being &

writing the poem & feeling nothing / reading the poem & feeling nothing / talking of l&lords & mental health / sincere & self-conscious of lordship of bondage / with everything that’s going on / what if it’s fucking nothing & actually / the real feeling is guilt for the satisfaction of that great big sweet nothing / which is a feeling incubating while the feeling incubates / while old centuries ready to recur / well i’m geared up to jam the gears / call me ned ludd or deluded with my meme rap inflection / emulating bourgeois consciousness while paying rent to the bank of dead mums & gr&ads / o big sweet hot wet nothing / bring me that mouth like a baz luhrmann interpretation / the nothing gets bigger & bigger / the nothing begins to hurt like too small school shoes / like cellulitis at the urgent care clinic / before you know / well now you know