Meditation at Max’s

for the Poet from Siasi, Dr. Anthony L. Tan

All new thinking does not involve chickens.
Which really is a big surprise, since chickens are
our favorite sacrificial lambs―their blood takes care
of the spirits that needed to be appeased.
Over a chicken dinner my mind wandered
into the fowl-filled afternoons in Camaman-an.
As expected from a time-traveling mind
which is truly arbitrary, I stand before the Estarte paintings
at Museo de Oro. In one of the paintings,
the Spanish missionaries have just arrived
on the banks of our river. They came
not to eat our chickens, of course (I’m pretty sure
they did eventually) but for something else.
In the other painting, you would not see chickens
but for some reason my mind entered the backyard
and saw the chieftain’s staff chasing chickens.
I came to conclude that special occasions such as, say,
Salangsang’s baptism into Christianity,
a chicken must die. I mean, as in right now, here,
inside The House That Fried Chicken Built,
in my godson’s baptism, chickens die yet again.
The long history of chicken sacrifice makes me wonder
how chicken souls are doing in the afterlife.
Are they fenced in still? Inside some coops, classified
according to their circumstances of death
(the way humans classify their dead—as saints, heroes)?
Or as reward, do they finally roam free
in an endless field littered with heaven-worms,
like true free-range chickens?

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A Short Time in the Yard

‘But the tyranny of low expectations smothered them’ – Stan Grant



The boys ruck below a yellow footy, going at marker’s-up
in front of Mt Baw Baw, a heron’s head that surveys the college in its blue shadow.
The moment’s hero jogs into the goal-square and floats back the ball to them, eye to eye, with the mountain.

Muzak. Lunch over.
A white flock of cockatoos spreads over their school,
First dimpled like a net puffing in the sea-tide, it fans under the sky
as they go to their lockers
under the white flag of your will.

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On Days I Ask Mom to Clean Out My Ears

her thigh a pillow / props my temple & neck / my toes tuck / into farthest crevice / my soles rub / the arch of each sunken other / Mom pulls a bobby pin wide / my body a board game she takes out on occasion / it’s as if she’s playing Operation / cautious not to shock / as she tweezers into the opening / of my thinking listening place / diligent not to dig too far in / Mom scoops from me / scoops from me / shows me the specimen of my making / it’s my honey in the light / then she pats—all done / my closest shoulder erupts against her getting up / I wheedle my pretty please / keep going the feeling / she relents / settles back in her seat / she gives me the feeling I ask for / casting again for my amber wax / a warm rush / the sound of a hug / where the wet, red center of my being sits on a lone stool / a tiny version of me in me/ this me closes her eyes/ her head tilts and listens from within / to Mom’s muffled hush hush / as she strokes a hum rushes to my inner ear / she sweeps away our crashing / she sweeps me away from me / she quells the other feeling / she sweeps in a way that sings / she sings a wordless lullaby / to fill & swell / she fills & swells / the empty panic room / made from all her manic absences
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Lament

I dream I’m a crow,
flying over a field of corn.
But the sound of a rooster
wakens me like a horn.
The morning sun rises
through a fog like tar.
Elm trees regard me
with despair.
Today my vision is bleary.
I drink coffee,
and gaze at a nasty day.
What good to remember
our life together?
You’re gone. Wherever
you are,
you’re far away,
and you’ll stay there forever,

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I Find the Cosmic Tree

Through the tunnelling of worms
Rain sweats its fermented gold

Tipsiness kicks in
I am here, next to the Cosmic Tree

On the street, I pick up a bunch of
Geraldton wax, three words in my mind

Recuring: disruptive, child-like, weird
Am I what I thought I would end up

Being? The Cosmic Tree, elongated, has ariel roots
They uplift me to the opposite of cosmos

Where dream becomes reality and time twists
I am back to my pre-primary body at my current age

Riding a giant pelican, or swimming
In the form of a jelly fish, or casting a spell on a willow tree

And always getting lost in the maze of tiles
Being touched by unwanted hands

— the sound of a belt on my flesh, shrieking
— and the sound of rubber slippers, approaching

My father’s body reeks of alcohol
His mother is hit by a car the moment she has

Her psychotic epiphany
But I am seeing her on a tram to Coburg

And yet I am sitting in my mother’s BMW
Vowing to leave her and never come back

I am five, I am ten, I am twenty
I am in China, I am in Australia

“Never forget your roots!”, my mother says
But she doesn’t know that trees migrate, too

