Nights of Excesses

for Sean O’Callaghan

A Kalashnikov, is an AK-47.
Americium, is an actinide, and has
an Atomic number of 95. The sun, is 93 million miles away.
The word punch (in Hindustani) means 5.
The Dead are mourned, in Muslim cultures for 40 days.
5 and 6 are a Ruth-Aaron pair. 12,648,430 (in
hexadecimal) is C0FFEE, and coffee troubles the mind.
There are 6 feet in a fathom; 16 people in
a tug-of-war; 8 one end & 8 the other. Love is
a score of nothing. “81”, the symbol of the Archangel;
“59”, a stupid number; say “Sorry” / “Sorry!”
The Torah commands you to love, respect, and
protect a stranger — 36 times! Talking about, talking
the hind leg off a donkey; the √2, is irrational.
72º, room-temperature. When David slew Goliath he had
5 stones on him. In Neo Nazi circles “28” stands
for Blood & Honour. Shostakovich scored with
a Symphony in B flat (minor). 10 – 9, say again. 10 – 2, copy!
An Arabic proverb sez, to understand a people, you
have to live with ‘em for 40 days. 47 is the telephone number
of Norway. The length of a cricket pitch ______ 22 yards.
There are 86 metals in the Periodic Table. The .45 belongs to
the Smith’n’Western. The 13th Hour, is the hour
of darkness; “25”, the name of a card game in Ireland.
Psalm 101 tells us to lead a blameless life. And as
we Exit those bars and side-streets, and all those
nights of excesses, we fall asleep (mixing up all our
emotions, with listening) to the BBC. The sun, is 93 million
miles away. The Atomic number of Rhodium is 45.
There are 17 strokes in a Chinese ideogram.
Picasso completed Guernica at 55. The word punch (in
Hindustani) means “close by”. There are 18 wheels
on the back of a trailer, and 1 makes 5.

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Ghosts of Instagram

The sky is already curating stars and the unseen
creatures are crawling out of their burrows and
into my ears by the time the sea confronts me.

My friends complain I’ve been far for
too long but still the tug of return is too easy to ignore.
I sit and watch the light depart from the Adriatic

as it does from my grandmother. Thirteen thousand
kilometres is a bit much (isn’t it?) to go watch
someone die. She would love this coastline though,

something about the ocean exhaling waves onto the sand
always brought her a smile. Frail Proust tells me people don’t die
all at once, but it’s like they’re travelling abroad.

Well the dead don’t clog up my Instagram with
obnoxious photos of old buildings or their beach bodies.
Though maybe I’d prefer it if they did and Nana

could soon post a pic with lips puckered while wearing
oversized sunglasses and an ancient monument behind her.
And then she can take a selfie with Grandad so he can say hi too.

Last minute plane tickets really are expensive. When did
the water become so dark that it disappeared into the sky?
I’m disappointed that the ocean isn’t reflecting stars,

that would’ve looked good on my grid.

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things I left out

you steal other people’s stories, make yourself star
confess by email solipsistic, I know
you have the kind of eyes that put Isabella Rossellini
out of work in movies or so she alleges
smashed-avocado green cosmonauts
ski slope cheeks

you invent national tours
I’m pleased for you but when you concoct
the A3 sheet of paper on which to write the dates down
wouldn’t A4 do?

you are a goose for compliments
long-necked short-legged you follow them around
you like to make me jealous even
a cat will do
your texts lack stops and so leave me hanging

fact is, Einstein said it best
you are spooky action at a distance

sometimes I become you when you’re not around

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Like trying to remember a dream

David Lynch is holding me underwater, one hand covering my mouth and the other
stroking my hair.
Through the water bubbles I can see that he is
smiling.
I’m afraid to take in a breath because.
There’s no telling where I’ll end up.

There’s someone standing over his shoulder and at first I think
it’s Jesus
with that dark skin and thick beard. Part of me thinks
this wouldn’t be such a bad way to go.
Part of me thinks, hey Jesus, let’s get together. And also, no.

I think I’m kicking my feet but I’m not sure. Do I still have feet?

David Lynch looks angry. He is not
smiling
He is stroking my hair but now he’s pulling it, pushing his fingers to the roots, my scalp,
and scraping.
It doesn’t hurt, but I think, I’d like to get up now.

My chest hurts where my lungs are shrinking into empty plastic bags.
That you might kick out of the way and they might get swept up
under car tyres or end up in landfill.
Those are my lungs.

