as burning house: https://theburninghouse.com/
The frog dies because it can’t detect the water boiling.
Felix no longer wants the slow release of forgetting. He wants
something swifter. To more readily mourn. To no longer wait.
He goes to Myer to buy a black suit.
as dusk: https://youtu.be/qRZE77N5woQ?t=9
as malfunctioning microwave:
as goodbye: https://thoughtcatalog.com/stacey-becker/2015/05/15-rules-you-must-follow-when-saying-goodbye-at-a-party/
as father’s words you’ll always remember:
“Be the master of the events.”
Felix is sorry you’re gone. He’s making seven phone calls to
different people in the underworld trying to make it through.
He’s on the phone with Ox-Head and Horse Face, guards of the
underworld. They keep trying to finish each other’s sentences.
But they’re extremely bad at it. Felix is getting nowhere.
to be swimming in tomorrow’s pool, tomorrow’s weather
today an egg in my hand (a little light escaping the eggshell)
will remain burning tomorrow’s things for tomorrow’s dead
I should call my mum, tomorrow
as online search to confirm name:
as the physics of waves: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tc2tW0jFHPo
as grandma’s conversational skills:
How tall are you?
And how tall is your brother?
And how much money do you make?
Felix steps back into a memory of his childhood. There is Felix
and there is a rabbit. Later, he is unsure if it is a memory
of the event or a memory of seeing a family video of the event.
as Google-translated title:
to eat the fruit that will be received
to receive the fruit that will be cut
to give the fruit that will be received
to grow the fruit that will be given
as response to fast-approaching deadline:
Felix goes to the beach to look at fish.
as grandma’s conversational skills five minutes later:
How tall are you?
How tall is your brother?
How much money do you make?
as what happened to the blueprint: melted by rain.
as family memoir postponement:
Felix’s mother drops a vat of soup on his laptop. Everything is gone.
He quickly cycles through the stages of grief. Kübler-Ross proposes
five stages. Felix reckons there are more.
He has since learnt to back up his work.
as what might come after:
as three further questions:
what if i could remember your face forever
what if i could think in the language first given to me
what if i finally downloaded WeChat
as how I felt about it before:
Contained in rooms. Rooms, plural, but still rooms.
as zoom call: Felix has been speaking for five minutes and has been
on mute the whole time.
as paternal love:
as transition from container to possibility:
By Eric Jiang | 1 December 2022