Thud

The Cosmic Tree is done with me
I am back on the street

Still sitting, no longer feeling tipsy
But feeling utterly feral, utterly lonely

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Letter to Ba From Ancestral Tomb in Jiangxi Province

Just as I have confessed to you time after time,
I am not grieving for granite & soil.
Three characters, no epitaph. A century
of mothers & fathers slung across your shoulders &
I am not grieving, because given enough time,
are not all ghosts wished into darkness?
Should their spirits not scatter, set out for dawn?
I can ask you to tell me about strength,
have you nose through the scrapbooks & archives
to wring stories out of scribbles. Right now,
though, it is not enough for me to pull the weeds &
bow again & again at the ground. I have done all I can—
found myself in the mirror, imagined our faces
repeating themselves like a question. For so long
I have trudged & stumbled, dragging my feet
after you. In Jiangxi, the moss grows
from one year into the next—I imagine
it stammers, failing to find warmth from stone,
the shapes of which eventually fall into vanishing point.

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a trip on day soil

the sun’s shoulder is a
graveyard
laughing in tiny bits
of rain. a train, forgetting itself, clatters
and a loud river pays no attention.
i wouldn’t have
walked but there was
no other
way
to smother the barks of startled fields
or
fling the blanket from the wheelchair’s
legs. the salad for lunch was
a
radio full
of static: shingles punched
into
confetti. i remembered an old tarp
in
the garage sagging as if it
had
myasthenia gravis
but useful as a double shot. and
newton,
sweating under shade
in
wig and frills, forgets to eat;
forgets his
gullet is a blunder-
buss
refusing
gravity;
forgets what a pocketful of snakes
will do to anyone’s
weather.

it was as if
the simplicity of wanting gravel
to
resonate
until it crumbled
was like begging soil to turn on its
own.
and hatred sprinkled
on corn muffins
and elevators,
men wearing
ten-gallon hats a
century and a half
ago, gila monsters picking
their teeth with forks. so i

lay down and
pull the desert along,
drop
the cattle skulls.
a pocketful of
silverware
would only scorch
a mountainside
with clouds hopping away,
laughing as children.

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MAD LIBS: insert animal names here, instead

and mom, I said —
the (dolphin) at the public pool
stole my first kiss, the grey wet
snout like a gun on my face,
chattering and whistling
in my ear

and mom, I said —
the (hippopotamus) in the library
wanted me to stay, his mouth
gaping, the teeth chipped and strange
and that long flailing tongue
hanging out like a noose

and mom, I said —
the (zebra) on the escalator
in the shopping mall stood striped
and silent behind me,
his bizarre hair bristly and sharp
on my skin

and mom, I said,
I was in primary school when
the teacher brought us to the zoo
and made us learn their names.

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Accretion Farming

New Year waves make landfall along the coast
And among the oohs and aahs
From onlookers, it becomes apparent
How many things are made by beating.

Those smooth rocks the kids all
Slip down like slides, are only possible
Because the sea beat the edges
Off them. They were once sharp

Enough to cut glass but
Thousands of years of violence
Will take that from you, no worries there.
Even the cliffs we all perch on

And the mountains high overhead
Wouldn’t be here without some
Malevolence, some angry force that once
Struck the borders of the country

Until they were shaped more appropriately.
It stunned a lot of people at first, to learn
That the world was made the same way;
That great objects beat together

In space, produced all of us.
Perhaps it’s not such a surprise then that
We take to it with such ease. As natural
As sea water down a flat stone.

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Stick Woman

In the park next to our block,
on a floor of dry twigs and leaves—
Grace and I, on low striped deckchairs,
a flask of water and some dates between us.
The little ones run rings around the trees.

We are drawing Port Jackson figs, you see.
My daughter says it’s harder than you think
to capture trees, to get them down.
Their bodies don’t have endings, she says—
they’re wrapped around themselves.

That’s the trouble with too few dimensions.
I tell her you can trick the eye: draw the gaps and shadows,
and the tree reveals itself. The artist too—
my fig has buttress roots like dragon’s haunches,
its branches curved and lush as daikon.

The little ones creep up behind us.
We can feel their hot breath.
They steal the dates, gulp the ice water.
My son makes stirrups of his small hands,
helps his sister get a leg-up to the lowest bough.

She scrapes her knee, curls on my lap a while.
Beads of blood appear on her dark under-skin.
I dab them off, streaks of red sap on a tissue.
She takes my charcoal and loose paper,
draws a stick woman and three stick children.