David Lynch is looking back at Jesus. They talk but I don’t hear them because I’m
underwater. Jesus nods and leans closer, over me. I think he’s wearing a dark suit, and
I want to tell him, you look nice and maybe we should go out somewhere after this.
Like, for thickshakes at Rosie’s.

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Lakewater

We speed past the same breed of low‐tide pelicans
I remember
from when I lay with you,
amongst the flattened reeds and upturned kayaks.
Everything smells of barbecues and lakewater
as we ride east, now, toward the sea,
where the teapot fumes from the smokestacks
merge with the upside-­down cauliflowers,
and you question our relationship early today,
on a cloudy public holiday.

We cross the newly raised cycle tracks crowning the flumes
and plane off-­road into a squawk of cormorants.
Our bikes pin-­wheel through the marshy puddles,
splattering black mud on lycra, till we collapse on the far grass.
I smell the dankness of the urban run-­off, and the cool water,
and remember my frustrated haste,
and your slow and easy laughter.
We eat soba noodles today from our panniers,
then remount and roar back west, past the pines
and the inert fisherman, unwaving
in their timeless fashion,
and I wonder if I too am frozen,
ever-­circling.


I believed, back then that
love, far from growing, is a growth,
like algae, like the houses
fusing to the edge of the lake,
a slice of waterfront
that we must race to clutch, at a speed you loathed
until you couldn’t anymore.
Now you and I fly on carbon fiber,
and I want to tell you that I love you, quickly,
before the setting sun pierces the vegetables.
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How Could You

In darkness slicked with humidity,
I practice nocturnal habits
scented by anal secretions.
Milked glands daub human skin,
rain-soaked undergrowth
breeds my musky smell.
Maligned for the spread of a deadly virus,
I am culled in a blame-dance seeking revenge.
Is it I who infect – or you?
A creative hunter in a love tryst
with cherries from the coffee tree
I peddle to your desire,
the bean survives gut juices to yield
kopi luwak
sumptuous for its rarity.

You wear my arse,
drink my shit,
curse rivers,
devastate my habitat.

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No. 5

A.
nathos, althos, ardan
crept willow aches the soil
*
whose names are these
(whose hands)
now kino stains the trunk
your brothers slipjoint gleaned
when we were younger

grasps age cinders
become
sequence without object
and mothlight bracks the edges
of motion in

carnations clove
double
suss the tatted palm tree cheiro
bruised knuckles feed cunts
eating play-doh

hachures collect
contours out of date
chainlink hatches light
within so without
thought (lines clade thus)

menthol cracks again yawks from a
merc
do not go gentle
as the moon indels
its image is

always riddled through reaction
rue
for the visual nerve
two three pregabalin
to relax

i guess there was more to it than
that
felled limn that lyric displaced
along creeks swerve
by this yearned

for pining i have learned bijol
dyes the morning
(occupying
erasure so
lines distrail

under flight paths) past figured youse material
of my sole worn
in places how
locus stems

aspect descends in colours asked not to be named
anaphor leaf
nodes kin to trees both
senses

inseperable as the whorls in greased fingertips
tapped eucalypt turps blind
preserves (thins)
the would

in amber sets each sun the great western highways enjambment
overrun
parra grass
harrowed

cortege to pinegrove (will gestured wisps the streetlights through them) still
far windshears
beat catena
for

you the draughts cohere lucida these plains border immanence
replica (orchid
and the
wasp)

what culm measures are buried here weather bore (dendrite fossils / window frost
daylight
breaking
through

warms) rim articulated stick spoke skrt out the cul-de-sac telegraph
poles (the
copula)

aspire tns hanged from the wire approach birds at these distances
we swallow (boot)
the

herron blue without water crowd touched crwth the lyre crows youse spelt what indifference
broods
chord

dissonance resolved tense holds the sirens too late whose names are these whose hands now kino
stains the

(coral pea larra ilma hillcrest jasmine greystanes marion equity constance eddy)

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You Have Nice Eyes: Three Postcards

A man swings open the universe and hangs up his coat.
This arched vault of darkness.
I will take a bus through empty fields
and learn the names
of buried men.
I will learn to sing
the karaoke of the drifting bees.
See how the lightning strikes the hive
the sunflowers darken.
And once you looked at me your eyes were grey.
A silver train crossing a quiet sea.
A cage fighter in a park.
A shallow rain lake at the end of winter.
Cicadas humming
like bonsai.

