After

The small town
to the south-east of what’d 
seemed 
                safe –

the neat array of bodies in front yards
feet first, entry wounds clean
in their foreheads.

And, looking closer – you always
need to look closer – small
marks pocked on the skin,

like a speed limit sign
dinged with pellets
from a moving car

or a ute.


Getting out

there’s a woman (7.23 [a.m.]) in the doorway
                of her art deco flat the next floor up
                in a brown-looking dressing gown, choking a longneck.


Weeks before

Everyone at Cronulla North that Australia Day
                got sick – the shits and a bad flu.


Then – right then

The first I heard – I thought I heard – was 
                a rash of fireworks near the racecourse – or shots.
                The sound of yelling, more bungers, then silence, 
                except for the sound of running/stopping/hiding.

Something sparks in, or against,
                the night’s damp gauze – 
                                                           a neighbour
in the next lot rubbing a switch,
                an image skidding from a dream.

Wouldn’t’ve done that. 
                Someone at their door.

Two days later, his head out in the hot street – 
                his face, featureless
                                                     as a country airport.

Apart from the flies, that is.

It had been said he had a “vernacular way” of playing footy.


After

When it began
I thought I was prepared.

I’d been watching The Walking Dead.

	I’d lost track of which season.


After

Along the railway
from stanchions
 
the council of developers
the miners’ government

dangle buzzed and charred
hooked up as bait
for who was left 

                from the military
                the local muscle

                                their families.

Word still got around
                                        for a while

Then

Day five, the telco networks went down 

and stayed down. Then people started guessing
things were pretty much fucked.

Going on to non-government 
news sites was no longer advisable.

False flag dirty bombs in country towns,
you heard.

On the town hall forecourt 
dozens of lumpy flags, draped in ants.

Burnt-out substations, 
suburbs’ skin patched with carcinomas


After 

A half-burnt body
with a blue southern cross
calf tattoo


Before: Still life with still-birth

The vase on the trundle table –
flowers, natives sent by friends
assuming and wishing the three of us 
the best,
                the empty ward of light
falling across them.   
                                     The midwife
unable to find a heartbeat. 
                                                So, 
of wattlebird feathers
that remind me of those thin
pale striations 
in orange tree flesh

caught in the low
winter morning sun
that trickles between 
the shed and the flats
behind
                as her daughter
plays in her toy car
and rolls herself in dew, so,
	
none of that.

The first time ever
I saw your face.


After

Shit. 
        That red dress, 
                                     its black butterfly motif, 
clasping her breasts.

                                        Her breasts.


Before

A local clip; not the first incident
around here, but the footage 
gone viral 0 to 60:

Broadmeadow station, 
the bridge’s shade on its slow 
creep along the platform. 

There’re two men, moving erratically, 
torsos hovering above the kids
squatting/standing, arsing about. 

A woman edges back, 
draws two children behind her, 
and is screaming, 

No, put it down, no. Oh, fuck no.

White noise white space. 

The awning’s underside, then, motionless.


After

Car bombs are so Julia Roberts,
circa 1993, The Pelican Brief, but then,
I am totally a legal romcom kind of girl.


Before

Kiribati became a reef
and we stopped the boats.


After

Once a backyard goey enthusiast,
now she’s an ace sentry/rosterer.

Somewhere, there’s singing, more
or less.
                The next thing, her top
was coming off over her head,
sliding from her shoulders, those
wiry arms.
                    My mouth sudden
on her mouth. Her hand 
at my vulva.


Before

A source close to the research clinic
suggested the behaviour was not
what had been evident

in the modelling
or the laboratory.
On the live feed,

one of the technicians said
The engineering process, this is
not what we would have expected,

this was not the intended 
application (meaning,
not here). She coughed 

as she shot herself. 
It was an autofeed
direct from her desk,

so it kept running, the focus
fixing on her still chin,
the seeping muck.


Getting out

The main roads blocked or gone – remembering
side paths onto the old fire trails from Guides,
and up the hills’ steep and gullied
switchbacks, killing mum’s car getting up through

there and over, walking the rest
of the way, past the party bus, empty,
headed once for the vineyards, and must’ve
detoured and detoured one of those early

nights: the doors swinging out and draining
dew onto the wrong side of the road –
look, a Louis Vitton handbag squeezed

behind the left rear tyre, unzipped. 
a sharded compact’s sticking out,
catching a crack of the sun. That happened, too.


After

The virus moving, a vast predator across the flat 
and crowded suburbs, the busy districts,
following the movement of crowds – it loved
an audience – speeding into dense populations,
a whale slicing through dark and silent water
after cornered schools, slurping us up like krill.


Before 

I remember our last time
in that hot dusty house 
the pink fibro, the floors you swayed on;
streaming Nina Simone on Spotify,
The Beasts of Bourbon left on
in the spare room.


Before

The custard pie the Home Affairs 
Minister bought in the face
at his final presser,
making everything official – 
laced with arsenic. The gasping, 
the waggling cameras and the actual 
falling and dying.
No-one minded, 
                                not really. 


After

Lorikeets, little iridescent Geiger counters 
in the ironbark.


After

I think the worst thing 
I saw was a collapsible pram 
writhing in the running gully.