Later, I’ll pin her drawing to the fridge, next to Grace’s,
and my turgid tree. I’ll rinse the lettuce,
top-and-tail the radishes.
I’m no longer lush. I am a stick, a twig,
kindling for their fire.

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Taking Care: White Family

We are predators at heart. Sensing weakness
puts us on edge and seeing it makes us salivate.
We want to strike, to kill. But it comes out like

healthy pushing. When White Not-Grandpa
recovered from his surgery, I’d walk with him
and White Grandma. In his survival-shock depression,

he’d want to quit and tried turning around and going home
every few steps. White Grandma would hold his walker
and use his debt to push him: “I’ll leave here,” she said.

“I’ll turn my back on all we made,” she said. “I’ll have nothing.
You promised I wouldn’t end up like that.” And he’d start moving.
She said the same thing to get him on the walk in the first place

and again to eat dinner, each time, finding new ways to phrase
his fear. In another context, the same move: try going to school
or moving to a new city, or changing careers, and we’ll find why

you want more and say you don’t deserve it. We’ll list your faults
and failures, list ours, heap on enough weight till you break,
like us. Our mouths say it’s support,

but with their eyes always forward and focused
not wide and searching
our blood says you’re prey.

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bodily (ab)normalities

my body is plumbed,
a vertical wasteland,
comparable to
a compressed chest,
some grey weight

cloudy and sleepless,
against the gut
which breathes
of its own accord.
a picture of health

three tablets a day,
my mother’s grip around
my midriff,
sweaty sheets
imposing, like rubber

praying don’t move,
sweet body, stay still.

blue light
when the night falls
like swallowing whole

the first cigarette
my father smoked,
the one that set off the addiction.
such healthy bodies,
a pair of lungs so tight

and a pack of prescription pills.
with spots mottling the skin
gathering dust,
I am segmented
carefully.

such healthy bodies
composed of half-forged things

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Infertility

men bleed cartilage wrenching bump nose splitting
cupped hand full of teeth and manly curses still photographs
the wet smell of sweat and churned grass
women bleed soft-tissue injuries hidden in A-line dresses
squatting over the toilet bowl blood dripping quickly to the cubicle
breath out and in firm fingers pushing as I blossom fall
two minutes two more minutes ‘til the end of lunch

we have waited two long years for the end of monthly curses
for a belly to quicken breasts to blossom
brown nipples to be on proud display in bandage dresses or oversized
sweatshirts listing south a longing for mangoes
things pungent and dripping juice licked from fingers pushing
yellow flesh one hand above and one below the bump on proud display
in photographs a human cello perfect pitch and tone

the doctor produces a specimen cup with a silent flourish
mouths platitudes solemn pitch and tone points out the cubicle
as I count down the silent minutes worry at my lip
with nervous teeth up up halfway towards the sign: occupied
then opened the forgotten blossom
of true desire red lines through monthly dates a calendar’s siren song
remembered days when we walked through honey haunting cello

the accompaniment to summer picnics in the grass me riding you
breath in and out out and in your shocked tone oh shit and then my name
fumbled hands pulling I look down then up pungent dripping
your blood-red thighs and belly another month wasted impossible
my body’s long silence looking up at the sun my eyes blood and honey
it’s not only men who bleed lovers who blossom and fall
but women like me curses in chorus and song two long years and nothing

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Bird

Most of the party respected their hate; anyone could have hunted the bird. The March wind harbors an inappropriate violence. He nodded to the water as he flew, knowing all of the stones and trusting the river’s glacial clarity. The reproduction of silence sounds like gravel when it plays on the police station’s stereo. Russet color on his talons suggests a suicide, the coroner rules. Birds wouldn’t do that, the police are firm, it must have been a murder. The gravel recording starts up again. The coroner turns slowly. He forbodes the pistol disposed in the riverbank, illuminated by sunken, snow-heavy stars. A solution: ether, icy metamorphosis. The vulture had made a serrated-winged pilgrimage to the Northland to pronounce the cold land’s name in his cloudless language. One wing was bound with fire to his rights, the other disappeared in moss. The answers to his overwhelming questions bloomed silently in the unclosing eyes of the fish. His legend smolders all around his imprint in the ice. The law goes home to meat and wine.

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Notes from Fortune Cookies

Someone you know deserves the truth.
A sharp tongue may be both a weapon and a tool.