See how the lightning strikes the hive
the sunflowers darken.

We passed a bonfire
I turned but then it was gone.
And then a car
the light was on they were oblivious.
You find your way between us
with your phone torch
and once you looked at me your eyes were grey.
Wolf of the forest
I have cut the eyes from the woodcutter.
I lay before you
this apple slowly falling
through deep neural orchards
eyes closed.
Your crystals spin
colours quiet on your wall.

See how the lightning strikes the hive
the sunflowers darken.

Flowers bloom on the mounds of fox dens
and the hair of a polar bear
is transparent.
In winter foxes go across the ice
scavenging for colour.
And the word for bear is wanderer.
The fur so dense
the heat
never bleeds.
The river freezes on top.
The ice runs hollow.
Like abandoned cars in city parks
the bears
waiting for spring
sleep on the dry river stones.
And once you looked at me your eyes
were grey.

See how the lightning strikes the hive
the sunflowers darken.

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Taking Care

Today my house smells of mangos, christmas trees and heat,
the air is sticky and clings to the inside of my lungs like an idea
grew legs and crawled down my throat to make a home in my gut.
Now the concept of change makes me nauseous
bile rises from my stomach like the time I downed half a bottle of vodka
and everyone was so impressed they thought it might’ve been water but
my mouth tasted like kerosene, i could’ve breathed fire.
I just wanted to forget that I was growing

When we danced on the road and
you watched me laugh at the idea of being hit by a bus
i can’t apologise for the chemicals in my brain but I’m sorry,
forgiving, forgiven, for giving you reason to be concerned.
But i’m glad
You dialled the number when my eyes were too blurred to see,
my voice too slurred and broken by tears to be understood,
the world doesn’t deserve my inconsistencies.

We went from dancing on the street
to playing chess between sheets,
before the world turned my stomach
and red lingerie stained the bathroom tiles
I cried because I saw the way you looked at me,

It broke my heart the way i broke the porcelain cup
that used to sit on that ugly, tan-coloured shelf
and maybe i was missing doorways,
steps, and the point to this madness,
maybe it wasn’t worth the thirteen hours running
from the couch to the toilet and back,
a new bruise each trip, you,
holding back my hair.

It wasn’t just the cup that lay shattered on
that floor, our floor.
Your floor?
How was I to know I wasn’t welcome anymore,
Where were the warning signs?
“No trespassers allowed”?
I didn’t crawl through a fence to get here.

Tomorrow my house will smell of rain, cut grass and winter,
I’ll add another blanket to my bed to keep warm.

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Having a Hoegaarden Met Jou

From my balcony
I can hear the bells
of the two churches
ringing at once
oranges and lemons
lemons and lemons
two lemon halves
on a shelf
in our fridge
each half cut
from a different lemon
why should there be two
of everything
churches
lemons
windowsill tulips

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Impossible Images or; a list of things i cant describe –

– Dribbling, overflowing soda water
– Clinking plates passed
– Fidgeting w/ a ring and/or tightly bound bracelet
– Peeling an apple (Ozu)
– Snapping green beans
– Dog-eared postcards
– Garlic stained fingers
– A kettle’s steam
– Wiping a whiteboard with a blackened fingertip
– A flicked lightswitch
– Emptied waterbottle
– Painted nails
– Clotheslines
– Slabs of concrete,
wetted,
crack-filling
grains emulsified, paste-like
head full of it
buoyant and weighted
bruised, battered, chipped
swelling welts stuck
blistering and pendulum-like
swinging
toothpaste tubes
squeezed out
between a thought
butter wormed through the holes of a cracker
wafer
thinned to
the colour of a panic attack

The others will have to
Wait for an apt description
Wait ‘till I’m flayed raw
from an untied shoelace
unspooled fabrics
wretched

