u walk down the hallway & into the bedroom

u wake ur mum up & ask her to sign ur permission slip

she screams at u, 冷心的孩子 (u cold hearted child) 
u try to force urself back into ur body

but u can only watch urself

walk down the hallway & into the bedroom

& rouse ur mum & get screamed at again 
u want to be back in ur body now

but u r pulled back; all the way back this time

past the living room, and the other bedrooms, and the kitchen

and the window. the window in the kitchen

thru which u notice the sun

and wot u think u are morning sounds

and there is sth there; with the sun and the sound

and the melting of ur cold <3 
But before u can judge urself for seeing this

or doubt whether it’s real

Adult T appears

and she steps in front of tiny T

who is still just standing there in her school uniform, holding the permission slip

in her tiny lil hands 
And after this blip everything goes quiet

Ur adult body is absorbing all of the screaming

Ur not facing toward ur mum; but urself

U have ur arms around small T

Ur hunched over her so no part of her body is exposed

And she just stands there in her school uniform, holding the permission slip

On which words have now appeared
But before u can read them

Or doubt whether they’re real

You start to cry

because u cannot believe that after all this time

You get to save urself

The title of this poem is from 10:04 by Ben Lerner.