Wisdom is the lamp, good thoughts the oil, sweet words the flame
spices the spoils of the British Empire, but still
salt is the only flavour your tongue can detect in this Christmas spread.

Don’t you know that nothing good ever happens to the only Asian
in a hundred kilometre radius, on a country estate, in a town called Dungog?
How many times must you watch Get Out before you learn?

Anywhere this far inland is too often too flat, too hot, too much of the same.
The old elm braces itself for their bulldozing questions
and is relieved at every second they do not come.

Hold fast, stay true to yourself, and you will inherit a great fortune.
Eat their Chinese noodle salad and you bring dishonour upon all your ancestors.

It is possible to be grateful for their hospitality
and critical of their cooking at the same time.
Confucius and Whitman both contained multitudes.

Do not reduce yourself to only one thing.
Let that be their mistake to make.

A discerning tongue may taste bitterness and know that
this is what it means to be only one-fifth alive.
Your tongue is a banyan tree more deeply rooted in your skull
than any of their bloodlines are in the soil of this country.

Your ancestors would have been the first to discover the West
if not for their complete lack of interest in it.
He who is content in his own home does not covet his neighbour’s land.

All things in their being are good for something
but every act of translation is an act of violence.
You can’t make an omelette without breaking some eggs.

This product contains eggs, wheat, and milk.
You contain multitudes.

Now and then someone will ask you
Where are you from originally?
Tell them fortune cookies were invented in California in the 1890s.
Tell them, I was born in Australia
but I am a product of my own invention.

Tell them how every day you are an act of violence,
a golden shell being cracked open
how you learned to recover the parts of yourself
that were lost in the act of translation, and how
in your own language
you recreate yourself.
In your own language
tell them how.

Please store in a cool dry place.

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Volcanic Fed

‘One match was all it took’ Louise Gluck

She comes on too strong. Sacrifice
dear ones to placate the mephitic
breath of the goddess. Magnani1
idols offered-up to an animal pulse
hustling amongst the slave class.
I carusi
2 buckle under and wombs
bag-up hellfire. Bare bottomed mules
moil for brimstone, too cavernous
to keep in olives and bread. Boom
then bust! She’s in your face,
full-bodied; we climb her slopes
over-equipped and photograph
our risk-take. She’s public space.
The slip-slide of a rock-fall and women
who simmer.

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The Salience Network [Street Scenes, Heidelberg]

We are walking daily now. We are stepping out at the inter-
section of Cape & Brown where a bristling fir tree is
scrubbing tense from the sky. Presently I’ve never seen
so many walkers, so many dogs on leashes and sun-glossed

puffer jackets swimming in autumn’s glare. My son
in a stroller, bald head capped in out-of-season sunhat,
sporty in white-and-navy stars. My daughter on foot,
hopping and idling by pink-hearted daisies.

In the allotted hour, the cones of the fir tree—once
slim green hats—fatten into brown globes, expansive
as eyes. Like reverse fireworks, a flock of cockatoos
descend from the sky to plunder the woody scales,

shred spiked branches. Fanned bracts over blue-
toned pavement where we begin our morning walk
and needles rain down upon the heads of passers-by.
We are walking and I am scanning footpaths

for trip hazards, driveways for reversing cars. Leathery,
dogbane oleander leaves. Chalk-coated berries
appealing in purple skin. Prepped for danger—
future’s proof in the quality of my attention.

Uncertainty is unbearable until I take it out for a walk.
Like a dog I am showing it a garden of artificial grass.
Next a garden of satiny acanthus. Variegated lawns.
Vegetable patches scrabbled with herbs, starred lettuce

hearts, Italianate latticework. Everything a threat.
Everything real and growing sideways. Our neighbour’s
fir tree so close to the house that its branches press
the fringed glass like a heartsick giant looking in.

Avoiding people, their radial breath and quilted jackets
exhaling on the verge. I want to be a myna marking
territory with plumed fisticuffs, rinsing air with song. I eye
my intention. Bare teeth beneath non-woven fabric.