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from Conglomerates

Myself I saw the first tender shoots of Gehry
thumbnails planted two-and-a-half blocks from
the beach, Sydney Eastern Standard Time.
That good ideas pitch us forward
is a mid-week provocation. This good idea makes
the same old view newly visible, think high relief,
imaginative, if not imaginable. For example
my tech friends pose like honest grammarians
and yet the tinselled evenings lapse. All the heavy
furniture can be scrubbed back and sold on.
Just leave a cyclamen for me at the reception desk.
Give a thought for other sprung apart things.
The network signal is too bad. I heard about a
to-and-fro, that the people in question
are a phenomenon. And I saw the striking close-up.
Some would argue we’re in the midst of a tactical
rainstorm, given the changeable
definition of a rainstorm. But when will it rain?
I’m not blameless. The reception desk
is overflowing with cyclamen. Have you ever
attended a worse party. I didn’t anticipate it.
There aren’t any crisps. That person in the corner,
we started out as neighbours and were close for a
time. Now we signal nonsense from across the park.
The park represents absolute finitude. It’s a sticky
place; the infant years, childhood, adulthood
– no matter what, this park has problems.
Sydney Eastern Standard. I figured that one out.
It’s the conclusion of a novel I’ve already
decimated. My novel about venue closures.
But the people around me are looking
more and more spirited, is it about posture.
They move in a silent figure-eight. What kind of
party. I’m fearful of nearly every decision, so
I’ve altogether stopped opening my windows.
That’s personal. Day and night. Myself, I. Let’s talk:
Say I Do Say Yes, will I need to supply and carry
my own bricks? I can heat up the bean mix. Leave
a cyclamen at the doorstep if there isn’t any room.
After the heavy furniture get rid of the lighter
items – table settings, cushions – especially get rid
of what’s bulky. Please Forgive My No,
if it happens. I’m a maniac. That bulk seriously
contributes – rid yourself of bedspreads, yoga mats
– and really, all of your linen. What would you
do now with a word like honesty? There aren’t any
crisps. I’ll Probably Say Yes. I’d keep the wardrobe
pieces that can be worn in multiple configurations,
like inside-out or back-to-front, or across seasons.
It’s very good to plant out the seedlings, look how
cramped the roots. Next time. That’s something
I know about. Look how colourful the salad. Look
how sequined the view. Look how dynamic they are
as a couple. Look at that little dog running.
I can fill you in about everything.
Don’t think I’m so sensitive as to have not, or never.

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Grounds for hope

When necessary,
I’ll build a face, of course I’ll build a face
I won’t mind a bit I’ll make every part the
teeth mouth ears nose and with uncompromising
style.

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Apologies to Maribyrnong River, I Always Called You a Creek

It seemed to me that the river had risen twice in size since yesterday, like yeast left in the sun. I could see you had the rings of Saturn beneath your eyes. It had been a year of heavy rain and all or nothing again. You said our relationship, like all lucrative technologies, had built in obsolescence. I was always listing forwards, in your presence. I said the bend, from bird’s eye view, might look like giant ampersand. You said descriptions were always cooler than reality, like how an orrery is prettier than the telescopic night sky. Besides, birds, like this dialogue, were going the way of the dinosaurs. A ring-tailed possum ran across the bike-trail in broad daylight, a well known omen of moments of what the fuck. You bemoaned the lack of wi-fi. Suddenly I felt self-alienated and salty, so to speak. We parted company like perforated saladas. I walked down to tidal reaches and realised, no, I’d never been here before. All this time I’d been thinking of Moonee Ponds Creek.


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Darwin Memorial Library

The library held the bridge of heaven:
a 4-metre squared skylight, solving water

large enough for hush, and
– a child’s Richter scale of vowels and first

words: duhk, back-bird, cook-hoo,
the fiction section, the giant cat-fish

making the earth quake
alphabetising

– Admiral Perry’s gunboat
gestating in the harbour – the gift shop’s revolving doors.

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Excerpt from the Modern Woman’s Cookbook

You can start any of these recipes in advance
by soaking your chosen fruit in liqueur
(tip: male fruit should not be peeled
and does not always need to be deseeded)
and by preparing the sweetbreads –
poach the sublingual glands in milk and honey,
tweaking the creamy sweetness to suit your tastes.

How you progress from here is up to you:
once stretched, drape the tendons on the bedposts to dry;
punch the air from the lungs and leave them to rise;
or hickory-glaze the ribs for charring (be prepared
to get this delicious sticky mess on your lips and thighs)

but I always begin with the skin,
scored and rubbed with oil and salt,
and then the flank, dusted in flour and browned
in a heavy-bottomed pot, sloshed with wine and stock
and simmered until the meat falls from the bones.

