(i)
Sometimes I feel as though

I am living half a life

A jigsaw puzzle I can’t

work out:

I am here,

I am there,

I am only half here.
I am half myself,

I am more than myself,

I am my worst self.
It goes on, it goes on,

I struggle, I get up,

I fall, I have all the pieces

But I just can’t seem

to put them together
I’ve lost something I need

I’ve lost something I never had

I’ve lost myself

I am losing.


(ii)
I betray what I have promised

and before and afterwards I feel sick

but without it, I feel empty.
I turn myself inwards, try to find

what is missing, I spend a lot

of time alone. I don’t find

what I’m looking for, I don’t

find any answers.
Outside the wind howls but

the frost is leaving the garden.

In the wind, the leaves shiver.