car. It’s rare, but now and
again he’ll actually drive away. Most often, though,
he packs the suitcase, zips it up, fastens the straps, locks it,
then he goes and has a smoke or two. And then he unpacks.
Putting everything back where it belongs.

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Letter to Xi

Till the blue grass turn yellow
and the yellow leaves float in air
… E. Pound, Canto 99



As the Sun moves towards Equinox, and the weather changes,
So the ground beneath our feet begins to tremble like an aspen.
Each year Autumn seems to come earlier, the calendar slipping,
Sacred rites falling out of alignment, and the people are confused.
Whatever edicts used to obtain, they no longer have any force.
Yesterday, when we should have been preparing for the long fast,
None of the nearby cafés and restaurants were preparing pancakes,
Though a cooking programme featured a pair of ladyboys,
All dolled up as though they were parade queens on Oxford Street,
Worn out echos of Kybele’s priests, garish and indiscriminate.

Long ago, our parish processed around the church, in splendour,
Catholic, each going in his proper order, thurifers and monstrance
Glistening in the light strewn by the great bonfire, hymns rising
Like clouds of incense to the October night: even the Lodge came,
And the Archbishop was seen in the company of the Rabbi.
My father told me to take mother away if he phoned in the code,
Though he must stay on, to keep the two transmitters broadcasting.
His pistol still had six bullets to keep the Japs at bay, now the Reds,
Then to wait for the next message, or look for the drifting clouds.
And all the time we were glued to the Voice of America, our salvation.

Wise men make plans, having read the histories, for little changes,
And your régime is surely the world’s wisest government,
The long Silk Road stretching like a ribbon from sea to sea,
Your sonship assured in true and ordered succession, as you
Are bathed in the people’s affections, and nurtured by our opportunism.
But, and here you need to pay attention: the rats are gnawing
Hard on the foundation posts, so many wise-arse lawyers
Rushing off to the court without great cause, harridans screaming
To pull down any man who’s displeased them, their sisters also,
And bats, which have roosted in the fish markets, are sneezing.

This perfected world is falling once again into disorder, into plague.
Widows die alone in locked rooms, their sons held at town gates:
Ships, far out in the Yellow Sea, burn down to the waterline,
Their crews and passengers clinging to each other in despair,
And from the skies, airliners fall like so many wounded eagles.
What chance is there to restore needed balance, which is made
Not in one mere day, a year, nor even in one Emperor’s reign,
Nor for the sake of the New Year, when families reunite in filiality?
A gentleman’s vocation is sincerity in maintaining the profession,
Rather than indulging in passions engendered by an economics text.

Greed, and pride, led Máo to the podium, had incense burnt,
Made clear laws to overturn Heaven and Earth, blasphemed.
Good laws come from good manners, which come from water
Tumbling down from the lofty hills of the Buddha’s abode,
From the earth that crumbles in one’s fist, sprouts millet and rice.
Though you have bought your office, and procured the people:
The drinking of blood is the depth of bad manners, unlawful,
As is the harassment of artists and scholars, or slicing babes.
No good will come of the state as it experiments with our lives,
You’ve disturbed the hills and streams that colour the air we breathe.

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The Moon Poem

for Norman Erikson Pasaribu

on the overpass
in the sizzling heat, looming
a moon bridging two worlds
not having a ‘I’ for a ‘also’

in my keeping, comes an attempt
I use
to render an evening

liminal

encircling in the well, immeasurable

the midnight still snuffs

out a full moon

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Mansfield Bar

I never gave Jayne two thoughts
until she didn’t save me from sliding under
an eighteen-wheeler, just a man with a name
like mine said fast on the radio, famous

enough the calls wouldn’t stop. You can’t act
except on the chances you get. She got by
with what she had, old-school va-va-va-voom,
“Here they are” how Jack Paar welcomed her

on The Tonight Show, some people less
than the sum of their parts, a handful
of passable films and one spectacular
wreck on leaving a Biloxi dive.

Some roles one doesn’t walk away from.
She inspired steel not silicone, the world,
as audiences go, arbitrary
as the gods, endowed too late with mercy,

transforming the object
of their attention into a tree, a bird,
a star, any impact pure coincidence,
like a collision or meeting someone.

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Driving to Work with Britney Spears

I don’t care what anyone says,
I’ve had to pee so bad in traffic
I’ve pulled over in the breakdown lane
where the courtships of small animals go on
in the ravines. I’ve been so full of shit
I’ve had to turn the radio on
just to drown me out. But I like
her voice. I like her signature
low note, that guttural thing she does
that sounds like pushing. Like she’s
climbed down into a ravine and she’s squatting
there among the animals, pushing.
It could be a bowel movement, it could be
a baby. It could be a second baby. Baby, baby,
it’s very effective, whatever it is, and I don’t
care what you think because I’m happy
singing along on my way to work,
my thumbs keeping time on my steering wheel,
my head full of bullshit and beauty and Britney
Spears pushing and singing and making babies.

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Sister Nora kneeling

Sister Nora kneeling to place daisies at the foot of the fruit machine
Circling, the ice planets appear fixed in the viewfinder
Of the binoculars left out waiting on the window sill
for watching cockatoos and pelicans in the wetlands
even your petty soul is heritage listed.
The codswallopers ride up as far as the electric wire,
Talking at once about the routine desecrations
Canvas bag bulging with nail bombs and mustard gas
Stoking the incinerator in the yard at weekends with boxes
and apricot tree branches
Dirty green water is stagnant with dead cod bobbing,
You allowed your ambitions to be so casually disintegrated
by the Mekon aloft on his hovering saucer
and every carved out idea that sank in execution.

