The worst part of it is remembering. That you once fell
into a lake while looking for my iguana. Another time, we splitthe earth open. Once, I forgot who I was and unraveled
my mind all over Janet’s living room, tore all the wallpaperoff her code. But you kissed it together again.
Heaven is a one-way street with no stoplights and hellis other people. A stack of unread magazines. A thought
experiment with no answers. You saw the timeknife, predicted the surgery. We’ve been through this
800 times. Sometimes, we were just friends. But if we foundeach other in every reboot, why am I afraid now,
the one time I’ve graduated from lab rat to scientist?You couldn’t lie to save a life, but I promise
I’m worth it. I’m a legit snack. I’m a forkingdelight. Look at what you’ve made me, sunbaked
Arizona trashbag: a good person. You’ve cured me hard.I’ve laughed and feared so much, it’s fixed
my coulrophobia. Here’s my agony in the gardenlawn: I didn’t ask to be the key to salvation.
I’d rather break into heaven than waltz right throughwithout you. I’d elope to purgatory, with all its lukewarm
beers and live covers. So please let this king’s cuppass me by. I want to have my moral yogurt
and eat it too. I want to watch this movie with you forever.I wish I could be selfish a little longer. But sure, I can play
the messiah. I can be a martyr: For you, I’d takethe trolley. I’d take the supermarket stampede
of a thousand shopping carts. I’d take the imperative.So don’t worry about me. Hurry into the waiting
room. I’ll be dandy. I’ll paint the neighborhoodwhite, like a real good lie. Like my first Christmas
without coal. I have an archangel and a compass now.I’ve been through hell and back. I’ll see you
on the other side. Everything will be fine.
- 115: SPACE
with A Sometimes
114: NO THEME 13
with J Toledo & C Tse
113: INVISIBLE WALLS
with A Walker & D Disney
112: TREAT
with T Dearborn
111: BABY
with S Deo & L Ferney
110: POP!
with Z Frost & B Jessen
109: NO THEME 12
with C Maling & N Rhook
108: DEDICATION
with L Patterson & L Garcia-Dolnik
107: LIMINAL
with B Li
106: OPEN
with C Lowe & J Langdon
105: NO THEME 11
with E Grills & E Stewart
104: KIN
with E Shiosaki
103: AMBLE
with E Gomez and S Gory
102: GAME
with R Green and J Maxwell
101: NO THEME 10
with J Kinsella and J Leanne
100: BROWNFACE
with W S Dunn
99: SINGAPORE
with J Ip and A Pang
97 & 98: PROPAGANDA
with M Breeze and S Groth
96: NO THEME IX
with M Gill and J Thayil
95: EARTH
with M Takolander
94: BAYT
with Z Hashem Beck
93: PEACH
with L Van, G Mouratidis, L Toong
92: NO THEME VIII
with C Gaskin
91: MONSTER
with N Curnow
90: AFRICAN DIASPORA
with S Umar
89: DOMESTIC
with N Harkin
88: TRANSQUEER
with S Barnes and Q Eades
87: DIFFICULT
with O Schwartz & H Isemonger
86: NO THEME VII
with L Gorton
85: PHILIPPINES
with Mookie L and S Lua
84: SUBURBIA
with L Brown and N O'Reilly
83: MATHEMATICS
with F Hile
82: LAND
with J Stuart and J Gibian
81: NEW CARIBBEAN
with V Lucien
80: NO THEME VI
with J Beveridge
57.1: EKPHRASTIC
with C Atherton and P Hetherington
57: CONFESSION
with K Glastonbury
56: EXPLODE
with D Disney
55.1: DALIT / INDIGENOUS
with M Chakraborty and K MacCarter
55: FUTURE MACHINES
with Bella Li
54: NO THEME V
with F Wright and O Sakr
53.0: THE END
with P Brown
52.0: TOIL
with C Jenkins
51.1: UMAMI
with L Davies and Lifted Brow
51.0: TRANSTASMAN
with B Cassidy
50.0: NO THEME IV
with J Tranter
49.1: A BRITISH / IRISH
with M Hall and S Seita
49.0: OBSOLETE
with T Ryan
48.1: CANADA
with K MacCarter and S Rhodes
48.0: CONSTRAINT
with C Wakeling
47.0: COLLABORATION
with L Armand and H Lambert
46.1: MELBOURNE
with M Farrell
46.0: NO THEME III
with F Plunkett
45.0: SILENCE
with J Owen
44.0: GONDWANALAND
with D Motion
43.1: PUMPKIN
with K MacCarter
43.0: MASQUE
with A Vickery
42.0: NO THEME II
with G Ryan
41.1: RATBAGGERY
with D Hose
41.0: TRANSPACIFIC
with J Rowe and M Nardone
40.1: INDONESIA
with K MacCarter
40.0: INTERLOCUTOR
with L Hart
39.1: GIBBERBIRD
with S Gory
39.0: JACKPOT!
with S Wagan Watson
38.0: SYDNEY
with A Lorange
37.1: NEBRASKA
with S Whalen
37.0: NO THEME!
with A Wearne
36.0: ELECTRONICA
with J Jones