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Moravian Eclipse Myth (Corona of Hunters and Prey)

Seven women roam a caldera in the mountains.
One starred in a ‘90s sketch comedy—wigged
damsel Fabio strummed the lute for. One knows
how arms at sea say, Save me, above the waves
and below; her red one-piece’s cut grooves
her legs like the grooves in a unicorn’s horns.
One is a magician’s assistant. One is Ace
Ventura’s girlfriend. Two are sisters on Full House.
One, an actress who served in my school canteen,
stands a head taller than the rest, neck choke
-chained gold. Down on the flatlands, a villager
gleans the scent. He climbs, and looks. The formation
resembles a deer hoof. I’m the leg. I maneuver
the hoof to a lakeshore, swim it to an island castle.

The villager swims the lake. Enters the castle.
His body hair drains. He can’t feel his bruises
swell, yellow, but it happens. The bruises are lust
in the way that skin is lust. Hunger too. The bruises
are what his famished village has made of him,
a wandering wound, a balm seeker. Tennis balls
in the guttering when as a boy I’d scale the roof
to retrieve them, felt rain-flayed and soiled to
rags: this is his indigence dress in the darkness
of the great hall. There is one light source—
a mirror, backlit as if with moonlight. Wedged
behind, edging from the bottom, is a scroll.
A kingdom and more for he who slays the ghost
that cannot be slain, whose terror hour is midnight.

… that cannot be slain, whose terror hour is midnight.
Were the villager literate, he would have read
this, run. But the myth doesn’t vest him such power,
nor does a negotiable summons thrill out my chest
hair by the root. He climbs again, up to a garret.
Lights the table candle. Everywhere, the grace of recent
movement: tomes on werewolves, frogs, and dragons
lie open as if just perused, tassels chewed, stroked;
the candle wax is soft and skin-warm; cobwebs
stream off a globe of Earth; shadow cobwebs stream
off the globe’s shadow. Between a unicorn’s eyes
streams a lone hair, long as a boy is tall—omniscience
and invulnerability in war to whoever plucks it.
Then, the door, wrought of water, not iron, bursts.

Wrought of water, not iron, the garret door bursts.
On the threshold stands a Cyclops. The villager
sees, in that yawning singularity, a servant’s quarters
or carriage house in which the captives huddle. Come!
Come! It may be a bedroom. Are there bite marks
in the bunk wood? Is Mars’ light jaundiced on the ceiling?
It may be a bathroom. Are there razor sheathes
stuck in the heating vent, like truths between teeth?
Nail lines in the grout mould, toy-soldier-green?
The Cyclops attacks. The villager spears its pupil
with the table candle, and from that tumult of sun
-beams and roars carves two perfect halves, which fall.
Out of the split drifts a voice: the damsel. Kiss the gold
to claim the gold
. The women envelop the villager.

The women envelop the villager. The women
whirled Earth and its shadow. The women, who
were hidden, flare—solar flares. The villager
shields his eyes. The women laugh and bleat and bawl.
In front of the villager sways the actress.
The villager kisses her choker: lips, tongue, teeth.
Her swoon upraises purple smoke, and antlers.
As the smoke settles, seven deer emerge. The deer
bolt the garret. Rather than bask in the blazing
corona that will save his crops, feed him, the villager
dons hunting camouflage. The camo pattern
matches his bruises, as if by design. The masking—
a balm. Need supplants wound—a need I need to hunt.
There is no point, no time. Seven caldera deer run.

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To Touch and Taste a Comet

At five past six on a milky morning in November, naked
from the waist down, dripping
perimenopausal sweat into my first black coffee
of the day, I wrote:
Be who you want to become
But first, know who you want to become

Jesus Christ, I hate it when I channel Gandhi at the crack of dawn,
the grainy difficult dream in which I’m trying to fuck Atticus, a lover
who left twenty-four years ago, still prowling my mind like a starving shark

I want to become Tyler Durden without the mental illness but the only club I belong to is
the one-parent-dead-the-other-has-dementia club
but I am trying to become ambitious so I read a story in a back issue of New Scientist,
To touch and taste a comet
and am so underwhelmed by the picture of Comet 67P’s bulbous shape
marked in cheap primary colours where sunlight falls or not
that I could never guess Comet 67P is a wildly alien landscape with only a few spots safe
for landing
and I think Christ, there’s a metaphor for life
The world is a kind of nothing place and I am like a rubbish pile inside and yet
To touch and taste a comet is written in font more elegant and bewildering than any
comet that I feel something I have no language for that may be out of my reach forever

