1.
to be an even sea

after a prevailing storm
to cry like a woman

who will destroy and devour at once

2. 
she sits in the sun moisturising her legs
she is thinking about her many dreams
she feels the chaos within herself
she is refined rage
she is hard and soft all at once
she is a little tired

3. 
there are many words in māori which mean

‘to destroy’
there are many different ways

to destroy something
only she will allow herself to be destroyed

her love will be extinguished
destruction can be a disappearance

or it can be a mass extinction
to ruin is not necessarily to annihilate

4.
when the rain falls

the waterfalls on the steep cliffs flow
she goes to the hollowed out place

feels all the pain and affection for her ancestors
she moves to one side to cry

that is the marrow inside the bone being sucked out
she searches in the mountains

at the springs

in the trees and the birds

but she still cannot find it
the rain falls in drops

5.
the girl is radiant
she is a name on a phone lit up in the dark
lonely autocorrects to lovely
she feels so lovely today
she wants to miss something

that is good and pure
she wants to become like a soft light
you say how good she looks

performing her femininity 
while the male eats her with his gaze
she will be so radiant for you

she will fuck you up

6.
she wakes from a dream

of having a baby in her belly
she could feel the weight of it

its movements, tiny hands pressing

into the warmth of her
she remembers thinking, “finally, something i can hold onto”
reaching her fingers down to her stomach

there is no life inside of it
only the pulse of her own heart vibrating

throughout her body

7.
when she has finished her waiata

she hurls herself into paewai o te moana
her body will be swallowed up
she always thought she was

too gentle to destroy anything
but she has destroyed things before