Squandered my chances, poured petrol on every bridge
Tree hermit in the cave at Griffith, collecting shavings of Lux soap
for the copper, a Tarax Polly Farmer footy game found at the op shop
You must recall the revolving carousel restaurant down near
the Albert Park basketball stadium, what happened to that?
The scribe in the laneway beneath Gog and Magog,
the Harlem Globetrotters when they came to play at Kooyong,
And even the bailiffs won’t come for these failing
monochrome memories
And the cars like lit cigars wind in procession up Willan’s Hill
Down the edge of Beauty Point road
where the laminex factory once was
dinosaur backed dark road past tanks and towers,
glimpses of Bolton Park’s glaring pearls of flyswatter lights
for night football, loudhailer wailing,
as a late rumbling goods train bangs out its long kettle drum.

Then unbelievable stillness and the thinnest splinters of rain.

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Cicadas

After Dimitra Harvey

In my marriage we argue
over building, offer each other tenders,
bid on chores. I read my friend’s poem
about cicadas, each season of stanzas
carefully kneaded. She is a cook, bakes
cakes so real the sugar flowers could wilt
and you wouldn’t know the petals were fake till
they fell and the ants came. In the poem
she knows the cicadas nest in dirt 18 years.
Everything else is a plant, or statue
spun till it stills. Let me tell you
of how the only clay I make crumbled
broke in the kiln from air, I was only taking classes
to try and find the poem in how I knew I would fail.
This is similar to how I fall apart in prenatal
yoga unable to make my arms and shoulders
in time – hold it. All of this
is to say, I admire the poem that can
tough it out, I am cautious of anything built
to last, what things might lie in soil waiting,
able to exploit any crack to get to air.

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I’ll Never Again

Appear on a school stage and recite Cuthbert: The Boy with a Cart.
Pretend to enjoy watching a soccer match on a freezing cold day.
Own a mustard 1977 three-door Corolla car with fuel injection.
Queue for two hours in customs to view the Statue of Liberty.
Sing The [Girls]Light Up in a small car with eleven people.
Go swimming in a halter-neck with my midriff showing.
Ride a zip-line in Costo Rico and hear a tree fall down.
Be tipped off the back of my brother’s snow mobile.
Buy a Christmas tree before the start of December.
Stand outside a school gate and make small talk.
Order takeaway from a Chinese café in Venice.
Tell my kids it’s time for them to go to bed.
Adore Middlemarch like I did at eighteen.
Recall the rules to interrupted cadences.
Read to the end of a book I don’t like.
Play a game of Murder in the Dark.
Be the last person to leave a party.
Stand in a lift with Joan Rivers.
Wear a Russian wedding ring.
Forget the drive-in speaker.
Put a valance on my bed.
Eat lavender ice-cream.
Teach Sunday School.
Wear a shower cap.
Make paper-toles.
Do a handstand.
Perm my hair.
Grow bonsai.
Bushdance.
Waterski.
Sip gin.
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Unwrit

Knowing the future can stop play
we shun the prophets in favour
of any game of chance.

Dad on his back in the grass relaxed in a way
I don’t remember –
white polo shirt and creased trousers
knees bent to steady my ten-month-old wobble.
Sitting side saddle, my head turned to look at him.
He has removed his shoes and a soccer ball rests
at the toes of one socked foot as if to tease it bare.
His right arm shields his eyes from the sun so that he
can return my look – what is it we see in each other
then and never again?

Too young to register anything more nuanced
than presence and absence
my sensate world still far from the theatre
of personal pronouns. Fear by any other name.

Maybe he is thinking about sales quotas
or the spin of a story over a pint in the pub
but maybe he is thinking a fine girl to start
and there will be boys too there will be more of each
all good kids who will always look to me this way.
Why would they not? One of them at least
will be the first in my family to make it
all the way to university.
There will be a dog. A cat, if pushed.
A boat for the peace. Guns for provision only.
And my wife, my Rosie, will want for nothing.
Ah, if wishes were fishes and the lads on the ship
could see me now.

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I Cutlass Spent Days With an X

Question: What does every ancient reef forget?
Answer: That time stopped for it several thousand years ago.

The line resembles a stain on the sundial’s brow. Imprecise,
fading outward, crowned by the earth’s long furlough

from dust and heat. A hand paused at six o’clock:
the hour that brightens the blue lawn, threads steam

from the kettle’s mouth. The same hour gathers like silt
in a harbour where seabeds nourish their fossils-to-be.

I want to break open each minute, eat the loose seconds
where they fall. At forty weeks the line is a rusted gnomon.

You swim in the noon gap, a metal goldfish tocking the bowl.
Linea nigra: watched pot. Each night you kick the line:

extensible, impatient to begin.

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playing with Justin Bieber’s baby

(a loose oulipo transformation)


you know she
loves mean
she knows you
care
(woe, a hah)
she shouts
whatever
and you’ll be there
(woe, a hah)
you are her lowboy
she is your heat
she will never ever
ever be a partridge
are you ivory?
gladiator
quit sayin’
(woe, a hah)
you’re just
frill-necked lizard
what are you playin’?
(woe, a hah)
there’s ant eater
looked right in your eyrie
(woe, a hah)
lowboy
you broke her heat
for the first timpani
and she was like
maybe, maybe, maybe NO!

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the sexy time

I’m the stupidest boy in the room
and I use half my fingers
to get the make out music started on the speaker
buttons and bra straps aren’t braille to me
even seeing them, I glide my fingers across
feel the bumps, like for fun
and fail to bridge between form and function

we mix like some poor alchemy
caught halfway between a drum and a haiku

hot and nasty like some microwaved peach pie
sat all last night open on the kitchen bench
the residue clings just the same
more often is it a game we’re still making up
with less tools than Yahtzee and more moves than chess
looking like the first two kids
to pin the tail near the donkey

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