I am striving to become brave and write good poetry
which means I must write Christ and Atticus three times
in this poem because three is the number of betrayal, Atticus
oh Atticus, who gave me a garlic press when you left back in ’94
Made in Switzerland, she has forty holes where the flesh worms out in a pleasing way
You held her higher than a trophy and said this garlic press is a metaphor while I hid
behind cheap red wine, not knowing what the garlic press was a metaphor for and
feeling too scared
sad
bored
stupid
to ask
I imagined my intelligence as tooth-sized back then
shrinking to flea-sized in the sober days
with a surface as fragile as fresh fallen snow

Some days the garlic press reminds me of a speculum
Reminds me how careless we were back then
How you lost your mother as sudden as a gunshot
How seven years later my father went, twin towers fallen
How that house with its glimpse of the dirty river from the enormous
red-bellied bathroom got demolished but the garlic press, she’s lasted
Her hinge a little loose she remains what she is without striving to become something else

In the end I want to be truthful
useful
hopeful
but ending is always the difficult part because fucking is not a metaphor
and we were always somewhere in between, Atticus and I,
his name always too much on my tongue
our pain always too much in my belly
which is almost definitely literally a metaphor but some days I still don’t know what –
Like my mother, I would like to be forgetful but my dreams won’t let me
I want to touch and taste the comet

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5 Sonnets

Handguns smuggled in apple pies.
An internship in the belly of a whale.
A cat with two buttholes for eyes
and a single eye under its tail.
Fingerpainting done without joy.
Carbonated barbecue sauce in a can.
A sense of humor only privilege could destroy.
A former president living in a van.
A black-leather-jacketed seagull tracing
a pentagram in the sand with its wing.
Silences words are ever erasing.
Eagle feathers stapled to a chicken wing.
A condom stuffed with a pizza slice.
A plumbing problem in paradise. 


A bird’s nest passed as a collection plate.
A chihuahua barking through a megaphone.
A magnolia growing out of a sewer grate.
Technophobes worshipping a crucified drone.
A boy band eating salad from a trough.
A powdered wig on a Rubix cube.
A pseudointellect you can’t turn off.
The shadow cast by a single pube.
A sprig of kale in the end of a gun.
The courthouse steps slick with lard.
A mustardy dildo in a hotdog bun.
A throat slit with a used gift card.
Hitpoints lost by reading the news. 
A ménage à trois between three yous.


Cologne so strong it breaks the fourth wall.
A bear trap set and concealed in a purse.
A war memorial in a bathroom stall.
Deodorant that makes the world smell worse.
Multi-millionaires mistaken for gods.
Imaginary enemies you’re paid to fear.
A curse where you nod if anyone nods.
A psychotic woodpecker pecking a mirror.
Landfills constructed exclusively for art.
A redwood tree whittled into a pawn.
A cannibal choking to death on a heart.
An upside-down shopping cart trapping a swan.
Present and past in a vicious rap beef.
A level of joy indistinguishable from grief.


A symbol you’re asked to misperceive.
An attorney who only takes payment in pie.
A cult whose leader asks you to leave.
A single ghost stretched out over the entire sky.
A bad dream that’s a good dream that ends too soon.
Pecan shell armor on a samurai roach.
An empty gorilla suit dredged from a lagoon.
A winless team with a tree for a coach.
A vending machine full of cowboy hats.
A bra stuffed with pages torn from the Bible. 
A civil war fought with baseball bats.
A conch shell sued by the sea for libel. 
A lighthouse pierced with a thousand knives.
Five thousand years of unearned high-fives.


Sinister lamplight striking parked cars.
A sexually transmitted fear of clowns.
Statues of Liberty on the moons of Mars.
Velociraptors waltzing in wedding gowns.
Misery misremembered as strength.
Miranda rights delivered in song.
Election years of infinite length.
Books banned for being too long.
A bouquet of okra in a suitor’s hand.
A ninja brandishing a butter knife.
A crown of thorns on an ampersand. 
A softball game that changes your life.
A dragon doing sit-ups in a cave.
A tiara on a tidal wave.

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Plate Boundaries

I went foraging for a full plate in the forest. / It’s attractive to have a lot on your plate. / An empty plate may be an act of defiance, or politeness. / A plate has no time to consider its surroundings, it is obsessed with its own fragility.