Wearing a mask I can still taste cold and sweet. Last year
is over. The year before last is over, is returning now
in streets that curve like wood after years at sea. At the peak
of Hawdon, the vista spans the Mercy—crossed,

brushed white—where my children were lifted from me
in blue-lit clouds of relief. Year of the ground glass
lung. We are grinding scales and bracts beneath our boots.
We are watching a magpie come to rest on the branch

of a tall candlebark, honeycomb a sweet tune. Next year
a truck will misread the road and reverse into this tree,
splitting its trunk like parting the earth. A man will be
trapped beneath a halo of muted leaves while the driver

sits wailing on the curb. The driver is wrapping his arms
around his torso as if he is shattered timber. We watch
the splinters rain down upon the heads of passers-by.
The streetscape is changing again. We intrude like thoughts,

plant the wrong things. Vines imperil saplings. Dog-like,
I detect menace beyond a fenceline. Beginning at
the fir tree which shakes its sharp eyes, gathers its birds,
we are walking the street we will walk again.

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Genuine questions about Pet Semetary

**Spoiler Alert!**

First, what put that road there?
Sure, stuff’s gotta get somewhere,
but mostly someone’s gotta want it
when it gets there,
right? Semi-trailer gotta
hurtle along some trail.
Second, what are the odds
of friendly ol’ Fred Gwinn
having the ticker to top
Maine’s Mi’kmaq Mount Doom
before Rachel and the tykes
jet back from Thanksgiving?
A soothy septuagenarian
subsisting on bungers and Bud –
unlikely idinit?
Victor happened to be
out for a jog in Orono –
who read him
into any of this?
Is Jud evil or just stupid?
After all the ground is sour
Louis. Death should be inevitable,
that’s inviolable.

But the real big puzzler is why Rachel,
in seven years of matrimony,
never mentioned Zelda.
She didn’t once utter “Louis, you
must know, I had a sister
curtail’d of fair proportion
who breathe left in a backroom.
The flashbacks come as
vivid as noonlight
piercing a nap.”

Seems like something
you’d share with your spouse right?

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Fishhook

In some galleries I’ve visited,
people who don’t know what to say to a painting
might murmur, “It must be hard to do that.”
Perhaps that’s all you meant back then,
that suffering was something, after all.

The truth is, we never touched.
I remember deleting nudes from my phone,
so you could scroll through it.
I knew you wanted me gone.

Once, I would have let you eat the softest part of my wrist.
But if I pictured your genitalia at all,
I thought it must be cruelly veined like a horse’s neck,
something I would wash with warm soap
and fingertips, like I was holding a fishhook.

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Kristen Stewart

Kristen Stewart is an actress
Who became very famous in 2008
For playing the most attractive person in a film franchise
About beautiful vampires
And everyone hated her
Because she didn’t smile enough.
Kristen Stewart was seventeen in 2008,
Which I didn’t know until I looked it up just now.
When I was seventeen I was not famous
And I had complicated feelings about Kristen Stewart,
The same way I had complicated feelings about all teenage girls.
When I was seventeen I probably knew a lot less than Kristen Stewart.

In 2008 I turned sixteen without learning any fundamental truths about myself
And was disappointed that I couldn’t say
‘Sweet sixteen and never been kissed’
Because of an incident with a boy when I was twelve
And which I’ve never really processed.
I thought about kissing all the time,
Just not about kissing Kristen Stewart.

When Kristen Stewart was twenty six,
There was an incident with a film director
And everyone hated her for being unhappy.
When I was twenty six a lot changed and I was often very unhappy
And I spent a lot of time thinking about kissing Kristen Stewart.

At twenty seven Kristen Stewart came out as bisexual
And confirmed what lesbians on the internet had known for many years.
When I was eighteen I came out as bisexual
And confirmed something I had been afraid of for many years.
I am twenty seven
And Kristen Stewart is starring in a movie
About female spies,
An earlier incarnation of which I saw in primary school
And which I told my mother made me gay.
My mother
Cannot pronounce Kristen Stewart’s name correctly.
My mother
Also could not correctly say Kirsten,
The name of a girl who joined my primary school in year five.
Kirsten had beautiful hair and I thought we were going to be friends
But then she became a popular girl instead.
I was never a popular girl,
And I was bad at keeping friends.
I felt about Kirsten the way I felt about Kristen Stewart in 2008.

Kristen Stewart is twenty nine and in love
And most people think she’s really cool
And she’s won awards for her acting.
I am twenty seven and in love
And I write poems about Kristen Stewart
Because she’s very beautiful and I want to kiss her
And I no longer hate young certain women on principle
The way I did in 2008
And I hadn’t thought about Kirsten in years
Until I started writing this poem,
But I hope that all the girls I used to know are happy.