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Happy Birthday

It induces such an appetite for ribs
to know I was the first person to call you honestly.
The names you’ve tried on collecting in my cheeks
like bar mix. The woody aftertaste carried over
to two burnt matches suspended in the air conditioning
with our feet up on the vinyl seats of the last
train south. Caught it by a whisker
running through the stench of cement away from another
obligated goodbye. Elope with me.
It’s another way of saying your name is a birthday cake
you never ordered. You have no other option
but to eat your way out. While the walls are on fire.
In that trendy bar. And everyone is singing.
Singing by name. And patting you on the eggshell
with a countertop. Whites frothing forth over clear liquor.
Now, all stations. My palate is filling with paper serviettes
and the violet blooms of cracked pens. There is too much to say
the words are smudging across the fleshy triangle on the back of my hand.
Navy motion draining into my stomach straight off the sloping window.
Staring back across the grey opening of the carriage floor
the woolly unspoken fills my ears with nausea and pops in a minty bubble.
To be fair, we weren’t intended to be commuted this way.

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Bus Stop

Rain and the road
Shake hands at the coffee shop.
Bus stop.
Break, shift
Like that automatic kiss
Filling bedsheets
Compressing the morning into moans
Before the sun is up
–don’t go
Back to
Fourteen years of never loved you
Six years of never knew
Three hours of this.
*
We cover the mirrors
And grieve for
She not dead yet.
*
Back from the night before
Blue circles under eyes
Shadow of touch
Keeping bare legs warm
In the rain.

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Squid Squad #17-#20

#17

As the match burns down, Natalie Chatterley passes it between the fingers of her right hand and the fingers of her left. The can of cocoa beans corrodes. Angus Mingus’s pillow splits open.

Ruth Reith unstitches the patches from her denims. Bradley Ridley bites into a block of blue soap. Desire dissolves like salt, murmurs Lola Wheeler. Dustin Mostyn’s doughnut dough won’t thaw.

the erosion of the process of erosion is cut short by the process of the erosion of process, thinks Ruth Reith. Bradley Ridley ties his shoes in an ununravellable knot

Nerys Harris draws zigzags on the dusty table. The radio resumes its woozy songs. Natalie Chatterley returns the robin to the rusty cage. A line of paper windmills rotate on the lawn.

#18

Lola Wheeler takes down the mirror and gazes at the wall. The pebbles wear holes in Audrey Chaudri’s pockets. Hank Strunk detaches the balloon string from its rectangle of card.

Lola Wheeler recites from the reference books on the relation between the relations between the relations between things. Audrey Chaudri’s matches are too damp to strike.

Hank Strunk uncrumples the typewriter paper. The herons hover in on an intermittent wind. Lola Wheeler snaps her hacksaw blade. Rainwater runs off the corrugated roof.

Hank Strunk feeds the larks the lawnseed. Audrey Chaudri lets her wristwatch wind down. The shallow river ripples like a slow realization, says Lola Wheeler over a glitchy phone line.

#19

Angus Mingus catapults pebbles at the lemonade cans on the wall. Natalie Chatterley appears in the photograph twice. The salty spaghetti gives Hank Strunk rumbly guts.

The raffia unravels in Nerys Harris’s hands. A blue crow chews through the crocus roots. Angus Mingus pours coffee into an ice-cube tray and places it in the freezer.

As her concentration curdles, Nerys Harris suggests that in theory the theory that theory requires practical proof probably requires little practical proof.

Angus Mingus returns to the library and draws doodles in the dictionary. The midges move like smudges, Nerys Harris says. Natalie Chatterley slits open her mattress. Hank Strunk’s rubber boots rot in the rain.

#20

Audrey Chaudri draws around her left hand, then sharpens her pencil and draws around her right. Nerys Harris’s cider sours. As it bounces, Bradley Ridley’s wet tennis ball leaves its outline across the pavement.

Natalie CHatterley muffles her timpani drums. The moths get lost in the rigorous mist. Sassiness softens like sandpaper, says Ruth Reith and stretches out on the bench.

Hank Strunk refills the cartridge of his inkpen with water. Thistles rustle in the fitful wind. Our conversations convey little besides the conventions of conversation, Lola Wheeler supposes out loud.

Ruth Reith walks out of the walk-in refrigerator. Angus Mingus shivers in his towel. Nuthatches nest in Lola Wheeler’s bike basket. Nerys Harris skulks home in her socks.


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