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Sagittarius A*

Event Horizon Telescope, May 12, 2022


how we always wanted to know
what was at the centre of it all

a sense of generational longing
only cured by operatic narrative

supermassive black hole shadow
glowing ring with cavity puncture

from far: brooding, slumberous
closer: orange-red smouldering

fast spinning silhouette wreath
devouring infalling surrounds

gas, debris swirling its perimeter
as stars slingshot around the rim

the interstices between itself
and those who view back home

an undressing blur of wonder
four million times that of our sun

synced observatories, collaboration
how we come together, uncovering

an image, years in lucid construction
calculations unveiling visions of data

core of our Milky Way hub singing
as we assemble the transit of notes

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Mahjong

East Wind

The gate is locked. A woman
exits the house, and we enter.
My grandmother takes her seat
at the table: her braceleted arms
intersect the others’ as they churn the tiles
ceaselessly, dry seas breaking over papered felt.

South Wind

She pulls a tile and runs her thumb
along its underside, across its carved
indentations. In a single swift motion,
she discards it. Her eyes search for the key.
When it finally arrives, her fingers insert the tile
into the gapped row; she calls out pung! and wins.

West Wind

The week he dies, my grandmother gives up
mahjong for a year. Her friends are bereft:
an empty space, a missing place. She lies in bed,
unsleeping, hearing his voice in every room.
Forty years of arguments, six children, nine
grandchildren—a pyre, ashes, and a stone memorial.

North Wind

I watched as my grandmother rose from the bed
and went to the bathroom without closing the door.
Lately, she has taken to stripping off and wandering
the apartment, naked. Some days, she remembers who I am.
Other days, she counts only the names of the dead. Nearly
endgame. Her final round. The clacking of the cold jade tiles—

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On the shoulders of grandmothers

You do not read or write our language
loop the yarn of wool around your neck
legs out straight
on the chocolate and beige swirled carpet
I am child witness to your domestic reign
in the slide and pull of stitches
that do not drop
in the click and rub of steel knitting needles
a secret language of gesture and rhythm
a sovereign state behind a paling fence

white sheets catch the wind
sloped backyard planted into steppes
tomatoes, cucumbers, peppers
prickly curl of watermelon vine
the cultivation of fallow ground
in the new world
to ward doubt

sheets off the line stretched
folded like pastry rolled thin
smoothed over
the pull of excess skirt hem
fat caught in the oilcloth
mercury rising

icon of St George, dragon impaled
watches
candle lit
a trusted house sitter
your hands workworn
changing milky brine solilo/солило
pickling cabbage, green tomatoes
air tinged with the smell of vinegar
like an embalmer solicitously you worked your craft

together we read the pictures from
little golden books
old Macdonald’s farm
kikurigu petle/кикиригу петле….
Three billy goats gruff
Trap trup trap trup/трап труп трап труп
faithfully you taught me nashe/наше
amongst the snapdragons and camelias
pulling weeds quietly planting petunias
your knife sharpened on the back step
a chook that pecks deserves a knife….
doused with boiling water
plucked feathers fly
blood spattered grass

in the practice of small things
between village and suburb
around the movement of
earth from red to black
your words were
a broth of microminerals




Translations from Macedonian

Solilo /солило – brine

Nashe/наше – our language

Kikirigu Petle /кикиригу петле – cock-a-doodle-do

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Tufahije

Molim te.
Daj mi kisele jabuke i limun.
There is something to be said here
about deity in burning sugar. Violet flame against
steel to sweeten. And if hours were to still
within the tiled room, how easy is it
to break a day with screaming crickets calling
from behind each turning step. Am I wrong to watch
your bloated hands struggle against the hilt as the
blade cuts through flesh. Sada gledaj dok
radim.
Should we watch those hands meet and
part like a moving flock visit us throughout the year
we would not move past November. There is a dream
and in it I will not move away from here. I will not leave this place
from your left and we will watch the apples
soften in the pot together. Walnuts will fall into the flame
and there will be no more pot. There are no more apples. There are only
walnuts catching fire and we will watch. If the smoke rises
above us to tell secrets you will wave it away. You will say
ne mogu slušat bezvesnje stvari and I will not wonder if the flames
are too high. We are dry now there is no wet left on
my cheek and you say gledaj so I do. It does not need to catch us
because we do not hide and you say uzmi so it does. The walnuts
are on fire. The kitchen is on fire. The crickets
are on fire.
November is on fire.
We are
on fire.

dust to dust.

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